Some days I don't even know what am I doing any more. I want to do. I don't. Have mood. No mood. On. Off. What is it exactly is it that I am missing? I feel like there's a piece of the puzzle I'm missing. I have things to do. If I can get my mind organised enough to sort my life out. I want to plan. I don't want to plan.

What is my life for anyways? I don't know anymore. The closest analogy I have is of floating down a river, clinging desperately to branches. Sometimes I switch to other debris. But I am always spinning, spinning around. Sometimes the branch points in a certain direction and I head towards there, but then I get turned around by currents till I am lost again.

I am glad I kept this blog. It gives me a place to put my thoughts. I have always liked things to be neat and orderly but my mind's all a-jumble now. I go out with friends. Everything is ok. But then suddenly I lose the feeling. And I feel...nothing. Results came out today. It was...alright I guess. Was super happy after discovering S/U can help me improve my grade. Now I am...I dunno.

Maybe I will wake up in the morning and try to make sense of it all. I am feeling sleepy. It might be the beer. But I only had one pint. I think I shall make a list in the morning. Lists often help to sort out things. I hope. Coming week is busy.

#nowplaying Radiohead - Fake Plastic Trees.

 I want more out of this life. :(

I went out with classmates today for dinner. I enjoyed myself. We had dinner and then ice cream and drinks at a pub. It was great. I wish I could have more days like this.