Had dinner. Was ok. Tried to save money. Almost over budget for this month already. Its nice to get together and all you know but...meh. When u get together and a few people get really engrossed in a really deep, serious conversation, geez what do the rest of us do? It felt like we were sharing the table with some strangers, or two separate groups of friends going out.

I know you all haven't see each other in a while but if you're not going to involve the rest of us, why did we even bother going out together in the first place? I'm sorry, I just seriously got very turned off by it. I hardly think I didn't drop enough hints. "Oh, are we in the conversation now? OH, we're in the chatroom." Maybe I make too many jokes. Maybe it was all a joke to you.

Ok. I can entertain myself. No data connection? Read an e-book. I almost started listening to my MP3. But I didn't. I didn't because a certain particular person (who was there today) does it and I think it is an absolutely disgusting and disrespectful thing to do. And one thing more than that that I hate? Hypocrites. So I kept myself away from the music.

Seriously though, you're out with friends and you walk around with 1 or 2 earbuds stuck in your ear? Are we THAT uninteresting that you have to amuse yourself with prerecorded music of some singer on a track you're probably heard 10 times before? Do you need background music whenever your friends TRY to talk to you? Another major turn-off. It's an insult to those you're out with.

So I closed up shop early today. Read my ebook, wander along. Am I ok? Yes I'm ok. I'm perfectly fine. What I'm turned off by is that when you don't involve everybody and u carry on like that for so long, well we might as well not have been there anyway. I don't know what Ben feels about this. Maybe he's fine with it. But 7 people go out and the coversation goes 3/4. Then what for we go out? Take a group picture for show?


Note: I am not turned off because I wasn't in the conversation. I was turned off by the fact u excluded the 4 other people when it's already hard enough to get everyone out together. Maybe the others don't feel this way. Maybe it's just me.


Ok, it's a serious topic. Ok it's private, maybe it's girls talk. There were two other girls besides us, no? Sigh. You know what, it's my fault. You all can talk to each out in your serious quiet group. I'm being weird eh? I guess I take after my dad in more way than I realise. If he's in a bad mood he'll disappear, wander off, walk away by himself till he's satisfied That explains the wandering and the disappearance. Funny world.

I hope I'm not being presumptuous here by thinking you might apologise, but in the event you all might consider it, no. Please don't. I'm not looking for an apology of any sort and I mean it. I just want you to think about the other 3 people you left out. That is all.