Haven't blogged for the past two days. No time. Too busy. Also doing the stupid Photoshop thing. Mon and Tues were hellish. All it takes is a few letters by the government and free money (hell I like free money too!) and everyone scrambles to sign up with us. Business is crazy. We're running out of slots and they're still coming. It's insane. I've almost given up on trying to clear my work. =.=

Wed, tuition. Orginially asked val out for dinner. She said most likely can. Ben was gonna come but then he din feel like going out in the end. Then Val canceled with me 5 mins b4 I was about to leave work. Because she had to go and buy some case for the her camera. And the shop is closing. She said she would prolly finish at 8. But I thought the shop is closing?

She said she had to go home and change to slippers. I presume for Sentosa. But since u were going Sentosa in the first place wouldn't you have already planned that originally? Unless it was already in your schedule and buying a camera case takes up the same amount of time as dinner.

I don't know quite what to say. Needless to say I'm unhappy of course. You cancel with me at the last minute after I expect I'll be going out/having dinner with friends etc. May you said hey lets go out for dinner. Which is just empty words. It's July. You're so busy all the time, nothing ever works out. And now this. I had to what? Scour your Google calendar to finally find a date that is free. Then I just KNEW it would be forgotten. BAM you went for camp.

Yeah, sure I said next time. OF COURSE NEXT TIME. Next time is just a meaningless filler. It's like "It's ok" or "Nevermind". Sometimes it's just a hollow word you say because it is the expected response. And nothing else. When I said next time, I know it means nothing. There won't be one. Because you won't ask me out. I have to do so and everytime everything falls through. It's not fun you know.

Its not like I die die want to/have to go out with you. But when just meeting up with you friends for a meal becomes a feat akin to Singapore winning the World Cup blindfolded, isn't it a bit WTF? So I guess its probably I don't mean anything to you or I'm not worth your time. I wonder how people manage to secure meet ups with you. They get their own Google calendar appointment! Wow! I wonder how they do that because I gotta learn from them. Because my Google calendar invite to you on that date I mentioned earlier is still unanswered since June. Darn it.

I suppose I'm just a filler. Fun to plug and play anywhere, anytime, cancellation free-of-charge. Or I shouldn't care anymore. Friends, you have a ton of. Outings, also. Friends and outings are a dime a dozen. They all mean so little because they're all the same. Why bother? Next one will be along in no time. I'd say it'd be more appropriate to tell me when you're free but I know u won't bother. And having your plans going to waste is really getting to me. Maybe, seriously, call me if you want to see my face. Because its getting really hard to care anymore. Or am I the only silly soul who finds it nice to meet up with my friends once in a while? I don't know.

ALL of you reading. I forbid you from telling her about this post. I'm guessing it may be a bit harsh but I just know I'm not very happy right now. Note however its the second time I'm complaining about this. And mark my words she will NEVER bother to take time to ask me out. Ever.