Chapter 20
Wednesday, October 24, 2007,
10/24/2007 02:47:00 AM
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Day 11 of Isolation - 23/10/07
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Hmm. Mugged about 9 hours only today at macs. Still, it wasn't that bad because I was quite focused today. I didn't feel the need to listen to the radio or play with my handphone games. Apart from some talking and jokes with the rest, it was ok. I did all math today. Been doing a lot of it. =\ I'm more okay with it now. =X Here's some mathematical fun.
x(x-x) = x²-x² = 0
(x-x)(x+x) = x²-x² =0Hence,
x(x-x)=(x+x)(x-x)Canceling (x-x),
x=x+xLetting x be 1,
(1) = (1+1)
1 = 2Therefore all numbers are the same and Math is pointless.
I think Ben showed my something like this before, but I can't remember so this is the version I found online.
Math is mildly...borderline...interesting. At times. Occasionally.
Labels: mugging
Monday, October 22, 2007,
10/22/2007 12:26:00 PM
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Day 10 of Isolation - 22/10/07
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This is going to be a very interesting post...
Today, or rather the day before, I embarked on another ambitious journey. To mug overnight at Delifrance at Changi T1, AND to beat Shawn's recored of mugging 18 hours non-stop. And I'm doing mine without sleep. His was from 7AM to 1AM. And so, my epic journey begins...at 2:48pm on a Sunday afternoon.
After tuition, took the 27 bus to Changi to meet the rest. Oh yeah, this Indian woman cut my queue to board the bus first. The BUS. Like OMG, it's not a cab! It doesn't drive off once you get in! There's like 10 other people waiting to board it! Oh, and as if that's not bad enough, she even tried to cut the queue of a really wrinkled and old lady probably twice her age. What the hell...=.= I was damn surprised she'd try such a stunt in public. And she was only hampered by the metal railing dividing the steps, so she didn't get to cut in front of that old lady. And once she got on she rushed to a seat as quickly as she could and planted her ass on it. You would've thought she was playing musical chairs. Wowee. REAL mature, lady. She's in her 40s, mind you.
Anyway, the bus ride after that was without incident. I reached at about 3 or 4 I think. My original plan was to mug 24 hours non-stop without sleep. Oh, but there were a few problems, namely the fact that we went to have dinner, and then spent some time at the basement NTUC buying snacks. Oh and then Val kept fighting with Yingda. As I put it in the recorded video, this would be perfectly normal if you subtracted 15 years off their ages.
Ben left at 10 or so, yingda left also, and the other Val from my class left too, leaving me and Val. Oh then came 2 MJ guys to study overnight. When we looked around, the only 4 people studying overnight are from MJ and that says a lot, I think. OH YEAH THEN COMES THE COOLEST PART.
So we were mugging along, minding our own business, and I kept hearing screams. I thought it was kids, then Val told me to go see. I looked and saw a crowd. So we decided to kaypo a little. Wandered over, saw girls screaming. Aha! Famous people! So I was trying to get a peek, and the screams intensified, and than I saw a caucasian guy, and some security guy asking people to let the band pass. I think...ZOMGWTFBBQ THE CLICK FIVE LOL. They chose the flight so they'd land at 1140+PM on a Sunday evening, so there wasn't much of a mob, but it was still a pretty big crowd. And all of them were taller than the average height of everyone in the mob lol.
I like their music but I'm not a SUPER fan, but still I went to take photos with them for the sake of taking photos. ^^ I don't even know who I took photos with...lol! But it was still pretty cool and fun lol. The pics are slightly blur but you can still tell who's who. Hmm...If you go http://www.theclickfive.com/index2.php I think I took a picture with the guy on the extreme right and the guy in the middle. =D
Then...back to mugging. The night passes pretty fast in the little corner where Delifrance is situated, its very quiet with little activity. The two MJ guys wander off often and sleep often. =/ They later leave at 7AM. So we mug mug mug all the way till the morning. You may feel a little tired, but then your body realises it's not going to get any sleep tonight, so it just gives up and dives straight into the Just Woken Up mode. You feel alive, refreshed, hyper and on top of the world.
You feel like you could mug for ever and you are happy for some reason. This was me near morning. But it doesn't last. It was from about 5plus to 6 or so. Then the feeling died. You become blur, and a bit out of sync. Thinking slows a little. Impatience and frustration grows and you become more irritable. Every time you are asked to differentiate an already complicated differential equation further, you get closer to losing it and feeling totally pissed off and lashing out at someone.
I forge on through Math, but progress is slow. Sometimes I stop dead at points and I hardly know it for a minute or so until I come to my senses again. some saturation and mild nausea kicks in. I continue doing and doing until I realise I have absolutely NO idea where I am at, what the hell I am trying to do and where I was. I give up and switch to Chem. The switch improves my mood a little. I am reenergised and do chem.
Val leaves with her parents and I mug alone. It is morning already. I keep pushing onward looking forward to the 20 hour mark. Trying so hard...a little past 10AM...then boom. I black out. Never even knew what hit me. When I come to, I realise I have just woken up. I have no recollection of having gone to sleep at all and the past 30 plus minutes of my life are missing. I figure that my body must have hit its limit and ran straight into a brick wall, and totally crashed and burned. It just shut down by itself without warning. No "Your battery is low", just pop! and I wake up 30 mins later.
I get up and am totally disorientated, slightly unsteady on my feet. I start packing up. I wonder what I looked like. Movements were slow and sluggish, it was like someone else was controlling my body and I was wavering in and out of a dreamlike state. vision was kinda blur and I could only judge that I'd packed everything by the emptiness of my table. I couldn't think straight at the moment. Somehow made my way to the bus stop in the basement without killing myself, and waited forever for 27 to come. Dozed on the bus as it made its long way home...
And that is how my journey ended except I did get to rivervale plaza to meet my parents, but that's irrelevant. Um. Damn I can't remember what else I wanted to type. Oh wait.
I think I mugged about 19+ hours. Hope its ok. Did Bio paper 1,2,3, 3 Math papers, 1 chem paper 3 and 1.5 chem paper 2. And I don't advise doing this too often. This is because I am a trained professional and have attempted dangerous stunts like this before. If you try it, make sure to bring a friend along. Several times I thought I was going to fall sick because I sometimes felt cold from the aircon, and yet warm when I put on my jacket, and also die from exhasution, sometimes my mind was so scrambled I didn't know what was going on or maybe die from sleep deprivation because of the constant subtle battle against the urge to sleep. But, I've managed to learn how to suppress it so i don't have to waste energy trying to stay awake. But still, not funny. It really takes a toll on your body.Labels: mugging
Friday, October 19, 2007,
10/19/2007 01:05:00 AM
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Day 7 of Isolation - 19/10/07
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I couldn't sleep.
"It's funny how memories -the funny stuff you keep in your head- are like little cans of food. They can be preserved for a very long time, sometimes they fall off the shelves and you lose them, and sometimes...the food inside them goes bad.
When what used to be such a wonderful treat turns sour, you don't even dare to look in. You crack open the lid a bit, peek, and push it away, too afraid to confront what it has become. These become (in Freudian terms) repressed memories. Subconsciously, your brain, the ever-so-vigilant floor manager packs up the spoiled cans in a crate, and ships it somewhere to the back of the warehouse.
Perhaps in storage. somewhere in a dark corner, where they are not to be disturbed. But sometimes, late at night, while you are working in that warehouse alone, looking through the millions of small boxes, you comes across one of those cans again. Maybe it's in a box - maybe it's at your feet. You recall what was inside, and wonder if you should open it, but something stops you, and you drop it - as if scalded. That's the voice of the floor manager, warning you, telling you, not to open it, lest you hurt yourself again.
It's like a book in a library. You pick it up, read its spine. This book used to be quite a great one. It contained such a wonderful part of your life. You open it, and discovered everything has changed. It has been vandalised, scrawled over in ink, the pages ripped out, the words foul, and the pictures altered. Nothing is the same anymore.
Neither is your life.Labels: musings
Fire and brimstone. Had one of the worst fights with my sis ever today. Phew. Long story, and a whole lotta crap. That's the way she is...calculating and such. Lol. I wonder if she knows my blog. No matter. She's ranted on hers and so I shall take the liberty to do the same.
This is just one of those trivial things in life, you know, so if anyone skips this it won't be much you're missing. It also contains many facebook references which I can't be bothered to explain. Yes, It's 3.34 in the morning but besides, I basically wake at 10 or 11 every morning =.= so no matter how late I stay up I still can't wake up super early. Whatever. Anyways, point is the she threw "poo" at me on facebook when I specifically told her not to. I thought it'd clog up my minifeed and when I'd log in I'd see 50 messages going "Your dumb little sister has thrown Super Happy Awesome Funtime Poo at you! -RETALIATE!" Well, no. As she pointed out(on her blog), it doesn't appear in the minifeed but only in the app window. Well, fine but I still friggin' get "Your dumb little sister has thrown Super Happy Awesome Funtime Poo at you! -RETALIATE!" message in the end right? Pfft.
Yeah, well, so i came back at about 1130, I was tired and such, and basically it just devolved into a screaming match which, in a perverse way helped me blow off steam. You know how families fight. It seems like World War III until the next day when everyone's normal and Super Happy again in accordance with standard operation procedures and governmental policy. =] I don't know if we'll be Super Happy tomorrow, though. This one was pretty bad.
Then she dragged in the fact that I'd "borrowed"(quotations marks are put there myself) her phone to send myself a racing game. Oh wow. The horror. Oh, oh, then she started screaming about "invasion of privacy" on her blog.(actual quote) Excuse me but I know what are boundaries, okay? I admit I did do send a game over, but I NEVER, repeat NEVER would stoop so low as to reading someone's messages, or any form of personal communiques WITHOUT permission. Please. I am better than that. Besides, what would I be interested in? The small talk between 13 year old girls? Oh yes, that Korean movie star is indeed very hot. Wow. I have better things to do.
Then she starts to go all smug and such and say stuff about how I secretly use the internet or how I don't mug but play that "addictive" game.
1. I play it on bus rides or when I take a break.
2. When you see how much shit I, or anyone has to go through in our system, you WILL need a break. Or you will just. Fucking. Snap. Get me?
Some people can do it. I can't. Ok? Fine. I do admit I've made a wrong choice because I'm not suited for this kind of life, but I'm trying to make the best of what I can here. So she says just wait for my results. Ok fine. I know there is a chance I may screw up. I don't know. But I believe if anything, it won't be because of these little "secret internet visits" of "addictive" games, its because I took the wrong route in the system. What? 5 mins online and I lose 1 mark? Any solid way you can quantify that?
Maybe you've just made me want to work harder. I don't know. Bring it. I just removed you from my facebook account. HA. lol. From her blog:"When I checked...1 new notification for today only." I don't DO everything on facebook when I go online. =.= I log in, check some stuff and get out. What are you now? A stalker? Gonna pop into my profile every 5 mins and say Hey! You've only got so little notifications! Let's throw show poo at you so you have MORE shit to wade through when you're done accepting/rejecting those 3965 requests to join Useless Facebook App or Pointless Way to Burn Time. Gee. Wow. Thanks. Just what I wanted. Brilliant.
Oh well maybe this'll be over, but in how long, I don't know. Family: If yours ain't dysfunctional, it ain't real! Haha. I'm not actually wanting it to be over though, but neither am I purposely wanting it to continue...I'm still pretty pissed, so basically just waiting for the embers at ground zero to cool before looking for survivors and sifting through the rubble.
It's most often a positive-negative thing. Like in the computer game The Sims. You got your positive relationships, and you got your negative ones. And then you get those that fluctuate. She once said I wasn't a good brother, basing her observation on that of her friend's brother. Lol. I admit that I am not. A certain classmate of mine has an older brother that treats her well too. I dunno, but maybe it's just the age and the personality. Perhaps the age difference isn't so great that you can have a doting older brother who buys stuff for you. (Partially because we don't share Hollywood touching sibling moments and learn a lot about each other.)
The age difference is not so close that you can form a tight sibling bond between each other like my cousins. It's more of a we are ok with each other and then we can fight like hell, and once in a blue moon, it's the whole friggin' Apocalypse all over again. Maybe it comes from growing in a household with a dad that's quick to anger. But as time goes by, we've all matured. Grown calmer. He gets ticked off less now, and our normal to fighting ratio is about 80:20, which isn't too bad. Ah, at least I'm outta the house. most of the day. But I better lock my door lest she do something funny while I'm gone. I don't trust her yet, at least not now.
Oh yeah. I did snap. I pulled, well, not pulled, but turned off the plug to the computer and its assorted friends. That pissed her off. I knew it would. It's those impulsive things you do when you're pissed and can't think straight. And..instead of uncontrolled ranting, I did restrain myself because I knew it'd look pretty ugly on my blog, and besides, if I did so, every one word out of every two would be unprintable. Which is probably why I don't sound that murderous. lol.Labels: don't care, facebook, lame crap, misanthropic, screw it all
Thursday, October 18, 2007,
10/18/2007 12:59:00 AM
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Day 5 of Isolation - 17/10/07
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Today has been so-so. Everyday I feel I am not doing enough...I went to school at about 12 plus, tak and val were there. ben was at Ikea. He came back with some food, and then XW came along also. Lol. I have to admit we were quite noisy at times. Don't think I did a lot today, though we did get down to work later. I left school at 9 plus...=\ I'll see if I can get up earlier tomorrow to go to school and mug. Bleahs.
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My sister visited newgrounds, and tried something called Unreal Flash, a shooting game. She entered the tutorial, and got through it until the stage when you were supposed to learn how to kill someone. She killed the first guy, and unlocked the whole range of weapons to experiment with. The second guy popped up and started shooting at her. She was invincible and had like more than 10 weapons at her disposal.
"What's up with this??? Why is he shooting at me? This game sucks!"-closes window-
Um. It's a shooting game? You're supposed to like, I dunno, shoot people and stuff? And they like, shoot back? And its a tutorial so you're supposed to kill him in all the weird and wonderful ways just for fun?Labels: mugging, random crap
Monday, October 15, 2007,
10/15/2007 09:18:00 PM
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Day 3 of Isolation - 15/10/07
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"I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm not in a mood to mug today. I dunno why. It's one of those days. I only finished Bio Paper 1, 2, and 3 of ACJC. This better be just one of those off-form days, because this SUCKS. I feel. Dead. Lifeless, or maybe...lost. I 'm like drifting about emotionally and mentally, without a goal, a course and an anchor. It feels horrible, cast adrift in an endless sea of desolation and emptiness.
I can't get my mind to fixate on someything for long before my brain screams it has had enough, and it hasn't. I haven't exactly done a lot today. Somehow my mind just doesn't feel like going on. Like it has given up. Or lost its will to carry on.
No matter what I do, I can't coax, persuade, commands, force, or terrify it into doing any work. A sharp contrast to yesterday when I was happily doing Math for 5 hours straight at Macdonalds. This is a cry for help from within a tortured soul. I am lost. I need help. I don't even know if I should stay at home to mug, go out to mac's to mug, go to school to mug, or whatever. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT DO TO ANYMORE. I feel so helpless. So lost. So alone."
"I look at Math, and I feel repulsed. I look at Chem, do a bit, and feel very unwilling. I think maybe I should go to sleep but it's too early to do so. I can't even do so because I don't know what to do tomorrow. I want, no, I NEED a plan somehow. Ideally I want to go out somewhere with soneone good to mug with and stay out for several hours. I don't wanna go to school because that reminds me i'm ponning the econs exam."
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I want to MUG!!! And I feel better now. I think I wasn't in the best of moods because I didn't do a lot today...and that made me quite cranky. But I think I have a solid plan for tomorrow and I feel kinda better. funny how these things come and go. That's life I guess, same as with that day with the facebook thing. I felt quite an ass that day for being hooked on that site for two days...but when I look back my post sounds pretty silly by itself...haha. At least its just a temporary thing. I Wouldn't wanna go around feeling like that everyday. Didn't sleep well last night....couldn't go to sleep for a very long time. I woke up with a sore back, indicating I'd spent most of the night in a highly uncomfortable cramped position.Labels: emo, mugging
Sunday, October 14, 2007,
10/14/2007 01:18:00 AM
Okay fine, I'm back, whatever. I'm sacrificing my sleep time for this so it's not that bad and because I have tuition tomorrow, and I'm actually sleeping earlier than usual, i'll still sacrificing sleep time. In fact if I ever post again it'll be using time I have to sleep. I and seriously feel the need to post something and just rant or I think I'll go crazy. A person can only take so much stress, okay? Besides the following are just some stuff I scribbled down quickly in point form today.
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Day 1 of Isolation - 13/10/07
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"After severing my ties with the internet I feel very melancholy and yet strangely mellow. It's the first time I took such extreme measures to lock up my computer in such a state and this method is similar to one on how to cut smoking. Make the object you desire very difficult, very troublesome to reach and you'll feel like not getting it at all."
"I got scared to death just now. My SMS tone is that of Windows XP starting up, and was mugging along when someone messaged me. For an instant I thought my computer started up itself while disconnected and batteryless in my cupboard and that scared the crap outta me."
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I mugged from say 9+ to 7, then 1 hours over at Shawn's house helping with GP. Total maybe 9 to 10 hours after deducting random crap. I'm going to spend most of my day (and maybe night) at Mac's tomorrow. I'm not mugging enough. I'll bring 2 Math 2 Chem and 2 Bio papers to practice. I'll try to finish all before I go home. Or something along those lines.
I lost my dATA BOOKLET. i CAN'T FIND IT. fIRST i LOSE THE SELF-PRINTED mATH FORMULA SHEET OH SCREW MY CAPS. I'm too tired to fix it now. Sorry. DAMMIT. Sigh. Very irritated and stressed right now. Because I HATE losing stuff. I seriously want my data booklet back and what makes it worse is that I know I used it a coupla days ago. If anyone has an extra booklet or something that's not yours please tell me. I HATE losing crap and I always just want it back or just know its location so I can get it back, even after the A's. Thinking about it just pisses me off. I'm going crazy here. I want my data booklet. And my sis friggin' turned off the com when I told her I wanted to use it before I went to bed. That made me snap. right after the data booklet thing. it's like the question that broke the student's back. Snap. I sat there just cursing violently for the next few minutes. I'm not in a very good mood now. Damn I hate this life.Labels: rants
Saturday, October 13, 2007,
10/13/2007 09:20:00 AM
Goodbye.A quick explanation about my sudden disappearance from the realm of all things weird and wonderful last night. I was on facebook and messsing about as usual. I noticed my cousin sent me a message, so I open it. And it hit me. What the FUCK was I doing on here right now??
I need every minute I can get. I needed something to scare me off the net. And that did it. I was several things. Firstly I was pissed off. At myself, for succumbing to the wiles of the internet, and for not being strong enough to hold up to temptation, and being stupid enough to think I would "join to see what the fuss was about." But no, It's not a social networking website. It's a fucking
drug. And it scared me. It scared me bad. I was disappointed at myself for having done what I did. I felt like cursing and swearing and kicking myself. For not recognising the effect it had on me. For not resisting against the pull of the site. For being a total ass. For being me. I hated myself to the core at that point. Full of loathing and disgust.
Could I really be that weak and foolish? Apparently so. Feeling like a horrible idiot, a true sucker for all the fun and games on facebook. Those are the weird and random little things which I like, so of course I was hooked. I still hate myself for it. I am a fucking idiot. So I got my comp. I hid it in a cupboard, tried some string around the door and locked it up, added my bicycle chain, and then dumped the keys in my dad's safe, and locked those up. Hopefully that will hold me off for a while. I'm only using my sis's comp for a bit. I need to atone for my sins. I don't know how many hours I can put in, but if I mug 20 hours a day there's still time to put in over 360 hours before the 'A' start.
The only good thing is that I was only on Facebook for 3 days and I was out mugging from 8:30AM to 9:35PM on one of those days. So I at most lost two days of mugtime. But two days = 48 hours. I could've done a lot.
I guess this is goodbye for the last time.
Farewell all,
-=[K]=-
13 October 2007
I've been a fool and I hate myself for it.Labels: cousins, emo, facebook, life sucks, misanthropic, mugging, rants, screw it all
Friday, October 12, 2007,
10/12/2007 02:16:00 PM
I was supposed to substitute (1-i) into the many "x" in an equation. I wrote (1-i), then (x) then x. Stroke it all out and wrote again. I wrote (1-i), and then (1-4). I cursed, crushed up the stupid paper and tossed it. =.=
Stupid Maths.Labels: random crap
Haha I'm feelin' lazy today. I can see why Facebook is quite adictive gaaah CURSE YOU! lol. I must resist being one of the brainwashed masses....must resist...I cannot step into the IRs! I'm a compulsive gambler. -sobs- I lost all my savings betting on flufffriends races and now my turle only has 3 munny left to eat! We'll have to BEG! T...To BEG for food! Poor Killer, what have I done to you??? Its all my fault! ALL MINE! I should have bet on you to win the first race! WHY??? =[
Now my facebook page is like any typical facebook user's cluttered with tonnes of nonsensical useless thingamabobs and thingsamajigs and whatchamacallits and whangdoodles and whirrcricketys and I'm making up all these random words. =D Oh well...off to bed lol.
Oh, uh yest I came home in a bus which the aircon was broke and and it was frggin' hot and today I got on a bus that stank throughout of stale sweat. Yecch. Still dare to raise transport fares. Cheeky little buggers. I stayed in sch from 830 to 935, mugged at some time before 10 after consultation till 935pm. I still feel I didn't mug enough today. I finished my econs mindmaps. Uh...I got a dinner w/ old friends tml, cant go sch. =[ My cousin says MJ Chem P1 is damn hard, so maybe its just MJ out to kill us. And its all a giant conspiracy by the school. I got my NS letter. Enlisting 11 April. Let's hope I can get my soul back. OH wait after NS I might have to sell it to the uni at S$0/=. Same price for the Army. At least I can work like 4 mths before that. I wanna earn ka-ching! to buy meself a goold ol' PSP. ;)Labels: random crap
Thursday, October 11, 2007,
10/11/2007 12:07:00 AM
Graduation"I'm not drunk yet..."
- Goh Galvyn, 2007Well. So here it is. Closure of yet another chapter in the story of my life. Ah. JC. The singly most hateful period of my 18 years of life, the period through which I have been through so much, grown so much, and yet still know so little, for there is still a world out there for me to explore, and I don't know if I ever will get the chance to do so.
For so long I have waited for this day to come, and my freedom will be secured in 42 more days. Before I give my soul to the Army. But first, JC. When I first came I didn't know what to expect. My friend Shawn went there for the first 3 months. When we returned to school, he raved about it like some insane prophet. The fun! The slackness! The awesome teachers! The hot girls! -coughs- Sorry, something in my throat. Ahem. Anyways, so we and our friends, we thought, hey, cool, let's go to MJ. And so it was. Except for 1 hitch. Well, 4 actually. Out of the 6 of us, 1 scored too well, off to AJ. One scored too low, went to TP. The other 2 went to Poly. And that's it. I remember thinking my situation was ironically like the anti-crime poster back then. "Where have all my brothers gone?" Indeed. Where have they gone? We have hardly contacted each other except occassionally, once a few months now.
When I first came, Orientation was fun. It was totally fantastic. I will give it that. It was great, but it also masked the true horrors that were to be. I spent my first six months copying homework, slacking, and generally fooling about. We weren't aware what we were getting into. Life seemed good, I was happy. I had a reason to come to school. Then around June, I scored really badly for mid years. And then something happened. Something that horribly dragged me into a whirling cesspool of misery and emoness and depression that I took months to snap out of. It was bad.
I tried to get back during the end of years, but managed only minor improvement. I still hadn't really recovered. I got advanced. I also felt I didn't really fit into this class. At first we were all ok, but then as time went by, people gravitated towards their own groups and poof, mismatched. When I stopped lying to myself, I realised only one thing. If I could hang on long enough, I could get out of this hell, and that I also regretted ever coming.
Around October, we started Mugalomaniac, and I met taky, xiwen, and val, and life started to take on a brighter side. I studied, but still got slightly better for Block tests, and totally screwed up for mid years. It was Mugalo that kept me sane, or else I'd have been totally stressed. In fact, I'm probably already partially nuts. Everyday, I couldn't wait for each day to end. Before long, the week was over, the weekends faster. Psychologically, I made time pass so fast I couldn't believe it. Then, it was so close to end. It seemed like yesterday when I set the countdown on my nick and saw 80 days to the 'A's. 80. And it's going to be over soon.
The Plastic Muggers and the posts over at Mugalo, the readers that love my comics, the thousands of readers that visit us are what sustain me now. They make me enjoy life just a little bit more. That and my good friends. JC may have been the most reviled period of my life yet, but I'm glad I met some of the greatest people. Thank you, ben, tak, xiwen, val, M.A.G.E., Danson, Sunny, Galvyn. You all have been great friends and helped make this journey a little easier for me. Some of you guys may not be mentioned, but I am thankful to have met you guys too. These are the people I can think of off the top of my head. How much I can write about you doesn't really indicate how much you guys have been awesome, it's what I can think of right now.
Ben, for your lame humor, when at first I felt I couldn't really fit in, I'm glad I could hang out with you. Lol.
Tak, who is another great friend, thanks for everything, and I hope your foot gets better. And Big Brother stops reading your blogs. =D
XW, who is in love with my bag also, the innocent girl who has been traumatised by Ben lol.
Val, newest Mugalomaniac, and a very violent one. =P
M.A.G.E., who is my bag's girlfriend.
Sunny, a great guy. =D
Danson, someone whom I can relate to intellectually (I mean that as a compliment lol), and can also turn into a very juvenile 18 year old who likes to poke me.
Galvyn, the Lieutanant General, the 江湖英雄(jiang1 hu2 ying2 xiong2/Mountain Lake Hero(I THINK. My Chinese SUCKS.)), the quirkiest guy in the class, the future opposition leader, and a thoroughly interesting character. Stay crazy. Never forget:
“Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently... because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
Namaste.All the best to you guys,
-=[K]=-
10/10/2007
Labels: a new beginning, musings
Tuesday, October 09, 2007,
10/09/2007 11:20:00 PM
Today I attended the last lecture of my JC life. Bio. =D It was thrilling. Galvyn wanted to take a picture. Instead I drew a picture of proton cannons, his favourite biological item. Anyway the above is the the nicest pic I took on open house day.
Later I went to study room to mug till about 845. SCREW. Stupid frickin' blogger f-ed up and I lost some of my post. Hell awash with erythrocytes. =.= I think I'm not doing enough.
Later went to study room to study. It was hot stuffy and reminiscent of a room to gas POWs in. Noone opened the windows at all. =.= Later they turned up the aircon, at 145pm. double =.=. Mugged till 845 or so. I still feel I'm not doing enough. No. I AM not doing enough. Gah. Crap. Some pics. Tomorrow is grad ceremony even MORE pics.
I think tak wanted this pic...
Stating the...uh, obvious.
Wonderful spot to mug.
Transformers Bus! In the midst of transforming!
Immunity Shield+5 Grants user(s) ability to resist being evicted.
Food hologram activate!
I think they shrank the size of the Mcflurry! Damn. Sneaky asses. Tak's hand should be the proper size of it.
Kitties!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tak, can rip the pics straight off my site. Lol.
BOP! Oh goodness this reminds me of a certain mind-exploding High School Musical song. Lol. I shall not elaborate. I brutally hate the show with a burning vengeance. I just do. =P No offence to people who like it of course. That's just my feelings. I feel like beating it to death with a very big stick, that's all.
This sick guy was abusing a cat. Well, not really abusing but...uh rough love. S&M with a cat. Yup. Today morning at the busstop. He was stroking, fondling, and caressing and rubbing the cat and I think it was obvious if cats spoke, it'd say: Fuck off, dickhead! I don't want to be stroked! Go away! But the asshole apparently doesn't understand cat body language. He kept stroking its side, head, haunches, legs, and it tried to scratch him a few times, and biting him, but he just ignored it, avoided its claws, and kept stroking. It tried to walk away, but he grabbed it, put it back, made it sit and stroked it again. WTH. What a sick bastard. Does he get off on stroking cats against their will? I wanted to slap him. It's a living thing, not a toy!
Stop. Drop. Roll.
Lol. The stuff mugging makes you do.
Sick question.
My neighbour's fish swimming in water 1cm deep. WOW. =.= When it dies(not if, but WHEN) his stupid little plastic fake mountain rocks pool crap will turn into a mosquito farm again. Even my mum cursed his kids to get bitten, and she's not the type to do such things...
Anyway I think the new HPB mental health campaign is fine and all, but I'm afraid its too late. For most of us, that is. I see the ad and think. I'm quite organised. I know where say, 70-80% of my stuff is quickly. Being organised seemed to help the guy in the ad. Not me though. Hmm. Girl hugging mother. I have no kids to cheer me up. Ben has his little sister. =[ My mum reaches home at 11pm, I reach home at 10-30pm, eat, go online and sleep. My dad works irregular hours. No movie-worthy touching parental love scenes there. Old man dancing...in a amazingly retarded get-up. NO THANKS. I'm not going to be caught dead wearing a Stetson hat, some cheesy cowboy shirt, and boots and doing square dancing with some old fogies who'll take my money if I die too early.
Labels: fuck blogger, mugging, random crap
Monday, October 08, 2007,
10/08/2007 11:36:00 PM
Mugged in school today. Attended the last ever Chem lec of my life. Gasp. So sad. Lol. No wonder they said its highly recommended for us to come. i'm glad I did. Lol. I'm going to be absent from my last ever Math lecture ever. I also skipped my last ever GP lecture. But I'm going for my last ever Bio lecture tomorrow.
Mugging today was quite boring...I just joined Facebook OMG. So here I am jumping on the bandwagon, following the herd, doin what everyone is doing because everyone is doing it. I was quite resistant to it at first, but then I got curious as to how it looked like. Lol. Now I know...
Hmm...nothing much interesting to blog about. The Plastic Muggers trailer is getting some good reviews at Mugalo. =D Oh, yesterday while at CP with Shawn and Suyi, we were walking back and I was digging about for the receipt in the bag, when I bumped into this stupid guy. It was quite a hard bump, and in this sorta of things, there usually is a winner and a loser. He lost. As in, we bumped into each other, but his shoulder was the one that went back and took the hit. He glared at me. I said sorry out of reflex, then realised it was some stupid Malay Emo Poser kid. Had I know it was some Emo Poser I wouldn't have apologised. It's them who give the real emo people such a bad rep.
Shawn said he stared at me then him. The funny thing is that I totally brushed off his response without a beat, and I just smoothly turned away from his oh-so-scary glare and walked away. Stupid poser. You know, the types with longish hair, eyeliner, purple and black striped shirts, black skinny black jeans, studded belts, loud music of some sort blasting from their earphones. In fact, while I was looking down, he sohuld have been the one to make way, but he insisted on ploughing through probably since he thought his 1337 emoness could scare me. People like him remind me why I became a =]. I didn't use to be a =] before. They give me so many reasons, not that I wanna do so. =]
Too bad his scary emoness was brushed aside by me without a glance. Haha! See, emo powers don't work on another emo person geddit? And I believe the depths of my emoness are wayyyyyy more than you could ever imagine, you and your poseur emoness. The awesomeness of my crushing emo is unruffled by his piddling little act. You don't need to dress emo to feel that way. That's just lame. =D I'm just being randomLabels: mugging, random crap
Went to meet Shawn and Suyi at CP, went to Cold Storage to buy stuff. Had steamboat at his house, kinda birthday celebration thing. We did disturbing stuff. I'm tired. Off to bed. The nice tags on mugalo brightened my day. =] Sigh.Labels: mugalomaniac, random crap
Sunday, October 07, 2007,
10/07/2007 01:23:00 AM
Got a lot of stuff to do on my com. Upload pics, crop them, transfer files form phone to com to phone, blah blah. Went to mac today, stayed there for 11 hours. Did math. Still felt I did very little. I had to eat 3 Macdonalds meals...damn. Its was due to the immunity shield. With a tray of food we can't be chased away. So I spent quite a bit...today was tak's turn to go crazy. Lol. I was on the verge, but not there yet. I went to play with the kittens at her floor. SO KUTEEEE!!!!!! KAWAII DESUNE! or something of the sort lol. z0mg uber cuteness! There's Spot, Princess, Lion and Ginger. I want to take them home! But I don't wanna separate them! =[ It was so fun playing with them. Lol.Spot was biting me and my pants.
It's getting late so I'll upload any pics I have tomorrow...Labels: mugging, random crap
Saturday, October 06, 2007,
10/06/2007 12:29:00 AM
Gah. Blogger is screwing up. =.= Shit. Today in school, uneventful. Didn't feel like going to school today so I slept in. Woke up at 8 30 or so, left for school to get some stuff from Danson. Hung around my CCA bench to talk to my juniors for a bit before leaving to go mug at WS with Tak. Took the usual booth. Mugged, played some handphone games. Today wasn't very productive.
Because...after a while, I started to go nuts. Total system failure. Couldn't study. Nothing. At first the going was ok, then when I finished one chapter of the TYS and moved to the next. I suddenly didn't want to do anything. I pushed on and it started getting slower and slower, like lagging on a com. Then it hung. "Chem.exe is not responding." No mugging, no activity. It was horrible. I couldn't do anything. Then "Sanity.exe has performed an illegal operation and needs to be shut down." I didn't want to mug anymore. Then another part of my mind screamed MUG! MUG! MUST MUG! YOU'LL DIE! Then if I tried to mug, the other part would scream NO! NO! NO MORE! I WON'T! And it totally jammed up the system and screwed me up.
I didn't want to mug and also didn't want to slack. I didn't know what to do! I was feeling incredibly stressed. Now I know what it feels like. When your brain is stuck on an insane split between sides with no way out and with a sudden immense pressure crushing it to bits. Total system failure. Core meltdown. Blue Screen of Death. I wanted to either scream or cry. I needed to relieve the tension. I found vicious swearing helped. So did piteous mewling noises. See what the education system reduces a normal human into. A helpless wreck. I think Tak is right. The leaders of our great wonderful nation should come down amongst the great unwashed masses once in a while and see for themselves what they have done to the youth of today. Turned them into mindless tortured soulless husks, mugging for the machines, just another cog in the machine to them.
Come, fellow comrades! Let us work towards the further advancement of our glorious nation and increase our economic prosperity! Shift the AS curve to the right! Good job, Comrade Lim! Mug harder, Comrade Tan! We shall persevere! Big Brother is watching! Watch out for crimethink, Comrade Tay. Mugging is doubleplusgood! Sanity is optional!
Of course in the end I manged to start mugging a little, but it was very slow and tedious. I totally didn't wanna think at all. The only reason I'm blogging is cos I wanna get my thoughts down before I forget them. I want to end it at fast as possible. I didn't wannt play handphone games, I didn't wanna doodle, I just wanted to just sleep or stone, but my mind won't let me slack. I said that I didn't even mug today, so how could I hit saturation so fast? Tak proposed that its probably a cumulative effect, like when you keep mugging a lot for a days then one days everything just starts to go and you lose it, and your brian simply crashes due to the overload. I think that may be the case. Yesterday may be the case. If so I'm DAMN lucky I didn't go for lecture today morning. Sigh. I even started to get a headache cause of all that crap.
Hopefully I can mug better tomorrow. I'm going to bed.Labels: fuck blogger, mugging, screw it all
Thursday, October 04, 2007,
10/04/2007 09:56:00 PM
Today was weird. Lol. Attended Econs lec and Bio lecture. I think I almost went crazy after that. Only was Gladys, Chris and I at econs. Then went to collect bio notes, attended bio lec. My phone was dying so I used the lec power point to charge my phone. Haha. Freeloading off the school is fun. =P At the end of the double lecture, my phone was fully charged. =D Cool. After that went to find Tak, Val, and Ben. We were going to het evicted from the study benches, and the CG was waiting for us to leave. I've to give them credit though, they are nice. =] They saw us poor A level seniors so they just sat there quietly and waited for us to debate a VERY long time about where to go before going off.
Stop At Two. That should be a cool new slogan for school. Two double lectures is quite enough for one day. After bio I was starting to feel a little unhinged. Three and I was going to start killing someone soon. Which was why I skipped math. Two double lectures really take quite a toll on you, along with the thrill of being evicted from all nice mugging spots. I was banging my head on my notes.
Took out my Chem TYS and Ans book, stacked it on my file along with a whole lotta other stuff, and plonked it loudly on the bench. I was feeling positively murderous. I wanted to commit random acts of wanton violence. I wanted to shoot, maim, kill, hurt, tear apart, destroy anyone or anything. I wanted to scream. We got chased away from everywhere! I think I was on the verge of "Sanity.exe has performed an illegal operation and need to be closed." I think now I know why people want to pick up primitive controlled explosive devices and use the expulsion of gases to shoot tiny metal pellets at high velocity into other people. Singapore's lucky. It's no-gun policy has prevented any gun crime here. Given the current education system, I think walking into school might be like playing a game of Counter-Strike/Half-life everyday. =X
I was like making random axe/sledgehammer swinging actions and that helped to relieve the stress a bit, but without the destruction I still wanted to hurt something. =[ We went to Cavana at white sands. After eating, I suddenly lost to urge to cause hurt to fellow human beings. Maybe I was cranky because I was hungry. Mugged econs till about 8. Had quite an interesting time there, that's all I guess. Lol.
We saw CR playing soccer yest, and they had a student teacher match. Was interesting. Tried our hand at being sports photographers. Lol. Took a lot of pics...but too tedious to upload all.
Damn I'm tired. And sleepy. No captions this time...Labels: mugging, random crap
Wednesday, October 03, 2007,
10/03/2007 11:18:00 PM
Quite a long day at school tomorrow...Chem was ok. After that was bio...did quite little, surprisingly. Went through a time trial. After that, went down and was stuck by horror. This was blashphemy. This was MADNESS. The study room was OFF LIMITS. It was a total throw-arms-in-air-and-NOOOOO! moment. The horror, the horror. Open house to trap expound the wonders and glories of Mugland to the unsuspecting poor future bright young leaders of society.
Atrium study area was used to teach dance, and went to study benches. Ben and Val were there. Val left for lesson, XW came. We went to WS to eat. =D Val said she got chased away by people who wanted to set up their CCA booth. Is there no place for muggers in today's society? Went to Ikea with Val and Tak, mugged there. we did talk quite a bit lol. Uh...I think there nothing else. Lol.Labels: misadventures, mugging, random crap
Tuesday, October 02, 2007,
10/02/2007 11:04:00 PM
I was going to attend Math lecture today, but got caught in my worst jam ever, stretching all the way from the middle of the TPE to the Sengkang exit. It was on the radio also. We passed by the site, saw some guy about to be loaded onto an ambulance, a m-cycle rider. One black Toyota with the left front corner totally bashed in flat, as though it had hit a barrier.
Reached school 10 mins plus late and didn't wanna go in the LT alone so I mugged at atrium. Later Galvyn came. He said bio tuto was at 1115, we went there and found out we'd booked the 1025 slot. =.= And he left his phone in his father's car today, and we left his no. to be contacted...
Chem was ok...after that mugged, and didn't go for Chem mock test. I was damn sleepy and woulda screwed it up anyway...we ordered Canadian pizza and ate outside. SOme chem teachers came outside and saw us. Val waved at them and asked if them wanted pizza. Then we suddenly realised. CHEM MOCK TEST. lol. Mugged in school till about 9...gave all the Mugalo people a preview of the new trailer I made...=D Oh yeah, I took pics of Cr playing soccer...lolLabels: mugging, random crap
Monday, October 01, 2007,
10/01/2007 10:38:00 PM
School was boring. Nothing special. There's exciting stuff happening at Mugalo soon. =D Tuition was ok. Did some bio today, got consultation tomorrow. Oh, BTW, search Lux Aeterna on Youtube. That song in FRIGGIN nice. I was looking for it for a pretty long time, but it was virtually impossible to do so without an artist or title. I've only heard it in movie. I was digging about last night, until I found a random clip of a part of it. I then relalised I had TrackID in my Sony Ericsson phone. So I gave it a shot. I recorded the thing, sent it through, nothing. =[ I dug around a bit more, then decided to give it a second try. Turned up the music, recorded, ding! Got it! So cool. The marvels of techonology today. Got the artist and title, and got the song soon after. Loaded into my phone after quite some hassle. But, yay! =DLabels: random crap
