Gah. Blogger is screwing up. =.= Shit. Today in school, uneventful. Didn't feel like going to school today so I slept in. Woke up at 8 30 or so, left for school to get some stuff from Danson. Hung around my CCA bench to talk to my juniors for a bit before leaving to go mug at WS with Tak. Took the usual booth. Mugged, played some handphone games. Today wasn't very productive.


Because...after a while, I started to go nuts. Total system failure. Couldn't study. Nothing. At first the going was ok, then when I finished one chapter of the TYS and moved to the next. I suddenly didn't want to do anything. I pushed on and it started getting slower and slower, like lagging on a com. Then it hung. "Chem.exe is not responding." No mugging, no activity. It was horrible. I couldn't do anything. Then "Sanity.exe has performed an illegal operation and needs to be shut down." I didn't want to mug anymore. Then another part of my mind screamed MUG! MUG! MUST MUG! YOU'LL DIE! Then if I tried to mug, the other part would scream NO! NO! NO MORE! I WON'T! And it totally jammed up the system and screwed me up.


I didn't want to mug and also didn't want to slack. I didn't know what to do! I was feeling incredibly stressed. Now I know what it feels like. When your brain is stuck on an insane split between sides with no way out and with a sudden immense pressure crushing it to bits. Total system failure. Core meltdown. Blue Screen of Death. I wanted to either scream or cry. I needed to relieve the tension. I found vicious swearing helped. So did piteous mewling noises. See what the education system reduces a normal human into. A helpless wreck. I think Tak is right. The leaders of our great wonderful nation should come down amongst the great unwashed masses once in a while and see for themselves what they have done to the youth of today. Turned them into mindless tortured soulless husks, mugging for the machines, just another cog in the machine to them.


Come, fellow comrades! Let us work towards the further advancement of our glorious nation and increase our economic prosperity! Shift the AS curve to the right! Good job, Comrade Lim! Mug harder, Comrade Tan! We shall persevere! Big Brother is watching! Watch out for crimethink, Comrade Tay. Mugging is doubleplusgood! Sanity is optional!


Of course in the end I manged to start mugging a little, but it was very slow and tedious. I totally didn't wanna think at all. The only reason I'm blogging is cos I wanna get my thoughts down before I forget them. I want to end it at fast as possible. I didn't wannt play handphone games, I didn't wanna doodle, I just wanted to just sleep or stone, but my mind won't let me slack. I said that I didn't even mug today, so how could I hit saturation so fast? Tak proposed that its probably a cumulative effect, like when you keep mugging a lot for a days then one days everything just starts to go and you lose it, and your brian simply crashes due to the overload. I think that may be the case. Yesterday may be the case. If so I'm DAMN lucky I didn't go for lecture today morning. Sigh. I even started to get a headache cause of all that crap.


Hopefully I can mug better tomorrow. I'm going to bed.