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The Protagonist
Him: Kenneth
His story has been told for: 20 years
His story began on: Sept 11, 1989 (Yes, really)
Current Location: Singapore
Likes: His friends, photography, cycling, bowling, reading, MTV, Facebook, music, movies
Dislikes:
Smoking, Hypocrites
Astro Sign: Virgo
Desires Basic Economic Problem: Humans have unlimited wants but limited resources.
Webcam New Wallet Headphones+Mic Better camera Bowling Equipment Gap hooded-jacket Stephen King books Sony Ericsson w610i Abode photoshop or equivalent
*iPhone 3G S* (Can we like combine last year's gift plus this yr and maybe X'mas too? =D)
Burnout Revenge (Xbox)
Midtown Madness (Xbox)
To be a better photographer
Chapter 20
Saturday, March 31, 2007,
3/31/2007 11:41:00 PM
Spent my day playing Silkroad, did some work, gonna finish the rest of it tomorrow after tuition, then I'll probably return to the Nokia store again. Anyone wanna come along so I won't make a wasted trip if something crops up again? =.= I got some screenshots but I might be posting them tomorrow...can't be bothered to turn on the main com now. I hit lvl 20. Now I can kill and be killed by other players. While there's still some time I might design the CCA tee or osmething. Tuition really screws my mood, sigh. Especially when he see my results tomorrow. Pah. Sigh.
I feel sorta ok now after escaping into Silkroad for the entire day. It really took my mind off things, so I think (and HOPE!) it was just a temporary thing. Silkroad really took my attention away because I was so irritated that I kept dying due to stupid things like my bow about to break, meaning I couldn't attack, or my shoes spoiling =.=, meaning I couldn't run. Both happened at different times so I had no choice but to run a bit and then die cause one thing about the realism of Silkroad, you can't outrun monsters clearly faster than you. And...I was fighting tigers. =.= Plus I couldn't scroll my way out cause I was on this special quest. Used a lot of horse summoning scrolls to ride about today. Learnt some new skills.
School was pretty ok.I forgot to get bio tutorial for the class. Sigh. My fault. I was pretty distracted internally today...I'll have to get it Mon...I might be going Tamp tomorrow for my phone again, which is still not repaired. Was this ad for some tour in a CSI lab like z0mgwtfbbq I wanna go! When I went to the library it was already full up. Sigh. GP was some P1 stuff...[yawn] Then math lec where I found out I failed again. I don't know what the hell is going on. After that was CLB, when the teacher got pissed because... -Ben and Edison came late -Eugene was going for some NUS Econs talk so he left w/o green form Anyway, the teacher wasn't too excited by all of this so he kp about the 3 of them always not being around and ordered Eugene back ,and got him to get a green form...=S I just went home later to play Silkroad, but not after sorting out my work which i'll be doing tomorrow. I know when to stop and when to start work and play (Though it sometimes is hard to stop play once yuo've started...=S)
842 damage. New skill: Autumn Wind- Flame. Sounds so cool! ^^ M.A.G.E. this is for you. You wanted pics of tigers ^^ Yes, its a White Tiger Giant Me cursing the NPC after completing the stupid die-a-lot quest. Here we go,
oh here we go,
riding through plains of tigers...
plains of tigers...
I learnt that skill. Crystal Wall-Ice Die White Tiger! Rawr. Bandit Giant. Hewp meeeee!
This pic looks very cool. The BG too... Killing Chakji Workers. Boom! Bang!Bust.
Oh yeah I chged my armor to osomething that suits my pure INT character build.
[UPDATE] yes it's happening all over again what an ironic way to mark my 400th blog post but what the heck this way of typing without punctuation was introed to me by ben and i find it oddly symbolic of the utter turmoil my life is in right now i hate this i don't even know why i try i'm cursed i think that must be it why do i even try or even think this is stupid it will never ever happen to me not like most other people sigh i sense everything going down the drain again and i'm going to feel very f-ed up for the next few weeks or months while i get over this hurdle and i don't know why it always turns out like this the only thing stopping me is whatever sanity i have retained and that my mum is in the living room so i wont reach for the stupid plaque oh the irony ha ha thats it i'mgoingofftobedsigh...life is tough and its a miracle we aren't all dead yet.
Sorrow bites deep, rending soft flesh. Dim the lights, here approaches Death. The endless descent into chaos has begun, the cruel wicked fangs of Life spare none.
Thankfully I have chnged address so my agony is at least semi-private ha-ha. I weep. Oh, I weep.
[BEFORE] No doubt you may have noticed my absence from MSN the past few days. This is because of SilkRoad. Lol. However, This won't last for long, for I sense a sharp increase in homework again after this dip at the end of the block test. Today was as usual. Math lecturer was SERIOUSLY some kind of professional hypnotist...ever since he started lecturing, I've been fighting low power mode every single math lec. =.= CCA was so-so...nothing interesting...today seemed damn long...by the way, anyone out there need a Math TYS? Stupid Math dept conned me! First they flash the pic and say its compulsory, then later Mrs Wong told us if we bought last year, no need to buy. Fraudsters! =[
Why is hardly anyone tagging? =[... Anyway, still on Silkroad, cos there's no hw given yet. Lucky I started after the blockies, which mean there will be a temporary dip in homework levels for one week or so. Today in GP we did something wonderful. WE MEMORISED an entire passage of say 162 words and had to reproduce it exact, no more than 7 mistakes. THey were guessing he probably never planned for this lesson and gave us this crap just to buy time.
35 mins to memorise, then collected it at the end of the period. =.= So he says the people who pass can read their novels the next period. Wth is this? How does memorising a short pasage help our GP skill??? He even said that this was to "get our minds working." My mind was working alright. Working on why this torture, and an exerceise in futility should be dumped on us. Totally pointless. Inside I wanted to scream WTF are you doing?!?!?! Teach something! Show us a GP-ish movie! We're not in Primary 6, making pacts to slit our wrists in toilets and doing dictation!
GP teacher. Huh. He can't even handle a book properly! He took MY "Catch-22" novel to show to the class, and later went I let Dan read one section, he borrowed it and OPENED MY EFFIN BOOK 180 DEGREES. Nos there's this monstrous ugly crease down the middle of the spine like some brutal battle scar. It was a battle indeed. Sacrilege. If he handles all his books like that, I'd hate to see his books at home...ponned CCA to go home and game.
What the point when we've conducted the trials? I found our CCA amazing in its own right already. One, our CCA board has not been completed since the J3s left. *Gasp* Almost a year. Yes. Exactly. Two, with zero publicity, we got 12 new members (Some from 1st 3 mths...!!!) into the CCA. No announcements no word-of-mouth, nothing. Only a little piece of paper stuck to our empty notice board and we got new members in. Wow. I wonder what this is coming to...Anyway, back to silkroad. Some pics later.
The 3 Greatest Mysteries of Life: 1. Do we really exist? 2. What lies beyond the edge of the universe? Is there even an edge? 3. How the hell do those 4 get there so FAST?!
[UPDATE]
Ice River skill.
Frozen Bandit. ^^
Frozen in time.
Return Scroll
z0mfg its a tiger!!!!!111
Same big old guy.
I open up shop. =]
I sat down beside this dead guy for fun.
Now that's what I call rape.
Boo.
This is one bigass tiger.
Rawr!
Can I have one for my Christmas, Daddy? Pleaseeeeeee?
=]
1hit kill.
New skill: Summon pretty hawk that looks harmless, and IS kinda harmless... ^^
School as usual...came home, did whatever work there was, and then took a nap before starting on Silkroad. Hit level 13 today. I think the 1st pic is like totally awesome. Almost perfect timing. Oh yeah, wearing emo socks tomorrow. =D [Blogger is taking FOREVER to upload my pics...lousy crap.]
Heheh... Foom! Ice shield! Taking on the Giant Bandit Archer. Solo. Remember that old Chinese legend about some guy who beat tigers up on mountains for kicks because they hadn't invented gyms? Archer! Freeze! (Next to it is the Giant Archer.) Using the Speed Scroll.
Hmm today was as usual. Found my notes, thank goodness. Outside my exam venue. =X Well, I inadvertently slipped into the Holiday Mood, which meant I woke up today morning feeling totally like shit. Half dead, and damn tired. I spent most of the day in a semi-daze, stoned half out of my mind. Began to have my sleep deprivation headache during the later half of the day. Got my socks wet and wonderfully digsuating during PE in the rain =.=, so I went about the rest of the day sockless. Training was ok. 150 average, but room for improvement.
Oh yeah. I scored badly for GP test. NOT block test, but...30 for essay and 25.5 for compre. I feel totally sick and disgusted with myself. Just sick. This sucks. I hate myself. This is total bullshit. Why do I suck at GP? Damn. I feel so disillusioned and dead. I don't want to live anymore. Why do I suck at GP? I find it highly amusing I topped English in my school for the 'O' levels. How ironic. Goodbye world! I shall now shatter my plaque on the floor and use the bitterly cold fragments of wicked flashing glass to slash my wrists and die. Technically, if you REALLY wanted to die, you'd slash the base of your forearms, so the artieries will retract into the flesh. I shall go do that now. Farewell.
Sigh. Let's see. Discovered last night I lost ALL my math notes. From Partial fractions to probability. And the file containing them too. Maybe I left it in school. Maybe not. Dammit. Cancelled tuition. I hate to think about what I couldn't find them. SPent my day reading, and playing Silkroad. Lagged, and probably died ingame. Probably died. COuldn't reconnect. Was trying for like 40 mins. Too much traffic. Got severly pissed. Went out for dinner. So tired. Came home, online. Sigh.
Didn't come online cos I was too busy slacking on SilkRoad. Pretty fun, and wonderful graphics. Thank's to Alvin's old account. Lol...I took a lot of screenshots. Went out with the folks today to Hg (not mercury...) Mall to have breakfast. Bought some stuff. Anyway, went to Tamp later to find they didn't have the stock for my phone's LCD screen, hence I would have to come back next week. =.= All that for nothing. Went to Metro to buy socks cos mine were getting too loose to wear. =.= There was this entire section filled with bright gaudy coloured ones, so I settled for some moderately bright colours. I got emo socks to match my emo shoes! Red and black! ^^ Bought a t-shirt at IPzone cos they were having a clearance sale. [Damn blogger is PMSing...hang on...lousy piece of problematic crap...]
Of course, all these were taken when I just started so don't expect any uber proz0r skillz. Lol.
Hmm, lessee. Woke up early for my CLB exam. =.= Didn't fell well so and so had to commune with nature in the middle of Paper 1. =.= Finished it in about 45 mins. Finished paper 2 in about 20 mins. Spent the next 40 mins idly doodling on the paper number sticker they pasted on the table since it was the last exam already. For those who know, obviously it would me the tribal/tattoo-like designs/insignia/patterns I so often indulge in. Perhaps one day I'll take a pic of those.
How I developed my own unique style of doodling those designs is a story in itself which I may tell another day. Or you could remind me. =] I'll add illustrations. Lol.
Later went home to stone, finger still sore from yesterday's Kong Kong insanity. Still reading Catch-22, taking it slow and easy. It's complex, and vaguely crazy. Lol. Later went bowling with Shawn, Wee Hian, and Joshua. Pretty ok, I got 150 average. Highest only 155. =[ I have improved though, and that's a good sign. Spin was good today. Performed coupla "splitting of the pins" where it hit the pocket nice, and the pins simply flew left and right like the parting of the Pin Sea. =X. Sweet shot with high accuracy when I hit the same spots in the pocket twice in a row for a double and the same two pins in each frame were left standing before being taken down by the pin mix. Hehs.
Went for dinner with Shawn and Siwei, sorta a gathering of half the old gang, before going to YM's house. Watched Borat. Also realised why it was rated. HOwever, though it may appear absurd and ridiculous on the surface, it is at the same time complex on many levels. The humor is crass, crude, and lowbrow, but it probably will make you laugh. Or offend you. One way or antother. It also does expose the small section of American society that is anti-semitic and anti-Muslim, so it's not all stupid.
Oh yeah...the Vista CD Ben gave me is blank. =X
Ok, finally the video's up. Original recorded sound was choppy so I had to add in a song over it.
It's over. For something that had hundreds of Muglanders wound up tight with tension, stress, worrying, and probably a few running about waving their arms in the air and screaming their lungs out, it ended in a week. Went to Tamp with Danson, Chris and Sunny, and uh Mingzhi and Zhangquan(?) some of them went to watch a movie, before oging to sakae, but I wanted to go Times, so I had lunch with Sunny, Mingzhi and Zhangquan at Yoshi. Then I found out they played Kong Kong before. o_O I suppose the game sounds so absurd, and the graphic are sorta like 3D cutesy Maple that no one really tell others he's play which is why there aren't a lot of people right now.
Anyway, later went to Times to buy Brother Odd, then went home and satisfied my craving for KK but playing until my finger hurt. Literally. For mashing the UP button for hours. =X Got to level 9, so I approximately gained 3 levels today. Lol. Been online the rest of the day, cause my poor middle finger (ouch) couldn't take anymore...lol
Once again, failed by our pathetic system. Woke at 6.50, left the house at 705,reach school at 8AM. 55 mins to pasir ris from sengkang. And the bus takes only 20 mins. Which means this pathetic system has wasted 35 mins of my life. And not just once. I came to school and the side gate was locked. Whoopee. By then the exam had already started so I WALKED HALFWAY ROUND THE SCHOOL and CUT THOUGH IT FROM ONE CORNER TO THE OTHER to get to LT5. Quite literally one whole round. Rushed in to do my paper, and...kept dozing off. =.= I was like, hello? Wake up? You're taking an exam! Not now! But I was still on low power mode. Woke up later on wondering why I felt so sleepy after I slept at 1130pm only last night.
I don't want to comment much on my papers because in MJ, I always know what I think during the exams will not reflect what comes out in my score. =.= Anyway, I was once again feeling sleepy while revising Bio during our 3 hour break. Dozed, stoned...etc. Did the same thing during section A. I quite literally did section A zoned half out of my mind. It was like LT syndrome...woke up during the latter half of section B but not before ascertaining all the questions were seriously hard and I was royally screwed. So I completed everything, then went back once more to lok through, and found it wasn't as scary as on 1st glance, so I tried all those I didn't know with new fervour. Nevertheless, working 3 hours non-stop sure puts one helluva strain on your neck, espcially with the unnaturally low and very small LT table.
In case you are wondering why I'm so free to blog...I'm eating now too. =.= Oh yeah, new game I'm playing. Well, sorta half playing considering I don't have the time. Anyone free on Friday? I wanna go to Times bookstore. Any time and any Times. Ha-ha.
Didn't hit 10 hours, but I tried. Wanted to sleep at 11pm, remember, but then I became a guidance counsellor till 0030, whereupon my mum decided to stat chatting to me. Well...she says that in the day I'm studying, evenings she's working, when she returns, I'm about to sleep so this is the only time she has. So...I just talked. Till like about, oh, 2.20am. Forget 830am already. I forced myself up at something like 930. And tried to mug my way through the day.
And the day was (pardon the pun) full of muggy heat. The heat was so oppressive, it was almost like a phsyical presence, some Being whose force and sheer will exerted an actual weight on everything down below. Soon, I started dozing off thanks to the weather. Took a 20 min nap wracked with guilt at not studying and woke up every few mins or so, fearful I'd slept half the day away.
Took 2 cold showers but they only help a little, and neither did my refreshing Milo dinosaur do much except roar weakly at the scorching day as I sucked it dry. In the end, gave up and used my WMD. Weapon of Mass De-heating. I could still feel the heat pressing insistently against the windowpanes, and on a whim even tried to burn my notes with a magnifying glass. But as the aircon was on, and the windows needed to be shut, I decided to leave it for after the A levels.
Had a funny dream the night before. My dreams sometimes occur in the same places. As in different nights, same location. In this case, it seems to be some grimy old white building, but this dream's in the day. Converted industial block of some sort. Spooky and creepy within and without. Can only remember one long room stocked with old mahogany(i think) furniture, and old grilles on the windows. Peeping out there's another building, which looks newer. The ground floor is refurbished and I can see a one-way down into the basement trucks sometimes take. Like the loading bays. not sure if it belongs to IKEA or Courts. Only some big store. Oh, yeah, there are other people in the house with me but I can't remember who. Not family, maybe friends. I'm going to sleep soon. =\
Econs, then bio. Was so wasted from all the late nights, I shut off my alarm clock at 1030 and woke at like 12. So no 10 hours. But I'm going to try that tomorrow, so I'll be sleeping earlier tonight. I'm still dissatisfied with my current rate of mugging. People always say wa, look at you, mug so hard, sure can one. But I can't. It's different. I don't know why, it just is. Plus I only got advanced...when will I get some payoff? Its all so totally different when I sit for the paper.
Interesting. Anyway today seems kinda chaotic. Obviously my tutor wasn't too happy about me and my PF notes. He told me I could've gone to the internet...and I was like eh? Oh ya...=\ So...that was it. After that studied econs for quite a while...soon got VERY VERY bored. Plus, noone to talk to on MSN. I find this a radical change. In sec sch, I was more of the quiet type. The one who only takes you one look to see: "Ooo quiet guy lol" The sort of guy one would be the last to suspect of masterminding a conspiracy that involved forming a secret association of which every classmate was involved (but one) and leading that association on a glorious but short-lived crusade against that one person to bring them down to their knees once and for all and letting that person know that we as a collective unit have grown weary on their attitude problem. But that's a story for another day. Since my blog is more private (to a certain extent) I might share it someday. Soon. On the annivarsary of...;)
But I digress. Yeah. Anyway, I decided to become uh...more extroverted in JC because, hey, you can't exactly spend the rest of your life hiding in a shell can you? So, obviously the first few responses I got from my new friends were like eh? You seem like the quiet type... didn't expect you to be so lively. Lol. But now it has proceeded to the extent where I have a chronic dislike for boredom masquerading as loneliness, or the other way round. I wish it were so easy to convert back...lol.
So I was pretty bored, and I came online, in pursuit of stuff to do. Ended up finding people to chat, watching Flash animation, surfing, reading webcomics, and I even have an idea for the new Plastic Muggers strip. Yet, I am internally in turmoil as I feel I did not do enough today but I look at my workbook and realised I have reached saturation. I also don't know how to solve this. How puzzling. =S Some random pic I drew on MSN yesterday. Anyway earlier today, my sister was like whining about how I could've been nicer to her and how ner friend's brother is sooooo nicer to her blah blah blah. She said and I quote "You have failed as a brother." Basically I was laughing non-stop throughout this discourse and she was only saying it half seriously anyway. It just seemed too fake and choreographed, like something you see in a TV drama. I was laughing and telling her to go away (not very politely, but she's used to that sort of thing) and she just kept going on and on.
Then later she chose the wrong time to bother me. When I was feeling seriously bothered by econs, she came at me when I unlocked my door (see why I lock it now?) and started on that some old crap again. It was funny at first then it quickly wore thin on my already frayed nerves. To make it worse, I told her to get the you-know-what out and she just sat on my floor and kept blabbering. I grabbed her arm and started to drag her but she resisted. =.= Apparently she still thought I was joking. So I let go and told her in no uncertain terms to get the - out and - off from my room before she left. =\ Sigh...gambling doesn't tear fmailies apart. Mugging does. Lol...
Damn. Didn't do much yesterday. Did some math questions, left about half of it. Ended up watching youtube and laughing at Macs, and then surfing. Left at about 2AM, came home, surfed somemore, played Artillery Live, then went to sleep at 5. Woke at around 12 or so, ate then left the house at 1 plus. Met Chengying and Hayden at Pasir Ris MRT, and Beatrice, who ponned Orientation. Lol. Waited a while for Sarene and Tiffany to come.
Because it was raining, we went to this strange pavilion-like corner of the bus interchange and ate a bit. Turns out there was a lot of food...lol. Ate a bit then walked to the beach. Wandered until we came to the breakwater where I studied during my chalet. Had our picnic there...lol. However, today was hot and the seaside not veyr windy at all so it was scorching. We sat next to this emo girl. How do I know? Black sneakers, black HIM T-shirt, black jacket, black bag, black eyeshadow, CD player with Evanescence's latest CD blasting, and she was staring at the sea for hours on end. She was there before we came and for a long while we were there. We even worried about her jumping into the sea or something.
Anyway, we spent quite sometime there chatting. Lots of stuff. Ghost stories, politics, etc...lol. I think we could've been higher but Huiqi wasn't there...lol. And we also didn't really camwhore. Took one group pic which I think I will get from Sarene later. =] Fahmi came later and helped to finish the food. Later went home by bus w/ Tiffany and Sarene...so tired, but I've gotta do my tuition hw...oo ya they made this encouraging postcard for me with a packet of 3in1 coffee...hahaha...so thoughtful ar...thanks guys! =D
Ah crap...just realised...there are people who actually read my blog but don't tag but since they don't tag, I don't know they exist and never gave them my updated address...so if you know anyonw who does so, let me know...cos they may see the farewell note and decide not to ask me. o_O Zzz...so I may have shut off some readers... Here's the pic. I think I look weird. =[ Lucky my new address not so public. Hahaha...Sarene says I look like a pokemon. =X I don't know which...ahhh I still look weird...*runs to a corner and hide*
[UPDATE] CRAPPPPPPP. Great. Just grea. This is absolute pure fucking gold. Here's what's going on. -I have tuition tomorrow -I have a test on partial fractions -When studying last night, I lent Shawn my notes -He accidentally took them -IVLE is down -I cannot study -I cannot print a replacement copy
Now imagine you are my tuition teacher. You want to test me on PF but... I say my friend accidentally took them I can't study for it I can't print them Cos the website is down On this specific day I chose to lose my notes Would you believe me?
How freaking UNLUCKY must I be to experience this unique experience of not being able to get my hands on a single copy of the Partial Fraction notes? What are the chances of me losing my notes the day before my tuition AND of IVLE being offline on THIS PARTICULAR EXACT DAY? Sigh.
OH GOD NO THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENNING NONONONONONONO AHHHHHH WHY WHY WHY NONONONO!!!
This is the only way I can get a message to the outside world PLEASE HELP ME. This is an EMERGENCY. Will someone out there in the free and sane world of the civilised save me from this madness??? This is it. Evil forces within the government have implemented their Masterplan and we are all doomed. By we I mean teenagers of Singapore. Wireless@SG is EVIL. I cannot sign in to Windows Live MSN, OR Windows Messenger and webmessenger LAGS PERMANENTLY. No messages can be sent at all. I cannot communicate with my friends! What will life be without instant messaging? To horrible to comtemplate.
This is endgame. When the final moves will be made and victory is at hand. Soon, these evil forces after toppling our IM channels with their WirelessEVIL@SG plan wil SHUT OFF ALL CELL TOWERS. No smses or calls at all. Forever. Each individiual teen waill be isolated from his or her peers and from aid and from the chance to buil. Please, tell Interpol, the UN, somebody, anybody! I can't contact anyone at all...absolutely no one. I have foolishly fallen into their evil plan, lured by dreams of free internet across the isle for 3 years. The horror. Please, I'm am doing this at Rivervale Plaza's Macdonalds, Block 118 Rivervale something. Call in the UN before its too late.
After the cells are down, they will shut down transmission from all TV channels. All teenangers will be brainwashed by their parents with a genetic drug that destroys the gland that produces undesirable qualities like emoness, hope, aspirations, rebelliousness, and free will in all of us. An emo teengaer is not a productive worker. We shall be forced to wear drab grey uniforms and herded into "Learning collectives" or "Information farms" where we shall mug and absorb information 18 hours a day, day after day, year after year. We shall be forced into the economy, make it prosper, procreate and produce another generation of money spinninig biological entities.
MJC Block Test/0 A.D. (After De-teening)/GP P1/Q8 "Education is no longer about learning but about economic survival" To what extent do you agree?
To a large extent.
Now wasn't that amusing? Seriously. I really can't access MSN either of the Windows Live, plain old Windows, or even the webmessenger variety. This is honestly the only way I can get a message out. Please spread the message to other teens. Beware the Wireles[wireless@sg_connection_interrupted]
Read some econs at home, amused myself at www.isketch.net, then went out to study with Eliza at Kovan Macs till about ^ plus, then left for home. LAter probably going to R'vale Plaza's Mac, Shawn helping me with Math. The bane of my existence. Just kidding.
Okay...I can't decide if this is amusing or very bad. Lol. Now I know why I dislike being alone! =[ It's been in my blog profile for a long time. Lol.
You have a 37% chance of going postal!
The chances of a killing spree in your future are pretty low. But discuss any problems you have with a therapist. Or your local barman. Talking about your feelings is very important... well, and emmasculating, but let's not talk about that.
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
not preppy yet not a complete loser. has good friends and doesn't revolve life around their looks or social status. All around good person. usually liked by everyone
Not blogging doesn't really help a lot. Sigh. Anyway, nothing much has happened so this'll be very quick. Went to Shawn's house ytd to mug Chem, all he did was memorise the reagents and conditions and he got a B for the test while I got youuuuU. =.= Returning from lunch at the kopitiam we ran back, and I drifted on the drain cover. Yes, fast and furiousssss drift, drift, drift...bam oh EFF OW. The human body was not made to lose all traction on a wet metal drain and skid round a bend at a cool and sharp angle and speed off again. SO I crashed and burned, scraping my knee. Picked myself up and did the Terry Fox (limp/hobble/jog) to the nearest shelter. Cycled home for tuition.
Woke up this morning, caught the last 1 hour of Hotel Rwanda. Wished I seen the beginning. I found it to be very good. Too bad Mr Carbon Oxygen Nitrogen Radium Deuterium never let us watch it, not like VIRTUALLY EVERY OTHER CLASS IN MUGLAND. Pah. Took a bath, went off to study chem. Just about finished, then I'll take on econs. Sigh. Updating Mugalo with some stuff I did some days ago.
Got lots of classical songs fron Val earlier. =] Suddenly developed a taste for it. Lol. On a side chain(oops, too much chem) note, I love Coldplay's Yellow. Its so nice and slow and great to listen to when emo, though I'm not now...=] Went for pool for some time with Shawn and Calven and YM. Saw a gang of bengs who apparently said today was "Judgement Day" where they would see if "Heartland Mall is theirs or ours." First saw them at Macs, then at K pool. Whatever happened to Heartland Mall?
Hmm...for no reason I just wanna give a shoutout to Singapore's transport system saying that YOU SUCK and that I HATE YOU VERY MUCH so please buck up thanks! =] On the day of my GP test, I woke up like 1 hour 10 mins earlier and got to school on the dot. I got to my seat and Ben pointed out the clock to me. When I entered he was still asking if I was still stuck in traffic. And this gives me an excuse to use the "pathetic transport system" tag.
Didn't like the GP exam much. As Danson said, he "walked out 3 hours later wonder what the hell I wrote on my paper". I wasn't exactly wondering, but I definitely knew this wasn't one of my best works, or the best I could do. Did Q8 on education. "Education today is no longer about learning but about economic survival." To what extent do you agree? The starting seemed fine, but then I hit a total jam in the middle. Like 3-way dead lock. Recently, all the GP papers I've done, I haven't seen any that peaked my interest or any I liked. I end up having a hard time choosing. All sucky questions.
The way I see it, this paper gave a lot of stupid ambigous questions, like "Music today is just packaged noice. Discuss." Now what the hell? Sure its easy to argue whether you're for or against this, but that's the point. EITHER stand, if argued hard enough will be correct, but this means tying up a lot of loose ends and that your opponent have as much ammo to use as you do on them, plus, all of their ammo needs to be neutralised, because the way I see it, you have big holes in your side, and also big sterngths. Lets not forget different people have different tastes in music too. Being the organised person I am, I hate having to tie up a lot of loose ends, etc. so I really couldn't find anything I wanted to do at all.
Oh, and the segregation, discrimination, natural selection, speciation, or whatever term you like in bio or GP, its all the same. It has started. Ahh Koh said treat it as just the difference between the Abled and More Abled. Yup. Like "Normal level" exams and "Ordinary level" exam. Will the good ol' boys down in Cambridge tell me what's the differece between these two words? A little and a whole lot. They just don't want to hurt our feelings. To go into more detail, those who got F (and I think S?) for promos in Math are going to be in LT5, whereas those passes get to LT4. Not unlike our version of the Berliner Mauer? So near yet so far. Hopefully its really for our good. It seems so mean.=X Disclaimer: Actual product may vary.
Ok I guess I really have to thank my mum for this...just now she nagged at me to remember to set my phone alarm cos she's going somewhere I can't disclose (she wants it that way. hint:where have I been the past 2 days?) And I realised if I switched to my old phone, I had no alarm. Shitted. Thankfully she reminded me, so I set the alarm on my phone, and she insisted on lending me her alarm clock, and since I DID NOT want to repeat last year's omgwtfbbq-i-am-late-for-GP-exam incident, I now have 3 alarm clocks and 3 handphones (my old, my new, and my sis' included) all set for 6:50AM. And, I included my new(but with a wonky screen) phone because from a past 1 experience, I think it will turn on itself just cause of the alarm. That's nice. Lol. So it might do the same without the SIM card too. The only reason I won't be getting up is if I'm stone cold dead. Or at least unconscious.
My whole family PS me at home for the entire day. I wandered about, trying to do stuff. On the verge of a mental breakdown, I tottered on the thin thin ledge separating emoness from full out insanity. I suppose as long as you can still question your sanity it proves you're sane. Ha-ha. Well, the journey was long, and it was arduous, but I got it out of my system. Or well, most of it. I'm still unsure about my chances in GP if I take the paper in this state of mind, but the show must go on...
All of you will have known the recent demise of ken89blog, and my blogicide incident. I trust all of you will keep my new url the secret that it is now. I need to get things settled, and wish to give it a low profile for now. However, the state of my blog will remain this way for the foreseeable future...till now, I have not really given much though to the amount of readers I have, and, in total, I don't think I have many. Well, at least I have regular readers. The lack of readers was what killed my sec sch blog. I felt like I was talking to a wall.
I hope I haven't missed out any other people, or maybe they'll jump into my mind. Right now, I'm not really in the mood to go hunting about to get everyone in...I just feel like sleeping, but I also have to complete my tuition homework at least halfway. So, basically all I did was emo, try to get it out of my system, slack on MSN, because I really wasn't going to do anything productive, finally started on homeork. I'll finish the other half tomorrow. I hope I can get up the motivation to mug. Sigh.
So now the family's gone to some dinner and I opted to stay home cause the GP test tomorrow makes me even more sian. I can't think of anything now, so I guess I'll put up the pics from the chalet.
Went there with my dad on the 1st day. After he left, I mugged. Chalet and mugging = ??? Saw this when I turned around. After some repositioning...I tihnk this is the only way I can make chem look nice. Beds are for mugging. Nice. Very nice. =\ Went to the beach alone, with some stuff to study. Stoned a bit. Thought about life. And death. The sand? Bird footprints. Looks amazingly grotesque. Evening. Paradise for relaxation Not. Sigh. Nice place to chill though... Time to sleep, but first... A bedtime story. Found this on my 2nd day at the beach. Strange holes with granules of sand around. Any idea what is this? BBQ. And there you have it.
-i am emo -i dont know how i will do my tuition homework like this -why the hell did i forget about my tuition homework? -i am still emo (not about the homework though, =.=) -playing emo songs loudly is nice -i will blog about the rest of my day tomorrow. maybe. -shit.
Signed, -=[K]=- 11 March 2007
I feel so cold now. Literally. I feel like calling someone to talk, but who is there at 1:13AM? Nobody, that's who. I'm all alone at home with the aircon on, the rest of the family is at the chalet. I have tuition tomorrow at 11AM and I have not done my work. The dark half of me mocks at my futile thoughts of seeking out shelter. Its scorn sinks deep, a black blade of treachery. All alone on this cold cold night. The only way I can work out this crap is through my blog, my only vent. I need to get it out of my system, or I can't do my work. I feel like sleeping and escaping from it all. I hate being like this. Every single moment of it.
As night deepens, the shadows in the corners of your heart lengthen. And when you're all alone when this happens, you should be afraid. Very afraid.
Downtown east. Friday. Came to the chalet at 2:30 pm. I saw that there was virtually no queue at Wild Wild Wet...but then again, I couldn't get anyone to come down. This is the best opportunity for fun...only MJ gets this Friday off, and anyone coming down has the chance to go totally crazy on rides multiple times. And it's still quite early, not even past the end of working hours, which means the park'll probably be quite empty (compared to weekends) for a few hours more. And I'll be studying Nitrogen compunds in the room. Listening to people playing in the water outside. And the emcee making people high. This is an SOS, anyone free (and a friend of mine...strangers begone =P) get your butts down to downtown east, either theme park or wild wild wet. Hell, we've got 6 free tickets.
Gosh its so late already. o_O Well, Shawn and Suyi and Cherie came down. We slacked a bit, then the MJ peeps started studying (obviously), and the poly peeps watched a movie that I don't quite think was rated NC-16. Rather, more. Haha...then after studying/slacking for a while we decided to go for a late dinner. Virtually every stall was closed except for the hokkien mee one. After eating, we chatted. or rather, crapped. 100% pure unadulterated bullsh*t. Hehs. Stuff that isn't exactly M-18 here. =P Then, we parted ways, and I went back.
So here I am, all along in the chalet. Lucky I have music to keep me company. I keep hearing thumping noises from upstairs. I'm thankful I'm on the 1st floor. Haha. *nervous laugh* lol...I should play some happy music. =] Ok, I should go mug now.
\ARGH SHIT FUK FUK FUK! I lost my last post! DAMMIT. The only time I feel safe enough not to copy paste the text before publishing and this has to happen. FUCKKKK WTHHHHHH ARGH. I THOUGHT I HIT PUBLISH! FUCK. Damn pissed off now. It was a freaking long post. Dammit. Fuck.
Right. Fuck. So today's my mum's birthday. Wanna wish her a Happy b'day. PE was ok. Did better. Stupid stomachache agsain. Next time hafta complete it no matter what. Fuck I'm still DAMN IRRITATED LIKE WTF HAPPENED TO MY OLD POST!!!!! WTFFFFF!!!! OMG WHY WHY WHY WTF OF ALL THE FUKIN TIMES IT HAS TO BE THE ONE WHEN I DIDN"T COPY I SWEAR I WILL COPY ALL MY FUCKING POSTS NOW. I did for ALL of them. Until today. Fuck. Sorry about the language today people. I'm just totally pissed off my last post disappeared into the 4th dimension when I and I can't find it cos I didn't copy it and it was FREAKING LONG. FUCK BLOGGER.
Rest of the day went on as usual .Bio project was ok though our project's did have as many graphics as the rest. Today was Mr Yeow's last lesson with us. He said we were probably his favourite class and we had a bond. And we really did. Bio classes were so fun, and he was the best bio teacher I have, or ever will have. He also told us he wanted us to be nice to the new teacher. Then he gave us some biscuits and stuff and the class wnet to the area outside the bio labs to eat. Then, we talked for a bit, he told us some stuff we couldn't share, lol, and about what we wanted to work as next time. Then, as all good things have to ocme to an end...
"Now for the last time, Thank you." [chorus]"Thank you, Mr Yeow." And that was it.
Epilogue Later went to Ikea with Dan and Galvyn for our "Philosophy roundtable discussion" The wlak to Ikea was very productive. I ordered the "Cold Warer Prawn" for $3.80. It was damn worth it. It had like lettuce and 24 prawns. PS. Fuck blogger. Now i'm going to make 100% sure I'll copy-this-here-piece-of-trash-program... and publish. Once again, I apologise for the language.
School was pretty mundane. We joyfully noticed Conrad wasn't here so we had 2 free periods today. The replacement came, saying we were supposed to be responsible students, left us with assigned work, and left. Galvyn plugged his mac in and we watched The Simpsons DVD for 2 periods. Now that's responsible. They're my favourite TV show. ^^ You could see the envy on those other classes passing by at the end of the first period. ^^ Training was so-so.
Anyway me mentioning the replacement teacher reminds me of more proof that Disney is evil. While my sis was watching the channel yesterday, I saw this ad for a new TV show called The Replacements. The premise of it is that this kid gets an oh-so-magical cell phone, which when you call, you can replace anybody in your life with someone better. Well the ad started off with them saying he replaced his dad with a cool stuntman, his mum a super spy, and his sis some supermodel or something. What I wanna ask Disney is, WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIS REAL PARENTS???
Did Disney kill them off and disposeof their their bodies in some dump in Disneyland? Did Disney kidnap them and ship them to some remote place? What happens to the real people after you "replace" them? Not so squeaky-clean now, are you, Disney? This teaches kids to run away from their problems and instead of working out individual differences with other people, simply to REPLACE them. Like that's gonna work in real life. Running away or taking the easy way out will not solve anything. What has happened to Disney? What are you teaching the kids of today? Even if the show is inherently good, the ad seems to be pitching the exciting replacement of poeple you don't like in your life. In the name of all that is good and kind and cute and fluffy, is that right, Disney??? Is that?
Ahem. Ok. Off to mug now. Bye. Have fun playing with my "Chocopets" on the front page. [UPDATE] Payoff. I did my econs homework. Math is mostly done cept for qns I dunno. Chem, only need to write some equations. To tell the truth, I'm not usre if we're doing the qns in tutorial again, or by ourselves. Anyway, I can sleep earlier today. 11pm. PE tomorrow. I hope I don't die. I have a reason to live yet.
The coffee certainly did its work all right. I took quite a while before I could get to sleep last night. My mind was buzzing madly with all sorts of thoughts. The nxt morning, I woke up and was fully awake before I even walked to the toilet. Residual effects of the coffee. Not bad, but not really good either. I usualy prefer a slow smooth fade into reality every morning, instead of a rude shock, which is why I don't shower in the morning. My body will resist being awakened unnaturally and I feel damn uncomfortable and even more tired. (If that's possible...)
Of ocurse, the effects of the caffeine wore off soon, and the tiredness I was supposed to feel last night came back with a vengeance. Kept seeing this sign in Math lecture. Lol. [see mugalomaniac] So I was fighting to stay awake. Today was like MP3 day and I forgot to bring my earpieces. So I couldn't listen. =.= GP was teacherless with Conrad on MC and recess was spent mugging in class. I had to be content using my phone.
Bio tuto was the presentation of the 1st group. We might be able to watch Gattaca on Thurs. Hehs. Chem test...hopefully I'll get an S, or E if lucky...I did study, just that..you know how things are... Chem Prac was freaking boring. I was at a cornr of the class cos Ben shifted up and I tohught the first row was full. =.= So I emoed as the back. Haha...I just said I was tired and stoned there, peeping out through the blinds, copying work, I am sitll emo cause I have tuition at 8pm today, and tuition totally kills off my mood for anything. right now I'm just content to stone and emo. Lol. Some pics from the previous few days. This is a non-photoshopped pic. My sister ran off when I attempted to use image sequencing on her cos she was doing it first and this came out. o_O Another dead tree. Some emo-like doodle during chem I did when I was, surprisingly, not feeling emo! =] Ben told me these were politically correct lies, so I wrote that down. During the family dinner. My younger cousin here. Mugging at Macs. Whne I first started revising Chem, I got so annoyed having to flip through so many pages without knowing when I'd reach the info I borrowed these sticky page markers from my sis. Now its VERY convenient to find what I want and my chem notes look gay. Happy gay, and gay gay. Hahaha...Terence was surprised at the simplicity of this idea too. Ben having a mental breakdown while studying Chem. Love the weather. Half heavy rain (right), half drizzle (left). Stoned about for a few mins before going to Chinese class. He was pissed cos he thought we ponned lesson last Tues, when in fact we had Chem extra lesson. On the way home, I was walking when I saw two dark spots appear on the bricks. The first rain had arrived. It progressively got heavier and heavier, and I missed a nice shot out through the rain-streaked windows of the bus. Missed another one yesterday too. Sigh. NO nice emo shots. =.= I'm thinking of making an emo skin tonight. Problem is converting my white blog to black...
Slept at 3 last night. Woke at 8, tried to go back to sleep till 9, got up and out, went to WS macs. Sunny was there alr. Did our bio proj. Was petty ok, kinda slacky but we did do work. Studied from 12 to 1430, left for training. Bumped into Shawn and Terence on the bus. Went for training. So-so. Went home. Bought a 6-pack of coffee. I am going to mug the hell out of tonight. Or die trying.(Most probably from caffeine overdose) Target: Mug uninterrupted from 8pm to 1pm.
Spent my day doing a bit of homework, reading, and researching for my Bio project on the Human Genome Project: Nature VS Nurture. Not a very easy topic, I can say. Then went out for dinner with the family. Some kopitiam-like seafood restaurant in Bukit Merah. Quite a change from the usual regal aircon restaurants we go to. The food was ok, but I've tasted better.
Realised I've got Chem test to study for and meeting up with my group for Bio and training tomorrow too. And I just remembered only cos my com screen was blocking that sheet of blue paper on my magnetic board. How ironic. =.= And I got 6 topics to revise. I'm considering going cold turkey, and locking up my com or something until the block test is over. Then I won't have anything to do but revise. Maybe until after the block test. So if you don't see me online or tagging for 19 days, don't be surprised. Drastic times call for drastic measures. Meanwhile, I'm off to mug chem. Ciao.
Oh, and I've abandoned Rooftops. It wasn't that bad but it wasn't great either...plus, it looked a little halfassed and messy. MSN was popular when it first came out, but even I also think its time for a change. I need inspiration. Meanwhile, MSN is here to stay.
Pah. Wonders of techonology. Twitter was screwing up like hell and when I logged in here to remove it from the code it got fixed suddenly. =.=
Hi everybody! The Mugalomaniacs are back again! Director's Commentary: Did you enjoy this strip? Leave a tag! With J2 work piling up, it's harder to find time to do this kinda stuff already. I screwed up a wee bit in one pic, and didn't correct it that well cause I was lazy, plus I saved over the original . =X See if you can spot it. Halfway through this strip, I sorta felt I couldn't make it funny at all, but everything panned out in the last image.(To me at least...Not sure about you guys...)
I think maybe I have a tiny bit of inner talent of doing this kinda stuff. Not very well, but I'm getting along. I just read the blog of this 3D artist in Singapore, and I realised that actually, Plastic Muggers is like a vent for my creative expression, a channel for the putrefying gases of the dead 3D animator in me that my parents killed. Did I ever say I wanted to join the 3D game course in poly? No? Well now you know. It's too late now, either way. The only reason I use LEGO figures is that I have the same convenience and control I would over 3D generated characters in a program which I, of course, don't have.
[Extracted from http://mugalomaniac.blogspot.com with permission of the author who is, of course, me! Haha...]
Oral (60%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own. Anal (50%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity, order and chaos, variety and selectivity. Phallic (40%) you appear to have a good balance of sexual awareness and sexual composure. Latency (46%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests. Genital (53%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life.
Nothing much to talk about. Spent my day doing work and reading, and in the evening, my mum turned me and my sis loose on the snack section of NTUC with $50 bucks. Being the considerate people we were, we splurged $25 on assorted biscuits, chips, marshmallows, chocolates, and candy bars. =D Oh and the test above? I'm normal! =] Balanced between both, except I occasionally swing on the last one, which depends on my mood. I can be high or emo at times.
So I'm free now, maybe I'll take a stab answering Ben's emo post. Whatever flows from my finger may or may not be my thought or beliefs, but at the very least theories. Why do we exist? Is there any real meaning in life? Well there is not really any discernible meaning in it. Unlike in a game when you aim to be one of those "uber1337 omfgz0r pWnag3 pr0z0r" strutting about. Life, distilled down to its very basest is something of a no-brainer. You are born, you play hard, study hard, work hard, die easy. So is there anything to live for? If not, why not just die? Well...there is the fear of death to start with. The great Unknown. One more of those pesky annoying mysteries of life. Basically we fear the unknown, and what lies beyond death may be one of those big ones we don't dare to learn more about. Besides, even if you did, you can't tell anyone, right. Since we all will, in the end, why hasten your demise?
Which brings us to why live? You have no obvious glaring goals right? No. Humans are at the very least animals. Satisfying our basic needs are, shall we say, the primary directive? So what is it? To achieve comfort, pleasure, or happiness, or a state of relative stability. (Assuming you are not one of those who thrive on chaos.) So now you have something to aim for. Happiness. If only temporary. When it's over, grab the next chance that comes along. Plan ahead, maximise your happiness. Get good grades, get a cushy job, all of that corny stuff. Money is of course not everything. Take personal time off, relax, read. Your purpose in life is to please yourself, and occaionally that monster called a boss or a teacher. You were given this lot in life, you have to make do with what you have, make the best of it. Beggars can't be choosers. Like Donald Trump. Although I'm sure he's got enough money to choose his hairstyle. =S
Then, what differentiates us from animals? Not by much. The only thing that makes us humans is a fine line. And that line would probably be to conform to societies' norms. Who sets the norm? Us. The generally accepted consensus among the majority. Of course, there are a few deviants; there always will be. However, by effectively muzzling the animal within, I suppose in a way, we become human. We don't always act on impulse, and can plan quite far ahead. We gain an added complexity of emotions. I don't mean to say animals should be treated with any less respect than they deserve or that that they are lower class, or that this applies to all of them, but I daresay plenty don't really feel emo. Or disappointed, or directed hate against another of its kind. Our emotions simply be diverse and complex, such as feeling sarcastic, indignant, or even boredom. So, what makes us human isn't that much after all, for we still know immeasurable amounts of cruelty, and have committed the amoral acts from time immemorial. Stephen King says, and I quote: "we came to rule the earth not because we were the smartest,or even because we were the meanest, but because we have always been the craziest, most murderous m*****f***ers in the jungle." Which is probably quite true. =]
Ok I shall stop my rambling here. Right now I think either I am making no sense at all, or I am simply trailing off into nowhere. I managed to kill enough time to fill up a small truck, so I am off to read. Ciao.
Yeah! Half day today. Lol. First Time I was ever released early on Friday. It feels good. Finished An Inconvenient Truth today. Was nice. However, Al Gore's electricity bills have surfaced recently, which may or may not be an irony. Considering America's politics, the whole issue is muddied, and I also have no idea which side is the one to believe. =\
After that, Galvyn asked us to help with doing sai kangin the hall for the graduates, like giving out the yearbooks and opening the wrappers. Later, Went to Ikea with them. Dan and Ben's mouth-hands french kissing. Ikea seems like a magical place for discussion. We always talk about a lot of deep stuff there. Later they went back to school and I went home. I don't think a CLB student needs to be at the presenting of Chinese A level results...lol.
Slacked a bit, Youtubed, then left to meet Shawn and BenQ to go bowling. It was raining pretty heavily, but lightened at Changi. Games were pretty much ok. Training this Mon. I'm going to start intensive mugging for block thest, make the most of this weekend, and finish my homework, cos I still have a bio project to do...I can't do badly this time round.
Ah. Some breathing space. Half day tomorrow. Possibly Mugalo board meeting after school. Sch was some old same old, rained, so PE was pretty slack. Hehs. Got away with not doing econs cos of misunderstanding so I didn't bring book. ^^ Math and Chem was ok. Played tetris in Math lec to stay awake. Compass was VERY interesting. Never thought I'd say that. Today we learnt more about our personality types, and its FREAKING accurate. I'm INFJ. Only 2% of the population I think. All the stuff inthe talk about our character was very very very accurate...lol. fun. =]
After sch got forced into going to town with sch U still. =.= and I only have $7 for this week. =[ Shawn agree so fast, then left me the only sorang person undecided. I also had dinner waiting for me at home. Went to New York New York for dinner. Food was pretty good. Though I didn't wanna spend too much...=[ Came home, slacking abt now, probably do some work ltr...
842 damage.
New skill: Autumn Wind- Flame. Sounds so cool! ^^
M.A.G.E. this is for you. You wanted pics of tigers ^^
Yes, its a White Tiger Giant
Me cursing the NPC after completing the stupid die-a-lot quest.
Here we go, 
I learnt that skill. Crystal Wall-Ice
Die White Tiger!
Rawr. Bandit Giant.
Hewp meeeee!
This pic looks very cool. The BG too...
Killing Chakji Workers.
Boom!
Bust.
Ice River skill.
Frozen Bandit. ^^
Frozen in time.
Return Scroll
z0mfg its a tiger!!!!!111
Same big old guy.
I open up shop. =]
I sat down beside this dead guy for fun.
Now that's what I call rape.
Boo.
This is one bigass tiger.
Rawr!
Can I have one for my Christmas, Daddy? Pleaseeeeeee?
=]
1hit kill.
New skill: Summon pretty hawk that looks harmless, and IS kinda harmless... ^^
