Today I really went and cut myself. I really did. I dunno why I did it. Sigh. Maybe its cos of personal problems, or maybe its cos of my results or whatever. I can't think...I've been so distracted the whole day. I already got U for math and U for chem. I'm not sure what else I might get next. I live in fear of Monday. Sigh. It sounds weird, and you may think people who cut themselves are stupid, but perhaps you've never experienced it yourself. It's just...intolerable. And it was deceptively simple. I took that piece of plastic, that plaque that stood there every hour of every day, mocking me, mocking me. I felt I really didn't deserve it with such absymal GP grades. Tarnished. Just grabbed it when noone was looking, and locked the door to me room, then I used it. Just stuck in it hard and drew a long line down my arm. Immediately a thin red line began to appear. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Whywhywhywhywhywhywhy??? ARGHHHHH!!! I simply couldn't take it much longer. It seems like the world was totally nuts. And in the fog of pain, I realised why I was doing this...it just came to me...


it was April fool's day.


Sorry!!! Is this too harsh? Don't hurt me! =[ If you really got offended by this I'm really sorry. =X Let be friends again. I don't mean anything by it. Seriously.


-=[K]=- Complexity. says:
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[M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says:
haha
[M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says:
welcome welcome
-=[K]=- Complexity. says:
I was crying cos...
[M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says:
dont cry anymore 'kae? it swollens your eyes
-=[K]=- Complexity. says:
it was April's fool's day!
[M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says:
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[M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says:
o.O
[M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says:
*beat


Ok, I have to admit it was kinda mean. =X But I couldn't resist, sorry...lol. I came up with that on the spot as I was logging off to install evo for WLM. Haha...Nothing much today...about to finish my poor battered Catch-22 =.=, sent my phone to Nokia General Hospital. Couldn't find a convenient Starbucks so sipped an Iced Milo at the food court and stoned a while before my turn. I think they shuold make a drama series called NGH. It'll be very popular. The drama, the excitement, the quarrels, the fights, yelling, shouting, the dead and dying phones they fight to save. I think Nokia should hire a bouncer at every Hospital to protect the staff there.


First there was this guy shouting about the closing time cos he came too late and they stopped taking in customers after 4 or so. Then later this guy was shouting at the service staff, (I think he thought his SIM card was with them, when in fact they return the SIM card to you every time its admitted into NGH. You get its soul and its heart, leaving the body and brain to them.)telling her NOT TO ASSUME YOU SAID I WAS ASSUMING I DIDNT ASSUME YOU ARE THE ONE ASUMING NOT ME I WANT YOU TO APOLOGISE TO ME NOW APOLOGISE Z0MFG J00 BIATCH FUKEN APOLOGISE OR I AM GOING T3H BLOW YUOR N00BY SHIET HEAD OFF LOLOL N00B PWN3D BIATCH!!!!!!!!111 Obviously this guy is not an economist. For one thing, he can't assume...poor thing. For one thing, I hate these people. They think they can take it out on the service staff just cause they've had a bad day or cause they're the customers.


C'mon. They're human too, like you and me. Yet these people treat them like they're lower than us, or machines, demanding they apologise like some 7 year old kid. They're not the malfunctioning Coke machine you can kick, or the broken phone you can whack. They have to have incredible patience and tolerance. You may be upset, but these people are trying to do their job. The only way I'll be rude to an employee is when they show me bad attitude first. Oh yeah. Check this out.


April 1, 2007
Three faces of the China student: EXAM TOPPER
Help! There's a China student in my class. The presence of these kids in schools has raised the bar for local students. Should Singaporeans be worried? Ho Ai Li and Vincent Leow report


LU YUN, an only child, came to Singapore from Beijing when her engineer mother was posted here six years ago. Her father is a researcher based in China.
Then 12, she joined Yuhua Primary as a Primary 5 pupil but transferred to Grade 8, equivalent to Secondary 2 here, at the Canadian International School six months later. A year later, she transferred to Secondary 3 at the Singapore Chinese Girls' School because the fees were lower.


The former Raffles Junior College triple science student plays the flute and electone, and was among this year's top A-level students. She was recently awarded a Government of Singapore Investment Corporation (GIC) scholarship and plans to further her studies in the United States.


O levels: 9A1s, A2 for English


A levels: Four As - for Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Maths; Distinctions for 3 'S' papers; A1 for General Paper


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'When I first came, my English was quite poor. I could only say, "How are you?" and could not speak fluently. I memorised a student dictionary for six months and recited passages from my English textbooks. After you overcome the English barrier, everything becomes easier.'


[Z0MFG PWNZ0R!!!!!!!!!!!111]


April 1, 2007
Three faces of the China student: NON-SCHOLAR


LIN XIANG, 22, from Fujian, now a business student at the National University of Singapore (NUS), arrived here in 1999 and entered Secondary 1 at First Toa Payoh.
His mother, a manager, spent more than a year's income, or 100,000 yuan ($20,000), to send her only child here for studies as she was impressed with Singapore after a visit. And that was only for his first year of studies.


He stayed in a hostel while his mother and father, a senior administrative officer in a school, remained in China.


Lin got zero for his first English test but that did not stop him from topping his school in the O levels.


He moved on to Nanyang Junior College and then NUS. He gives tuition five days a week and has taken out a tuition loan to help pay his way.


O levels: 4A1s, 2A2s and C5 for English


A levels: 2As for Biology and Maths and 2Bs for Physics and Chemistry; B3 for GP


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'The Singapore education system is quite similar to China's in terms of of level of stress. But classes in Singapore are much smaller and that makes my results stand out more.'


[OMGWTFBBQPWNSAUCE]


April 1, 2007
Three faces of the China student: SCHOLAR


LI XIAYU, 16, was on the fast track back home. The student at Jiangxi Number 1 Middle School was in a special class which allowed students to complete three years of secondary school in two.
But when Temasek Junior College came to her school and offered her a scholarship three years ago, she jumped at the chance to see the world.


Here, she's onto another accelerated path, joining the college's Integrated Programme (IP), which allows her to bypass the O levels. Now a third-year IP student, equivalent to JC1, she has gone on trips to Malaysia with the Outward Bound School and is a member of the science council. She is an only child and her parents are teachers.


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'When I came here, I was only 13. I didn't think of much else besides studying. But I have become more matured and disciplined now. I've also become more tolerant.'


[LOLOLOL UB3R 1337 PWN-hey wait! Er, no offense (seriously!) but if you "didn't think of much else besides studying.", how do you "become more matured and disciplined now"? Is there another z0mfgwtfbbq omg uber 1337 pwnz0r unattainable uber high level that transends the plane of muggerism? If So I want to be the first Singaporean to-oh wait. I can't.
Hang on...it this is published on April 1, does that mean...? Hmm...