I failed GP. (Oh and by the way, April Fools' is over.)
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Seek not the meaning of life, for there is none.
-=[K]=-


I have nothing to say. I don't know what to say. Ha-ha. Brilliant. How about a tasteful selection of quotes?
Conrad: "...and the big surprise, Kenneth Ang, fail."
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Danson: "How much did you get?
Me: "Do you not see how I bleed? Words cannot express the full extent of the sorrow I feel deep within me."
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Conrad: "Maybe you can read out what went wrong with your paper, Kenneth."
Danson: "Sir, do you not see how he bleeds?"
Me: "Yeah you're poking around inide my open wound...[reads]"
Conrad: "I have no idea what you have just said."
Me: "..."


Fantastic. So this is the way it turns out? To think I was happy at getting a posible C for Bio. We don't know our Paper 2 yet, but the average is 18 marks. So I know I am going to fail. Don't try to tell me otherwise. I KNOW I WILL FAIL GP regardless if I haven't got my paper 2. I know it. I WILL FAIL. Ha. I once read a quote from Jeffrey Archer that ran along these lines: "I always think of the worst, so that whenever anything good happens, I'll be pleasantly surprised." That's just the way it is now. If by some miracle I pass, it will not be any effort of mine. Not at all. It will probably be the pity of the teachers, or maybe the divine providence of The Powers Above that see fit to cut some slack for my blighted half-dead cadaver. Thoroughout the entire day I kept feeling random cold waves that made me shiver...stuff I only experience during a severe emo bout. =S


23/50. Yeah, the passing mark is 22.5, but to me its a fail. I know some people did worse too. I can sympathise. The reason I'm feeling like shit over all of this is the fact that GP was the only subject EVER I knew I could count on 100% (well, not 100% now) to give me a decent grade. And now? When I fail GP, Math and Chem, (haven't received econs), what will they do to me? WHAT WILL THEY DO TO ME? It G-effing-P for goodness' sake. Sigh. I don't know what to think now. Disgusted? The closest would be disappointed. The only person to blame for this is me. My friend told me my marker was his teacher who was very lenient. Great. There you have it. I brought this upon myself. I totally feel like crap. When the only subject I ever had confidence in has been besmirched by this, where can I turn to? My grades are nonsense. U chem U math. Now I fail GP, everything is just gone. Shattered. All that ever was, swept away in an instant, a phantasmagorical wind, illusory, there and never there. I don't know what I'm typing now.


I know maybe some people think I'm blowing this matter up and that I'm being so selfish when there are other who did worse. If I feel like shit over that, then they must feel worse. I'm not trying to belittle their feelings or anything. I know they probably feel worse or are even coping better than I am. It's just that this comes as a great blow to me. And I'm disappointed. So disappointed. At myself. Finito.