Yes ergo is done! I hope I manged to do ok for it. =X After ergo went to Suntec Starbucks to study with a few friends. Not too bad. Got nice seats and a power point. I started off without having really memorised, but as we went on I made quite a bit of progress. That's why I like studying in groups, or at least group discussions before the paper. It is immensely useful. People point out stuff u miss, vice versa. You spot crucial things while discussing, and the overall benefit is quite large. If possible I hope to have group discussions before my exams now.

Had dinner at Subway, walked around Millenia Walk. Furniture shop Space closed down =( went to Starbucks for another round before going back. Having another session tomorrow. After Friday, last paper!

I am...studying for my exams and sketching. Exams making me a little edgy and at times I wanna snap at people but I try not to. =X Anyway...I just downloaded the theme song to Ratatouille, and now I wanna watch the film. Also, I'm in love with French music. It's just so...nice. The language is so beautiful. I don't understand but damn it's lovely. Reminded me why I always wanted to learn French.

It's this...particular genre. But I don't know what to call it. So I did a Google search, and got on Last.fm. Started working out for me after a few songs. These songs are so light and bubbly...and help to cheer me up somewhat. ^^ I feel good listening to them. Amélie-Les-Crayons and Cœur de Pirate are my two favourite. The closest I can approximate it to is...French Indie. No matter, I LOVE IT and I want more. I shall hunt out more when I'm free. Back to sketching accompanied by music!

Not counting earlier, it has been days since I last blogged. What's happened in between? Wednesday was final submission of my models, of particular disappointment is my perfume bottle, but what's done is done. Sigh. At least I packed up and went back to play Portal 2 on Tuesday night. Lol. After submission, I packed up much of the unwanted stuff lying around. Then some of us went to have lunch at the kopitiam opposite vivo. After that...we walked around a bit and eventually decided to take the new boardwalk to sentosa for fun.

It really is very nice. It looks pretty cool and arty. lots and lots of wooden planks laid out in nice curvatures. They said it must've taken some poor guy forever to CAD out the thing. Lol. We walked there, sat down halfway and just talked about stuff. Nice to have some time off for a while. Then went back to hall after. Tried to sleep without alarm. Somehow woke up at 10am still what the hell. Went to Central Lib for lunch with friends, went to study. Slept till 11 the next day. Studied till Fri. And now it's Saturday. 5 more chapters of Ergo and 2 chapters of History await me. And more sketches.

I feel like sleeping. I want to sleep. But I have so much left to do that it's pushing me to complete it sigh. Must endure for the next two weeks.

I cannot believe-or maybe I should be surprised that so many people are suddenly taking the election so seriously. Did being 21 wrought some mystical change in us? The ancient powers of democracy brought to us by the Greeks? It's making us fight among ourselves. This is...I don't know. I need to get back to studying. That's the most important thing in my mind right now. Sigh.

D-1: 1 day before final submission.
A broken model makes for a broken man.

The bitter taste of defeat at 6am in the morning. A whole night's work wasted. An atrocity I dare not acknowledge as my own. What bastard model did I bring forth into this world? I had high hopes for you. I spent the day trying out various ways to wrap styrene round my model. It looked promising but I couldn't get it to work out.

Eventually late in the evening I switched to another design. Seemed to work. Sure, I din't really like it like the previous, but whatever works. I tried to make some nicer templates to wrap around. Then when making it, I found out the hot styrene had warped and deformed the main part of my model (a plastic egg made out of polypropylene). The egg was partly ruined. Looking back I suppose I can be thankful the entire thing didn't just break apart.

That was the last straw though. I really couldn't see the point in carrying on further in this course, but I have no more time. I have to carry on with what I have. So I just did. Spent the whole night trying to fix the styrene base, puttying, and sanding and and spraying it. Then at 6am I insert the main egg part and the styrene (being too small) cracks open. Voila. There you go.

Emergency repair efforts like filling it with putty have been done and I'm going to work out how to spray the damn thing later. But that's it for me. I've had it with this horrible thing. I get the feeling I'm carrying on down a road filled with disaster and it's only going to get worse as I go on. There' no point in continuing in this course of action so I'm going to take the first exit. My model is pretty much held together by spit and prayers so I expect it will be one of the worst ones on Wed. Only my other work can save me now.

Maybe there's a way to save it. I don't want to give up. I hate to do so. But I really don't feel like pushing my way down this path. Sigh.

Disaster! Panic in the kingdom. Went for breakfast today morning agaimst my better judgement because im running low on time. After that, returned to school at about 1.

I slept at 5 last night and woke at 9. Spent my afternoon sanding that one egg-shaped piece of wood and dozing off. Regained enough energy that way to wake up in the late afternoon. Sanded till night.

Went for dinner and then came back. Finally was able to finish the wood and tried to vaccuum form in. Failed in many ways. Succeeded in a few. But overall i need to redo it again. I broke the formed plastic to extract my mold. I'm going to try again later. This has to work! Submission on wed.

Another day in school. Staying over tonight. Till Monday. Expected to see more people but there wasn't that many. That means tomorrow will be damn crowded. So I must chiong my work today so I don't have to compete with everyoneso much tomorrow. Roar. Anyway there's a lot of work to do also. Sigh. And I sanded the lacquer down wrongly twice so I have to waste time to wait for my lacquer to dry.

OMG I haven't blogged in a week? This week has been crazy, submissions everyday. We clear one and move on to the next immediately. It's all passed by seemingly so quickly because we spent so much time doing work. Finally on Thursday when we got a breather I looked back and realise I can strike off a lot of stuff off my to-do list. I don't know how we made it.

I also lost my wallet (found it but no cash) KNS but I don't wanna go into that anymore. Damn sian. And I took a break yesterday and today so I got a lot of work to do for this weekend.

OMG you are seriously damn irritating. I am going to take a deep breath and ignore ALL your crap. No Facebook replies unless absolutely necessary and no tweets. You have worn our your welcome within a week of joining twitter. Congrats.

Sigh. I haven't blogged in so long. Things have been pretty hectic with lots of projects final submission coming up. Everyone's been trying to juggle everything and allocate equal effort ot all of them but it's not easy. I'm still sketching the work I didn't do last week. I have to finish it by tonight. Or. Today morning. Roar. I suppose I'll head to school a little later tomorrow. Everyone is rushing for Remotes submission on Monday. Still a few more weeks to exams.

Ok, so school was alright I guess. Found a bit of motivation for me to start working today. Remotes project is going fine. Came home and sketched too. I most likely can finish sketching but I have some stupid compulsory hall dinner tomorrow night. I guess I'll go for that I guess. The food oughta be better. I does mean most likely I'll miss sketching though. DAMMIT. And I think I can finish it lor. Sigh. Oh well, gonna go shower and tomorrow gonna go do more work in school. Holidays seem so near yet so far.

So.. on Sat morning we were supposed to go out for some exhibition. Thing is, it was cancelled the night before and no one actually told me. =.= Somehow I got left out of the loop so, yeah. Travelled all the way to Bugis for nothing. Zzz. Headed back to hall and stayed there to do my work. Next left in the afternoon to go for CMB comm treat. It was fun. =) Went to PS to buy food then headed to Barrage. We had a picnic, took pictures, and played with sparklers.

Did you know u cannot play with sparklers at the barrage? Apparently its a government building so no naked flames are allowed. =\ Well at least we got a nice shot out of it lol. After that we had the most random drinking session ever. On the bus home:

A: Eh we can go to Clarke Quay and transfer to Vivo take bus home faster.

K: Clarke Quay can go drink le.

G: Eh ya, I don't mind leh.

Really ar?

A: [Press bell]

Eh really ar? That's it you know.

So we alighted and went to Clarke Quay HAHA, Super impropmptu. Then went to Yello Jello which was quite nice. =D Opened a bottle of Chivas. Drank until my limit. =X We cabbed back and I slept till 1 plus. In school now but the weather is SO HOT. I don';t have mood to work like this but I seriously have not enough time.

Feeling too tired to complain about what I blogged about this morning. Live and let live? Or something I guess. Anyways, good for venting a bit so I feel better. Spent my entire day in school doing work. =\ Juggling two projects. Damn tired, particularly mentally. Ends up with me not being in the best of moods and sometimes my class only makes it worse. But I just try to keep moving on and not show it. Tiring business, it is.

Worked till 9 plus when I got tired of staring at the screen and decided to return to my room. I think I lost my matric card. I can't find it in my wallet. Dammit. Going to be hard to leave and enter hall. Sigh. Might need a new one unless if I can find it or someone returns it. =\ Even staring at the screen makes me tired. I really feel like turning in for an early night but there's so much work to do. And I'm going out tomorrow morning so that's time gone. Plus another thing for hall that I have to go for tomorrow evening. =S I'll have to burn through tomorrow night I guess.

Time is running out. Deadlines in 2 weeks.

I got to thinking that all persons are but pathetic sacks of flesh and gristle and disgusting fluids. Our delusions of cleanliness and nobility are the basest of lies, the world teems with hypocrisy and falsehood and loosing the pitcocks of humanity in order to free the fluids is the greatest honesty of all.

-Twisted, Johnathan Kellerman

I have had to just about up to here with some of you people. -Takes a deep breath- This is some of the SHIT I have to put up with from some of you.

Conversation with groupmate:

A: Me

B: Another guy

C: Wonderful groupmate

A: So since we wanna discuss project, we go watch movie le go Starbucks discuss lor!

C: Ya ya ok!

B: Agreed!

-5 mins later-

B asks C if she confirm going.

C: [sullen] No , no not going le, movie more important that project...you all go watch movie. Tonight no need discuss le.

WTF. =.=

I ask her why she not going then she repeated the same sarcastic line to me. Wah change mood 180 degrees. So later we decided since we had free time, let's discuss the project first.

I went other to groupmate D and B came along and C eventually. We tried to discuss a bit. C just kept quiet. Since we were like waiting for someone to start, I decided to go and try and talk about stuff we needed to do. C still kept quiet. Then halfway I said:

Cos since no one wanted to start I thought I'd get the ball rolling.

C: WAHHH You get the ball rolling wor! Go go, now the ball with you.

A: [complacently] Yes I get the ball rolling la. Of course.

I admit it willingly and confidently because it's true NO ONE was starting.

I'd go into more but I don't wanna want to step into personal grounds here and it's not right. Oh and after that, C started discussing like nothing new happened. WAH happy happy do work not happy then show black face. Win liao lor.

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Oh yes by the way, I just fucking flared up in class. This is why I try to control myself always. I try not to scold people. I try not to get angry. I try not so show I'm angry. It's for the good of us all. Some of my classmates get easily agitated. I try to keep things laid back. I remember that whatever happen, it's not in the here and now, it's for the NEXT 3 YEARS, and with the SAME 30 people in this SAME small space.

My group mate is here. I'll go on later. Bye.

Things are getting complicated in class. Sigh. One of my group mates was totally damn horrible today but I shan't go into more because I'm tired and I need my sleep. I've been having a really bad headache since the evening due to lack of sleep. Things are just complicated in the class dynamics right now.