Do you know what I watch movies? It's not some fantastical notion of traveling to a new world or being transported to a different reality. It is simply because in that period of time, for a moment, my mind is taken off things in the real world. I get distracted and engrossed by the film and it makes me forget, for two hours, my concerns. It is the alcohol of the mind.

I was so glad when I was told training tomorrow was cancelled. I'm not staying hall in year 2 so basically I wanna f*** all and ignore all the sports. But I just can't figure out how to quit. I think that I should do that ASAP, yet another part tells me it's not the right thing to do and I should endure till the competitions are over then be done with it. And yet, I dread having to head back to school multiple times for training. And finding out too late there are subsidies for those playing sports to stay on.

So I have trainings that I don't feel like going to. Also, I have to work on the new website for my other cca. Well I just saw emails regarding it and my first response was: This can wait till tomorrow. That said, I shall go to sleep. I need to collect my passport tomorrow and also I oughta remove some stuff from my room. I realised I left a bag of Kit-Kat on my bedside counter. It really shouldn't be there till Jan.

She din reply my last text but maybe that's cause she was busy. Everything else is fine, but somehow I've to work up the nerve to text her again. I used to have no problem doing that. Ugh.