Ups and downs this week. I finally made it up the wall! Happy. Essentially one of my submissions on Thursday studio was deemed good enough to be collect and pinned to the wall. Finally. Some sort of physical affirmation of my work. I wan't happy with our previous week's submission. it was group work and I was in a group with two PRCs. My printer was down so I left it to one of them to collate everything. We did get out project out on time compared to some other groups but our pictures were printed in black and white. B/W for chrissakes.

Technically late submission entails a deduction of marks but as our lecturer is teaching just this sem and from the US, I dunno if he'll adhere to this. So if there wasn't deduction, I wouldn't have minded handing in a better (colour) version of our final submission. Argh. Hell of a submission. Even those that submitted late, at least they submitted better looking pieces. You have to be hungry. You need to have the want, the need, the will to succeed to strive for the best you can give. That's why I'm giving my all. It's all in now.

That's why even when we have a reading based on a documentary, I googled it and actually found the Youtube videos. Watching it right now. Mention of Helvetica in a studio session. Torrented. I need photoshop to do my Thursday project. BUT I DONT HAVE IT. Argh. I keep trying to download it (trial) but it always FUCKS UP. I WANT PHOTOSHOP. It's not a must, but it sure as hell makes my life easier. I suppose my ultimate backup is Microsoft Powerpoint. =\

I need to get it done by Thursday. On the bright side, I have done most of the work I need to do. But I still got still I have to touch up on. Need to reorganise again. Tues is done. Wed readings, watching the VIDEO. Thurs. AUGH. Fri...touch up sand paper. Next Mon, work on my Designers presentation.

Another thing is, well, the positions I applied for in block comm are taken up. Level IC and publicity head. MAYBE I can get something else? I dunno. I really really want to get it because I think I'll like it. But I only mentioned these two placings to them. Maybe I should tell them. Someone else got publicity head. =( Whyyy? I mean, you have this guy doing industrial design and u give it to someone who said 'anything' for what post he wanted? Furthermore when quite a few people applied for the post? Why? Not that I'm saying he doesn't deserve it, cos he's a great guy and all, but when I asked him if he got it, he said "Ya, sian..." Then I don't really see the link there anymore. I want it and yet...sigh.

Quite demoralised by this. If I don't get in, I'll be damn sian. If you don't let me have something, Not only am I isolated in the corner of level 2, I'll be cut out of the loop even more.