[You know, this is inappropriate but I kinda like this post. Not the content obviously..just that you gotta admit some parts are funny. Lol.]

Did more of the same today. Nothing much going on. We need to talk. Rightfully the four most scary words in the English language. Yup. I've been thinking about this for quite a while, but have always put it off until now. The thing is, I am not very excited about our holiday. Sigh. To me, 'I am going on holiday.' is just a statement, not enough to evoke any kind of emotion. I thought as the date approached, my mood might change, but I guess not.

Originally when we were discussing it, I thought it would be an 'us' thing. Great for us to have some proper time together. Then the Boyfriend Brigade came along, which I'm fine with. Then 2 more new people. And then it's not us anymore. It's The Lord of the Rings Visits Malaysia with a party of 10. And no Ring. ("Who brought the Ring?" "I thought you had it." "What? I thought YOU did!" "Oh no. Nonono...everyone check your pockets!") It's not that I violently object or anything. It wouldn't be polite for me to object in the first place. But it's just not 'us' anymore. Not to me.

Well I suppose the key thing is to not spoil it for anyone. So even if I'm unhappy, the show must go on. I'm just one person. Let's put a smile on that face. :D Normally when going on trips I'd be quite excited to bring my video camera. But now I'm not too sure. Not too sure whether I want to go to so much trouble to record something I may not really enjoy. Well I can be the invisible man in every picture. The guy behind the camera. That way you have to tag me in every one. Ha-ha. Ok. Not funny. Because that would be cheating to hit the 1,500 picture count on Facebook.

Not to mention I have unresolved issues, but who cares? Right? Right? Break a leg!

'What has the actual lapse of time got to do with it? It is only shallow people who require years to get rid of an emotion. A man who is master of himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure. I don't want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them,to enjoy them, and to dominate them.'

-The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde

Sorry I'm shallow, Dorian. I used to disagree with you. Which was why I refused to use this quote. But now...I'm starting to think you may have a point.