Went to Val's house. She picked me up at Hougang and then Jason at some ulu area in Aljunied. Damn I need a belt. The jeans I bought in Taiwan were of the wrong size. Saw one I wanted in River Island. Hmm. Got there kinda late. Saw M for the first time. Exchanged oranges and greetings with Val's dad, got a red packet and we went to get food at the buffet. We all (meaning ben, xw, val, jason, tak, m, and I) went up to Val's room to eat. Ben w/ xw, val w/ jason, tak w/ m,and I (goshifeelsoalone) sat at the foot of the bed while I related to them some stories.

Played this really random game called 99 which I lost first so I went to hide in a corner underneath val's table. Talked some more. We didn't wanna gamble with money so later we played Saboteur, this card game xw bought for val. It was pretty fun. Hehs. Oh and xw plays munchkin too! Cool. Haha.

Then later took some pictures with Xw that I can keep and bring to Planet Tekong. Tak had to go and make some silly ghost face in hers so I only got those with Xw and the 5 of us. Anyway, I still got the $12.50 pic we took at the Night Safari. Only it will be horrible if I lose it.

Went to parkway parade, where we sent Xw off. Ben, tak, m and I shuttle bussed to sk where I dropped off my stuff at home, including the crappy orange carrier my mum gave me which spilt a while after I stepped out of the house. =.= Brought tak and m to Ikea to meet ben and his family and raye. After dinner, took 58 with tak and m to pasir ris. Saw the Imperial Troopship fire up its thrusters and blast off to Planet Tekong once more. Went to Macs to get a drink cos I was thirsty. Tak was hungry.

Wanted to send raye home, but she insisted I not do so, so after I while I didn't. Walked back to my usual bus stop. Saw tak and m but decided not to intrude. (I've been doing that the whole day...in the cab with val, on the way to and from ikea...) Lingered outside in a dark corner of the busstop, using some other people to block me. Stared at the cracked strip of yellow paint on the curb. There was a hole in it that resembled a fish.

They never noticed me, not even when they boarded the bus right in front of me. Alas, my covert tactics are too good. Too bad my optical degrees restrict me from joining commando. Ha-ha. I moved to the windows outside them and waved at m when he looked in my direction. Then I realised that he probably couldn't see me cos of the reflection. So this is what it's like to be a ghost. Good. Right on cue, my bus arrived after theirs left so I boarded it for home.

It seems I have not lost my skills of fading into the background and staying quiet. But could I, when I've honed them for 16 years? The me you see today started forming just slightly more than 2 years ago. Before that, I was a totally different person. I was quiet, (hell, I looked quiet. And probably still do. Haha.)and hung around only with my all-guys gang only, and I only became livelier within my group.

Around others, zip, zero, zilch, nothing. Now, I open up easily and I've gotten to know a lot more people, and a lot more close friends. Sometimes, I don't know if this is the me I want to be, but I wouldn't exchange my friends for the world.

Sigh.

Just a random thought:
Humans are funny. When someone says: "I'm okay/fine.", 99% of the time they're NOT. Why? Because 99% of the time, they will have done something weird/strange/out of character enough to warrant some concerned(?) soul to ask them "Are you ok?" Since we can conclude that 99% of the time the answers is quite obviously NO, perhaps we should just do away with "Are you ok?" and go straight to "What's wrong?". Lol. Just something I was musing about. Ignore me.

People whom I usually call can tell my mood from what songs I play online, IF I'm online and IF I wanna play them. Right now, you'd probably find some of them pretty familiar.

I don't know how to handle this.
I can't handle this by myself.
I can't.

"O time, thou must untangle this, not I.
It is too hard a knot for me t’untie."

-William Shakespeare, Twelfth Night