Sunday, October 31, 2010

Left home early today morning to head down to school. Got my stuff and went down to studio to do work. Got there around 11. Almost half the day gone. Looked like a huge load of work ahead of me. Didn't quite know how to (get the momentum) to start. Started a bit, then went for lunch. Got back, started doing. I eventually got into it and forced myself to drive through everything. It was exhausting though. Even looking at my work made me feel tired.

Well, at least I finished most of one assignment. It really takes something to just sit down for hours on end and sketch and draw and shade and rub non-stop. It's not as easy as it sounds. It's somehow, draining in its own way. The focus, the concentration, the constant rendering and correcting and editing. That said, it also takes a special type of drive that can get some people back to school for an entire sunday and do work all day and not really feel upset about it. That and then some.

Also I got so caught up in work I completely forgot about Halloween celebration at 830pm tonight. By the time I realised it was past 9. =( Darn. Oh well it's not that bad.

It was nice to see you in school today. ^^

...and when everyone left later at night and it was just us. (And someone doing their work quietly in the corner.) That was nice.

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Things I Learned In ID #1: Practice Makes Perfect

Things I Learned In ID #2: You Are Your Own Designer

Things I Learned In ID #3: Believe In Yourself

Things I Learned In ID #4: Your Buttons Are Who You Are

(AKA Your Work Is What You Are)

More on this at a later date?
Ahhh drowning in work still. Thursday night/Friday took a break, then today I went to have Val unpack. I have Sun to chiong work. And possibly Monday. But I try not to do last min work as much as possible. =S I prolly have to buy ink cartidges on monday. I have sketches to do for my buttons, and analysis. Fill up 3 A3 papers. Then also need to finish up and compile my book. Also have test coming up on 3 modules for finals. Roar.

I have hall stuff to deal with, and I'm also trying to coordinate a holiday trip with friends. The price keeps going up WTF. =.= Overloaded with stuff. Lucky hall stuff slow down a bit. At this rate, i'm not very sure if I wanna stay hall next year. =S Also because of the cost. I better go sleep soon. Head on down to sch tmr morning and get down to work.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Hah. Went for SDE Halloween. Was fun but deamn hot inside my hoodie. I came as a hunter! Dammit not many people got the link. But some did. Damn shiok. Lol. AND. My friend also did it only his was black. and his hoodie was less baggy so like cooler. Roar. Lol. I skipped Sheares DnD. Oh well.

Friday, October 29, 2010

School today was ok. I stayed up till 5 to sketch most of the work and then slept at 6 after L4Ding to relax. I produced muchbetter work because I think Iwas in a working mood yesterday. Class was alright. I think my sketching may be improving. See FB album for details. Not v good still but better. After that we went for ID Halloween Party. Epic fun. They put in effort into it. A lot of ppl dressed up. I say this. OFFICIALLY. MOST. AWESOME. COURSE, EVER. Heh. Be jealous man. 4 years all tgt celebrating Halloween an playing games with booze and stuff. Great fun and great feel. Everyone is so close. Walked back later to hall.

Finally after all these weeks I got nth to hand up tmr. YES. Finally a break.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Friends are there to hurt you and make you feel worse about yourself the day you fuck up a major test and probably fuck up the mod too.

You are right and I am wrong.

I shall stop trying to be funny.


So. Fuck. 3am. I am still sketching. Fucked up majorly today. Still anxiety over the quality of my work yesterday and so far. I was so tired last night I thought my lecture was at 12pm. It started at 11. The lecture also requires us to write a reflection essay at the end. Guess what was going on when I came in? Yes. The reflection essay. I had to idea what had just been taught. I was effectively up shit creek without a paddle.

Luckily I managed to sit next to a classmate and just read up and put together something quickly. But it was a short essay. Sigh. Went for lunch. Went for ME test(Computer modeling). It was horrific. Complete and total massacre. I seriously felt like giving up there and then. Have you every done a test and felt like completely giving up halfway because you couldn't cope anymore? That's how bad it was. Maths u can fumble out crap equations. Essays u can smoke shit out. Modelling. NOTHING WORKS. ERROR. CANNOT REBUILD. COULD NOT DRAW.

I just did the best I could. I dunno how to use the fracking HOLE WIZARD. Then I got stuck. Dunno how the hell to model this. You can't proceed. You can't make the shape appear. You don't know why. There's no way around it. I did as much as I could. The assembly of parts was a fucking joke. So was the drawing. I nearly submitted A BLANK PAGE. I HAD NOTHING TO SHOW. I spent the last 5 mins stuffing my name and matric no. and date and stuff into the document in the desperate hope they wouldn't deduct marks. (Yes no tutorial grp filled in costs marks. Painful lesson.) Then I dumped in my joke of a drawing too. Oh balls.

Went home to grab some stuff then went back to hall. Went for hall event. Sketching. 4 more products to go. Sigh. 320am. Fuck.

You are the only person that makes life more bearable.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Oh gosh so tired. Sigh. Sun and Mon were doing buttons.I stayed over on Mon to Tues too. It was a bonus she was too, though she didn't intend to. Like I mentioned this week is very busy. I've only got about 4 hours of sleep per day since Sunday. Stress and the insane amount of effort and time I've put into my button. The finishing came out like crap. Shouldn't have spray painted. I think I want to kill myself. Upon final inspection its not very regular. But its so hard to make regular slanted edges. Or I shouldn't have used the sander.

Argh. I dunno. It's over now. Stress over work. Stress over other stuff. Stress over hall stuff. I slept 3 hrs after crit today then went for touch rug training. Also shag. Forgot I had CMB photoshoot and meeting. I thought it was tmr. I rushed back and straight went to change into formal attire. OMG. Lucky the aircon on the bus dried all mysweat. Ended meeting at 1, had supper till 2. Sigh. Got lecture at 12. Got a test tomorrow. I am so dead. I dunno how to do the drawings. Shitshitshit. Worrying over grades now. :( Sigh.


Let me show you what I’m made of
Good intentions are not enough
To get me though today and this life.
You’re in the basement watching the tv,
I’m on the second floor watching the ceiling.
We sleep underneath the same big sky at night.
I dream the same dream we can fly
You can run from me
You can hide form me
But I am right beside you
In this life.

“自然就会在一起”

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Monday! Work work. I see I haven't blogged in a week. Meh. Been busy with my button I guess. Final submission is tomorrow. Also had AR project presentation. Spent my time workingon other stuff and finally left school for the first time in 3 weeks to go town. For what? Take photos for project. Lol. Oh well, it was a change I guess.

Oh yeah I forgot to mention, good luck concert was pretty good.=) Everything was fine and we came out ok in the end. Lucky a lot of people really dressed up for the theme. This kind of stuff need a lot of people to do together. Other that that been busy with work. I think we unlocked a 4 day week! No more ME lecture on Mon and no more AR tutorials! I need to get down and clear the rest of my work after this buttons thing.

Spent Sunday meeting up with ben val and xw for breakfast, which turned into lunch cos everyone was late. I stayed up till 7am on Sat to sketch for AR. Then Sun went school till late. Nearly stayed over but luckily someone came back and was going to hall so I hitched a ride at close to 12. I did pretty much the same thing today and trying to finish up my buttons now so I can be done with it.

Things are looking positive with you. :)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Huh I haven'[t blogged since Wed. Too busy I guess. Too busy to even play L4D. Well Thurs was ok. Just normal class. After class went back to hall to attend a committee meeting. Next walked back to school at 1am to join my classmates who were staying over. Lol. Worked a bit then went to watch movie. Watched Definitely, Maybe which was actually not bad. hahaha. I was the only one who finished it. Slept at 5 plus and woke at 8. Needless to say I slept through our 9am class.

After that it was someone's birthday so we decided to go Vivo celebrate. Me? I needed a break from everything so I went too. We went to the White Dog Cafe for lunch and I nearly snuck off to buy cake. Lol. Eventually we went to Yigloo for yoghurt. Past few days cos of the materials for decoration, I drew out $40 and also spent $40. =.= Ugh. So I had to keep borrowing money from you. =X

Then bought bubble tea and went back. Slept on the bus. Left to go backto hall and was told I'd dropped my matric card so itwas with my friend. WTFF. And office is closed so I have to pay $5 and get the RF to open the door. NO. I did not (technically) lose my card so no. I had scheduled for people to come down and do deco so I tried to print stuff for them to do. In the end by the time I was done it was 730pm so I cancelled it and went to help do the DE club noticeboards. Worked till 4plus. Freaking tired. Slept 3 hours till my friend came then got the card from him then. Went back to hall, had breakfast, and slept till 12 or 1. Only abt 3 hours or so. Then went to print a shitload of stuff for deco. Had dinner at PGP. Haven't been there since I worked at Science Park II 4 years ago. Nostalgic. Lol.

Went back and had a Left4Dead marathon because I DESERVE IT. Played and completed 2 campaigns and went Multiplayer w ben and val. Heh. Today wantedto buy putty but I took the bus to the hardwarestore near schand it was closed =( Decieed to do a bit of deco. Lazy to wait for bus to studio and my room is cooler anyway.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Sch today was ok. I was rushing work today cos I've got training tomorrow. I've pretty much completed everything for the rest of this week. Busy busy. Yet I still play games. Destress I guess? I quit games for so long yet I started so many games after sch starts. Too good I guess. Left 4 Dead, Left 4 Dead 2, Minecraft, World of Goo, all pretty fun. But I can control. No matter how much I wanna play, there's a time and place. Slowly play lor.

After that came back to hall and had dinner. Completed Crash Course! Heheh. Went to rush out deco for Good Luck Concert till 10. Bought paint but not paintbrush. =.= Ended up cutting cardboard. Adjourned at 10 and wanted to join my block for (super late) mid autumn fest with Kent Ridge. I told them I'd be coming down. Then my friend asked to borrow my printer. Then I logged on and saw someone on FB asking me about Solidworks. Then saw that certain someone was online. Then remembered I had to get my signed posters from another friend. So many thingsssss. I ended up ignoring the Solidworks. SORRY!

Eventually got back and played L4D2 with ben val and yh. OMG why normal so hard! Roar. Finally comleted.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Oh well we didn't get to eat macs. Starting to feel a bit stressed out by all the hall commitments. Got schoolwork to do too. Must get in the mood to do it. Must watch my webcasts too. Pon 2 lectures le.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

After class went for tennis. I think maybe hopefully they'll accept my n00b ass into the team. I need this to stay in hall. =X Went for SDE night cycling after. Freaking tiring. Whole day of class then tennis then rushed down to cycle. I went to Paya Lebar and the bus they said I could take wasn't there. =\ I walked around the whole freaking station. Stuck there for 35 mins before I got a cab. $9.30. =(

Cycling was fun though. Pretty relaxing and we went to a lot of cool places! Saw a lot of nice stuff! Also, Mateen face-planted really badly on the floor. Thank goodness he was wearing helmet. One of the few. Busted lip, cut nose, and abrasions. When we got back was damn tired. Wanted so much to go home. Cabbed back, slept from 7 to 3. Went to sch, found out my com fail .=.= Bootloader dunno why spoil. Coudln't do shit. Got really pissed. Then I had to use my buggy hackint0sh to access my files and print them.

Spent my morning and afternoon printing my posters at CMB, had subway while waiting for the bus. Finished my whole meal before it came. Put up some deco. Put up all my posters. Just got told I need someone's signature first. Need to take them down again. FML. I'm gg to do it later tonight. Fuck man. I shall enjoy my left4dead first.

At least my com is fixed. Met ben at PS and took a few mins just to put in the recovery disk and fix my screwed up files. Then back to hall. Sch starts tmr. =S Need to hand in essay.

I'm buying TWO sets of Macdonald's Hotcakes with Milo tomorrow. :) I'm only eating one.
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It's you again. I know you. You bastard. You're here to torment me aain, aren't you. Fucking asshole. Don't think I don't know. Life, fate, bad luck, whetever the fuck you are. You came by in JC, fucked around with my life. I had a amazingly horrible streak of bad luck then. Shit after shit everyday. But I held out. I fucked you back and it was over. Now you're here again.

I'm NOT SCARED OF YOU. COME ON AND BRING IT. FUCK YOU AND WHERE YOU CAME FROM. I'M STRONGER THAT YOU AND I KNOW IT. NOTHING YOU THROW AT ME CAN BRING ME DOWN. I WILL FUCKING OWN YOUR ASS. Windows bootloader spoil OUT OF NOWHERE. Ben fixed it for me. iPhone update fuck up. ALL MY APPS GONE. ALL MY HIGHSCORES GONE. Fine. It hurts but I can play them again. Steam, I can't connect to server ok. I can view some friends. I'll find a fix. This is a fucking bad tech week but i'm stronger than that and I've got ben on my side and you can't DO SHIT. DO YOU HEAR ME? YOU CANT DO SHIT SO FUCK OFF AND STOP BOTHERING ME. FUCK AROUND WITH ME WILL YOU? I WILL FUCKING DEFEAT YOU. FUCKING LOSER. I flamed you once and you backed off. You're here for a second round huh? GO TO HELL.

Friday, October 08, 2010

Sch was ok today. I was quite sleepy and kept snoozing till 1030. Headed down to sch for lunch and then did up the work that was due. Class from 2-6. Then dinner and sketching. Really interesting. I feel it's a waste that due to my hall stuff I pushed my work to today and had to rush it. I didn't let my imagination go crazy. So much opportunity wasted. Bah.

They had some sort of sleepover today? But once I got back to hall I was lazy to return so I stayed there and surfed and did my hall stuff instead of joining them in studio and watching movies.

I guess it's good because I got to msn you. Which you initiated. And that was the highlight of my day. :)

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Damn stress now. Sigh. Very very stress. Feel like crap. I got sch work to finish by tmr. Actually I'll have time to do it tomorrow but I'm well, a designer so I tend to be a bit anal about such things now. That's secondary.

Primarily. All the designs for my publicity campaign has been rejected for not being eye-catching enough. They tell me that on the date they want to see it. Guess why I'm afraid to open my own inbox these days? So I have to try to put together something in these next few hours. Something BOOMZ and LOUD. Minimalism or good design doesn't exist here. I have to throw everything out the window. No grid. No sans serifs. No typography. Just BOOMZ. The masters must be turning in their graves for me.

My heart bleeds for design. Sigh. Stress. I shall try and churn out something. Push my sch work to tomorrow. BOOMZ.

I didn't want to say this out loud - but talking to you seems to be the only thing that brightens my day. Helping you with your essay is not work; it's an escape.

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Update: Because nothing says BOOMZ like scripted fonts, all CAPS and a bright red explosion shape with triple exclamation marks. Fuck yeah.

I'm killing the designer inside me.
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Let's not forget 50 point STROKE and 'WIN FANTASTIC PRIZES'

I don't wanna acknowledge this bastard son. Sorry.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

OMG. I haven't blogged in a week why? Maybe cos of work and play. Just nice fills up all my time. My Minecraft addiction is making me sleep really late. =( That and sch work and hall activities are taking my post-sch time too. Good Luck Concert coming up soon, for which I have to do decorations. Like I mentioned, previous week had a lot of stuff, and this one is no better.

Work ismanageable but it's like...comfortably packed? Slowly stacking up as I methodically clear it so I still can cope ok. I stayedback this whole weekend to rush out my 9 button models and also attended a friend's b'day on Sun. Today was the presentation.

Other ppl make 3 different series I redid one 3 times. =.= I din know exactly what we wanted. Granted my series is a bit hard too. And in the end he didn't look at ALL of their other models too.

Anyway we're supposed to make a prototype now. Stress. =S I have to try and work with clay cos I think it best expresses the character of my buttons. Anyway after much creative thinking, (ID FTW) I had 3 buttons, 2 of which had functioning mechanisms. Needless to say, I was quite pleased.

Had touch rug training today. Freaking tiring but I guess I can lose weight. Haha. Also hurt my finger. Shit man.