Today is my last day of work at CrimsonLogic. As of tomorrow I will no longer be an employee of CrimsonLogic. No longer chained to a desk, answering calls. No more daily grind. No more commuting. I am not looking for job so I am not unemployed. Hah! Anywa this morning I nearly missed the bus. I wonder what if I add prose into every post I make from now on? Haha.
"...I came out of Harbourfront, and saw the back end of the shuttle bus at the busstop. I cursed, and grabbing my work bag by the handles, I started running towards it. Shoes thumping noisily on the pavement, a constant reminder these shoes were not made for running, I pounded towards the bus.
Glancing up, a little stab of disappointment flashed through me at I realised I couldn't see it. Then I realised a second bus had pulled into the bus bay, obscuring my orange and blue ticket to work. Running into the bus stop, I dodged various other denizens of the rat race, and darted through a gap to see the last two people boarding the bus.
Reaching the door, I clambered aboard and hastily threw my coins in the battered coin slot. Walking towards the back, I thought I had the misfortune to be the only person who needed to stand. I spied a seat at the back. As the other commuters moved aside, I fell into the seat rather abruptly. How unsightly. Strange how my last day of work seems so much like a first day, what with all the near-misses and such."
Managed to get to work on time as usual. Just did my work as usual. Lunch as per normal. Then there was a mini tea party in the pantry, which was really nice as the perm staff bought lots of food for us to eat. At close to 5, went about the whole company to get like 11 signatures in an Amazing Race-esque jaunt about the company.
Later left the office after saying bye to all the perm staff. Went off to Haw Par Villa because I've never been there before. CX, Raymond, Edmund, Edmond, and Galvyn were there also. I led them up a loooong flight of steps to take a peek at what was on top. They thought HPV was up there. Lol. SO I just managed to solve a personal mystery. I always wondered what was up there. It was a nondescript office building.
Went to HPV, spent like 4 mins inside, (It closes at 7) and after some debate, went back to Foodgle Hub at NUS. Ordered bubble tea as I was thirsty. Galvyn got a steak. Sat there and talked and laughed and reminisced over the old times in CL. Was really fun. Later went to take bus 30 back with CX. Had steamboat at home. Pictures tomorrow. Reached home very late.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Went to Wild Wild Wet today with ben, val, and XW. Was quite fun. =D Went on all of the rides. Met them at 1 plus, and entered with the pass my aunt lent me. Admit four only. Tak couldn't make it as she had an appointment on. =[ Anyway we went on basically everything and it was totally fun. =] I love spending time with them.
We like joined hands on the river ride to form this long chain, and managed to form one big ring of 4 floats which was damn funny. =P Just had a great time. Had a KFC break before going to the wave pool. Next time all 5 of us should go together. We HAVE to do it again. I just had a totally awesome time today. Because Ben had to book in, we decided to end earlier, and went to Hei Sushi for dinner(?)
And I forgot to bring a towel. =.= So did ben. Lol. And this morning I was still thinking did I forget anything? I borrowed XW's towel, but it was kinda damp, then I realised something. If I use my bermudas as a fan, I can dry off.
So I just used the towel as best I could and then in the confines of the shower I created an artificial breeze to dry off my lower body, so after I put on my fan/pants, I walked out of the shower to let the sun dry off my upper body. Look School of Art, Design and Media, LOOK! See how creative I am, man! Pick me, yeah! I am like, so creative! I mean, using yours pants as a fan? Wow. And it's pretty efficient, if I may add.
Anyway, I forgot to mention that yesterday morning I woke up at 8am (OMG) just so I could rush down to the bookshop at R'vale Plaza to buy an envelope large enough for my CD. So I asked the staff, and she pointed me to a paper CD sleeve, then to this brown CD-sized envelope that has bubble wrap padding inside(WOW) and on the label it says WATERPROOF.(HOLY CRAP!)
It cost $1, so I bought it. See? I even sprung for a waterproof padded envelope just for YOUR application. I put EFFORT into it, man. EFFORT. Its like so amusing. One brown formal-looking padded waterproof smooth envelope with bubble wrap containing a plastic CD sleeve containing my CD containing my NTU ADM portfolio. There's blood, sweat, tears, AND Money in that thing now. My CD is like immortal now. All it lacks is kevlar padding.
Then I wrote the address, and moved to the next line to see an ugly blue line smudged across the paper. One of the curses of being left-handed. Used a little colourful language to brighten up the blue smudge and went home to print out an address label to stick on the thing. Then my dad said I better put more stamps on the thing. Ugh. So I decided to cycle down now, and then got them to help me weigh and put stamps on the thing.
"...Walking slowly, I reached the area in front of the bike shop. I looked at the mailbox and sighed. Checked my handphone's clock even though I knew it was way before 12pm even. Tried to use the SAM machine to weigh it but I couldn't get it to work. Read information on the price of stamps. People were walking all around me, going about their own lives.
I put the envelope in the slot, but didn't let go. I held on, hesitating. I took it out and looked at my little envelope. Rubbed my thumb across the label. Stared at the address. I looked up at the slot. A little white rectangular flap with "Singapore" above. A schoolgirl walked by on my left with a cup of bubble tea. Should I buy some bubble tea? I wondered.
But I didn't really want to spend money. But I wanted to drink bubble tea. I sighed and turned my mind on the matter at hand. Felt the smooth creamy texture of the envelope against my hand. Not light but not heavy either. It had a certain quality of weight to it, like it held all my hopes and dreams. Intangible, yet possessing a certain sombre quality.
I am putting my hopes and dreams on a boat, a boat that I will send out into the open seas. Will it reach it's destination? Or will it founder in the grey waters just offshore and have the sea claim my dreams as its bounty? I pushed the envelope in halfway.
And hesitated. Felt the envelope a little longer. This is it. All my effort is in this. So much of it. Finally it's all together and near completion. I pushed the envelope in all the way and turned around...and never looked back."
We like joined hands on the river ride to form this long chain, and managed to form one big ring of 4 floats which was damn funny. =P Just had a great time. Had a KFC break before going to the wave pool. Next time all 5 of us should go together. We HAVE to do it again. I just had a totally awesome time today. Because Ben had to book in, we decided to end earlier, and went to Hei Sushi for dinner(?)
And I forgot to bring a towel. =.= So did ben. Lol. And this morning I was still thinking did I forget anything? I borrowed XW's towel, but it was kinda damp, then I realised something. If I use my bermudas as a fan, I can dry off.
So I just used the towel as best I could and then in the confines of the shower I created an artificial breeze to dry off my lower body, so after I put on my fan/pants, I walked out of the shower to let the sun dry off my upper body. Look School of Art, Design and Media, LOOK! See how creative I am, man! Pick me, yeah! I am like, so creative! I mean, using yours pants as a fan? Wow. And it's pretty efficient, if I may add.
Anyway, I forgot to mention that yesterday morning I woke up at 8am (OMG) just so I could rush down to the bookshop at R'vale Plaza to buy an envelope large enough for my CD. So I asked the staff, and she pointed me to a paper CD sleeve, then to this brown CD-sized envelope that has bubble wrap padding inside(WOW) and on the label it says WATERPROOF.(HOLY CRAP!)
It cost $1, so I bought it. See? I even sprung for a waterproof padded envelope just for YOUR application. I put EFFORT into it, man. EFFORT. Its like so amusing. One brown formal-looking padded waterproof smooth envelope with bubble wrap containing a plastic CD sleeve containing my CD containing my NTU ADM portfolio. There's blood, sweat, tears, AND Money in that thing now. My CD is like immortal now. All it lacks is kevlar padding.
Then I wrote the address, and moved to the next line to see an ugly blue line smudged across the paper. One of the curses of being left-handed. Used a little colourful language to brighten up the blue smudge and went home to print out an address label to stick on the thing. Then my dad said I better put more stamps on the thing. Ugh. So I decided to cycle down now, and then got them to help me weigh and put stamps on the thing.
"...Walking slowly, I reached the area in front of the bike shop. I looked at the mailbox and sighed. Checked my handphone's clock even though I knew it was way before 12pm even. Tried to use the SAM machine to weigh it but I couldn't get it to work. Read information on the price of stamps. People were walking all around me, going about their own lives.
I put the envelope in the slot, but didn't let go. I held on, hesitating. I took it out and looked at my little envelope. Rubbed my thumb across the label. Stared at the address. I looked up at the slot. A little white rectangular flap with "Singapore" above. A schoolgirl walked by on my left with a cup of bubble tea. Should I buy some bubble tea? I wondered.
But I didn't really want to spend money. But I wanted to drink bubble tea. I sighed and turned my mind on the matter at hand. Felt the smooth creamy texture of the envelope against my hand. Not light but not heavy either. It had a certain quality of weight to it, like it held all my hopes and dreams. Intangible, yet possessing a certain sombre quality.
I am putting my hopes and dreams on a boat, a boat that I will send out into the open seas. Will it reach it's destination? Or will it founder in the grey waters just offshore and have the sea claim my dreams as its bounty? I pushed the envelope in halfway.
And hesitated. Felt the envelope a little longer. This is it. All my effort is in this. So much of it. Finally it's all together and near completion. I pushed the envelope in all the way and turned around...and never looked back."
Saturday, March 29, 2008
My butt hurts. But not so badly now. Went cycling earlier. Anyway went out to meet Eliza today to get my HP6 book back and lend her my HP7. After that went down to WS from Hg Mall to meet ben, tak, and xw. At WS, we walked to Downtown East to rent bikes. Ben and XW left after 1 hr cos XW had tkd lesson. Cycled with tak to Changi (Saw the SAF ferry terminal. =S) Then from Changi to ECP. Quite a distance. But we made it in 4 hours and 50 mins. Lol. The lady at the bike shop was pretty impressed. She gave us a discount even though we wayyyy overshot 2 hours.
ROute to EPC from Changi was pretty cool. There was this area that was really quiet and beautiful and serene, like some English forest. Note forest, not jungle. Nice. Drank at ECP, and cycled back. Then went home for dinner. I caused tak to crash on the way to ECP cos I was on the outer side of the road and I wanted to speed into the left bend so I just dove in...forgetting tak was not comfortable with people too close in front of her She turned to avoid me then sorta ran into this group of cyclists. And I made her mad. =[
Anyway I did something I never did on a bike before today! I was going back to PR and then I went in front of the bus stop then I realised the ground of the bus stop I was ok ended in an edge/a step off into nothingness. I ordinarily would have stopped/slowed down and gone off the edge, but now I was going too fast to stop safely. As I shot towards the step I just held on and thought to myself: I better pull this off of this is going to be ugly. Foom! Shot off the edge and landed without a hitch. Thank goodness. I just realised I was very lucky it was not a flight of steps.
ROute to EPC from Changi was pretty cool. There was this area that was really quiet and beautiful and serene, like some English forest. Note forest, not jungle. Nice. Drank at ECP, and cycled back. Then went home for dinner. I caused tak to crash on the way to ECP cos I was on the outer side of the road and I wanted to speed into the left bend so I just dove in...forgetting tak was not comfortable with people too close in front of her She turned to avoid me then sorta ran into this group of cyclists. And I made her mad. =[
Anyway I did something I never did on a bike before today! I was going back to PR and then I went in front of the bus stop then I realised the ground of the bus stop I was ok ended in an edge/a step off into nothingness. I ordinarily would have stopped/slowed down and gone off the edge, but now I was going too fast to stop safely. As I shot towards the step I just held on and thought to myself: I better pull this off of this is going to be ugly. Foom! Shot off the edge and landed without a hitch. Thank goodness. I just realised I was very lucky it was not a flight of steps.
Friday, March 28, 2008
I did it. I think. The movie, I mean. After much blood (haha!), sweat (yes indeed, today was friggin' HOT), and tears(?) I think I've got it. Shawn didn't make it after all so I went own to YM's house, wrote my essay, and then got around to doing more scripting. Went out and spent 1 hour plus filming. Experienced the thrill of a 1 take shot, and the failure of multiple takes.
Now all I need is to put it all together and burn it into a CD and drop it off at a mailbox. And I'm quite sleepy and tired. I need a bath. Today was friggin' hot and there we were, running around filming a video.
Now all I need is to put it all together and burn it into a CD and drop it off at a mailbox. And I'm quite sleepy and tired. I need a bath. Today was friggin' hot and there we were, running around filming a video.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
[LATEST UPDATE]
Maybe it's fate. I don't know. As I was going to do the deed, my phone rang. Tak miss-called me. I could have ignored it but I didn't, for some reason. So I called her back. After talking to her, I felt better. I didn't do it as much as I would have. Some consolation.
Thanks for calling.
[QUITE SOME TIME LATER]
I sit awake in the night, German metal pounding from the speakers as I sink the blade in. I harden myself to the sharp cutting (ha-ha! a pun!) pain as it goes in deeper each time. I am becoming used to it.
SINCE WHEN DID I BECOME LIKE THIS?
WHY?!?!?!
Oh, don't worry. It sounds much worse than it actually is. Lol.
[/LATEST UPDATE]
[UPDATE]
Fuck this.
I cannot check the test date for industrial design.
It might clash with the test for ADM.
This means I can only try for ONE.
I have almost no time to do my ADM portfolio.
I MUST do my SMU application today no matter what.
I need to record a video.
I need to burn it.
I got a cameraman.
I got a camera.
I need a burner.
YM has a burner but he free only in morning and night.
I need to mail my portfolio to them before 5pm.
Instead of moral support, all I'm getting from my friends are ways to prove I'm at fault.
Look, I ALREADY know I am partially responsible.
Enough with the reasoning ok?
I get it.
I have reasons why I can't make it.
BUT I also admit that I did not take ALL the chances I could have.
BUT I did make use of most of them.
The least I ask for is some words of encouragement during this difficult period.
I'm not 3 yrs old.
I know what's the situation.
Never mind.
(I'm not criticising the things my friends have told me. I see your logic. But I know what's going on, so you're just telling me what I know.)
I may have a plan.
You know what? I might as well go and kill myself now and be rid of all of this. Haha. Nah. Not after I put so much effort in. I'm gonna go cut myself or something. Yeah, that'll do. Oops, did I say cut? I mean take part in an activity of creative expression. Surely I have the freedom to express myself creatively? Ha-ha.
Don't bother calling or SMSing me. I'll just enjoy my cheerful Patapon ringtones. Yup. I'm going to go cut myself if I'm still in the mood after I finish applying for SMU. I may answer your call. Or NOT. Haha!
I CAN READ MY BLOG THANK GOODNESS! BUt this does not rule out the possibility of me performing self-mutilation later, so THERE.
[/UPDATE]
ARGH FUCK THIS IS FUCKING IRRITATING. NUS site is totally bullshit. I know I'm applying there but dammit their site totally sucks. It only leads me in a DUMB LOOP and IT IS OF ABSOLUTELY NO HELP AT ALL. Tak also says that she went in a loop like 5 times and had to click everywhere to find the application link so I'm not the only one. NUS, here's a hint: GET A SOBER WEBSITE DESIGNER OKAY?
I still can't find the test date for school of DE. (Lousy NUS site...)And I also realised that my ADM portfolio is due on 1 APRIL, and besides, I had a stomachache today so I will probably take leave tomorrow and use the opportunity to do my portfolio.
And what's worse, the fucking geniuses at Google have BLOCKED ME FROM SEEING MY OWN BLOG. WOW. THANKS A LOT FUCKTARDS. I can't view my friend's blogs too. Here's the funny thing. I can blog, but I can't see my own blog. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS? They blocked my entire fucking network. FUCK. GREAT. THIS IS DOING WONDERS FOR MY MOOD.
Like I need more stress.
Maybe it's fate. I don't know. As I was going to do the deed, my phone rang. Tak miss-called me. I could have ignored it but I didn't, for some reason. So I called her back. After talking to her, I felt better. I didn't do it as much as I would have. Some consolation.
Thanks for calling.
[QUITE SOME TIME LATER]
I sit awake in the night, German metal pounding from the speakers as I sink the blade in. I harden myself to the sharp cutting (ha-ha! a pun!) pain as it goes in deeper each time. I am becoming used to it.
SINCE WHEN DID I BECOME LIKE THIS?
WHY?!?!?!
Oh, don't worry. It sounds much worse than it actually is. Lol.
[/LATEST UPDATE]
[UPDATE]
Fuck this.
I cannot check the test date for industrial design.
It might clash with the test for ADM.
This means I can only try for ONE.
I have almost no time to do my ADM portfolio.
I MUST do my SMU application today no matter what.
I need to record a video.
I need to burn it.
I got a cameraman.
I got a camera.
I need a burner.
YM has a burner but he free only in morning and night.
I need to mail my portfolio to them before 5pm.
Instead of moral support, all I'm getting from my friends are ways to prove I'm at fault.
Look, I ALREADY know I am partially responsible.
Enough with the reasoning ok?
I get it.
I have reasons why I can't make it.
BUT I also admit that I did not take ALL the chances I could have.
BUT I did make use of most of them.
The least I ask for is some words of encouragement during this difficult period.
I'm not 3 yrs old.
I know what's the situation.
Never mind.
(I'm not criticising the things my friends have told me. I see your logic. But I know what's going on, so you're just telling me what I know.)
I may have a plan.
You know what? I might as well go and kill myself now and be rid of all of this. Haha. Nah. Not after I put so much effort in. I'm gonna go cut myself or something. Yeah, that'll do. Oops, did I say cut? I mean take part in an activity of creative expression. Surely I have the freedom to express myself creatively? Ha-ha.
Don't bother calling or SMSing me. I'll just enjoy my cheerful Patapon ringtones. Yup. I'm going to go cut myself if I'm still in the mood after I finish applying for SMU. I may answer your call. Or NOT. Haha!
I CAN READ MY BLOG THANK GOODNESS! BUt this does not rule out the possibility of me performing self-mutilation later, so THERE.
[/UPDATE]
ARGH FUCK THIS IS FUCKING IRRITATING. NUS site is totally bullshit. I know I'm applying there but dammit their site totally sucks. It only leads me in a DUMB LOOP and IT IS OF ABSOLUTELY NO HELP AT ALL. Tak also says that she went in a loop like 5 times and had to click everywhere to find the application link so I'm not the only one. NUS, here's a hint: GET A SOBER WEBSITE DESIGNER OKAY?
I still can't find the test date for school of DE. (Lousy NUS site...)And I also realised that my ADM portfolio is due on 1 APRIL, and besides, I had a stomachache today so I will probably take leave tomorrow and use the opportunity to do my portfolio.
And what's worse, the fucking geniuses at Google have BLOCKED ME FROM SEEING MY OWN BLOG. WOW. THANKS A LOT FUCKTARDS. I can't view my friend's blogs too. Here's the funny thing. I can blog, but I can't see my own blog. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS? They blocked my entire fucking network. FUCK. GREAT. THIS IS DOING WONDERS FOR MY MOOD.
Like I need more stress.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
[UPDATE]
Hmm. Back at home. Shawn YM and SW invited me to go watch Semi Pro. Spend money again. =[was ok though. Just enough of a plot to keep things going with loads of humor, a pure entertainment movie.
I've my SMU application and IDA application to do and my AMD portfolio omg. =\
[/UPDATE]
OMG AHHH HELP THERE'S A FIRE IN CRIMSONLOGIC AND I'M GOING TO DIE INSIDE I CAN'T ESCAPE OH GAWD NO HELP PLEASE SOMEONE SEND HELP I CANT LEAVE I MUST SERVE MY CUSTOMERS TILL I DIE PLEASE NO DON'T LEAVE ME HERE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGbjfh m
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That was a fire drill. And I've been tasked to stay inside and handle calls. So in the event a fire starts I probably can only run around screaming in circles aflame till I die because I don't know the way out. I can't die like that, you know. I've only got 4 more days to work here. I suppose that means I'm expendable.
Uhh...the ringing stopped. Good. It's annoying. Singpass queue 2. Lol. URGH. Sometimes working here here is so ANNOYING. This user say she declaring permit get invalid CR no den I ask my boss how den she ask if can check CR no den my boss just say this section on the web page but i go there i cant find it so he comes over and i say she using tradenet declaring den he ask me check is it tradenet vendor or tradexchange tradenet but the thing is i CHECK ALREADY LAH and then she keeps asking me if i can chk the validiity of the CR no. but my boss nv even tell me how to search for it and he goes back to his seat so i just ask her to chk with her bloody vendor.
Hmm. Back at home. Shawn YM and SW invited me to go watch Semi Pro. Spend money again. =[was ok though. Just enough of a plot to keep things going with loads of humor, a pure entertainment movie.
I've my SMU application and IDA application to do and my AMD portfolio omg. =\
[/UPDATE]
OMG AHHH HELP THERE'S A FIRE IN CRIMSONLOGIC AND I'M GOING TO DIE INSIDE I CAN'T ESCAPE OH GAWD NO HELP PLEASE SOMEONE SEND HELP I CANT LEAVE I MUST SERVE MY CUSTOMERS TILL I DIE PLEASE NO DON'T LEAVE ME HERE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGbjfh m
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That was a fire drill. And I've been tasked to stay inside and handle calls. So in the event a fire starts I probably can only run around screaming in circles aflame till I die because I don't know the way out. I can't die like that, you know. I've only got 4 more days to work here. I suppose that means I'm expendable.
Uhh...the ringing stopped. Good. It's annoying. Singpass queue 2. Lol. URGH. Sometimes working here here is so ANNOYING. This user say she declaring permit get invalid CR no den I ask my boss how den she ask if can check CR no den my boss just say this section on the web page but i go there i cant find it so he comes over and i say she using tradenet declaring den he ask me check is it tradenet vendor or tradexchange tradenet but the thing is i CHECK ALREADY LAH and then she keeps asking me if i can chk the validiity of the CR no. but my boss nv even tell me how to search for it and he goes back to his seat so i just ask her to chk with her bloody vendor.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
The inspiration for this blogskin came one night. lol. And I have 5 more days of work. Uhh...bored. I gotta go home do my uni stuf. Sigh.
[UPDATE]
As if it's not enough, you spend the whole day at work only to come home and write lots of essays and fill in lots of fields and message lots of people asking about lots of things and call lots of people to talk about lots of things and dig through lots of files and envelopes to get lots of papers to find out lots of details to fill in the lots of fields for you to submit 2 uni applications. Sigh.
Just now I was paplying for NUS and realised I needed a PIN. OMG. Couldn't find. My dad actually stuck the darned envelope in a stack of other envelopes. Thank goodness I found it or I'd have to go down to get one. =.= WOrse than Singpass can? Can't even use reset counter.
Anyway, applied for Indust. Design. and FASS in NUS. NTU, also applied for, scholarship 80% done. Sigh. A whole lotta crap needed. =.= Left SMU, IDA, NTU scholarship, and ADM portfolio. ADM portfolio isk illing me. Sigh. Headache. =[
It's just os rushed, you know. Completing so much stuff in 2 weeks, plus I got work. And I wanna take it slow because I don't wanna rush into this.
[UPDATE]
[UPDATE]
As if it's not enough, you spend the whole day at work only to come home and write lots of essays and fill in lots of fields and message lots of people asking about lots of things and call lots of people to talk about lots of things and dig through lots of files and envelopes to get lots of papers to find out lots of details to fill in the lots of fields for you to submit 2 uni applications. Sigh.
Just now I was paplying for NUS and realised I needed a PIN. OMG. Couldn't find. My dad actually stuck the darned envelope in a stack of other envelopes. Thank goodness I found it or I'd have to go down to get one. =.= WOrse than Singpass can? Can't even use reset counter.
Anyway, applied for Indust. Design. and FASS in NUS. NTU, also applied for, scholarship 80% done. Sigh. A whole lotta crap needed. =.= Left SMU, IDA, NTU scholarship, and ADM portfolio. ADM portfolio isk illing me. Sigh. Headache. =[
It's just os rushed, you know. Completing so much stuff in 2 weeks, plus I got work. And I wanna take it slow because I don't wanna rush into this.
[UPDATE]
Monday, March 24, 2008
[UPDATE]
Back home and the fact that I have to do my uni apps just slammed me like a speeding bus. Crap. Then I saw an email stating that the National Infocomm scholarsihp deadline has been extended. Hopefully that's good. And I gotta submit my AMD portfolio OMG I have 7 days left. Sighs.
On a side note, I completed the desert mission at a grievous cost of 12 Patapons, becuase I failed to link a 2nd rain miracle. I request a minute of silence for all the valiant Tatepon and Yaripon that gave their lives to ensure our entire army got through the desert. At the end of it all, only my Mofeel Tatepon, Hatapon, and my Yumipon survived. After that I resurrected all my lost Patapon at Mater, the tree of life, so YAY!
"DON!-DONDON!-DONDON!"
-Patapon Miracle Summoning beat
I get a kick out of doing the rain miracle. =]
[/UPDATE]
Quite a lot of calls earlier. But ok now. Yeah. Oh yeah, my house phone was getting buggy so my mum got a twin set of Philips phones. Now my phone's in the kitchen, the house phone is new, and mine is new too. I got speakerphone! Conferencing is so much easier. Plus it looks really nice, and matches with the whiteboard on my desk. And I'm hunnngry. And I can't wait to get started on my new blogskin. Haha!
AAAH SO MANY CALLS. Irritating. =.= They keep coming non-stop, don't even have time to log my cases. Go irritated so I diverted all my calls and took my time to log everything. Damn.
Back home and the fact that I have to do my uni apps just slammed me like a speeding bus. Crap. Then I saw an email stating that the National Infocomm scholarsihp deadline has been extended. Hopefully that's good. And I gotta submit my AMD portfolio OMG I have 7 days left. Sighs.
On a side note, I completed the desert mission at a grievous cost of 12 Patapons, becuase I failed to link a 2nd rain miracle. I request a minute of silence for all the valiant Tatepon and Yaripon that gave their lives to ensure our entire army got through the desert. At the end of it all, only my Mofeel Tatepon, Hatapon, and my Yumipon survived. After that I resurrected all my lost Patapon at Mater, the tree of life, so YAY!
-Patapon Miracle Summoning beat
I get a kick out of doing the rain miracle. =]
[/UPDATE]
Quite a lot of calls earlier. But ok now. Yeah. Oh yeah, my house phone was getting buggy so my mum got a twin set of Philips phones. Now my phone's in the kitchen, the house phone is new, and mine is new too. I got speakerphone! Conferencing is so much easier. Plus it looks really nice, and matches with the whiteboard on my desk. And I'm hunnngry. And I can't wait to get started on my new blogskin. Haha!
AAAH SO MANY CALLS. Irritating. =.= They keep coming non-stop, don't even have time to log my cases. Go irritated so I diverted all my calls and took my time to log everything. Damn.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Revelations, indeed as tak said. Anyway, woke up today and wlaked to tak's house, then to Kovan MRT, then off on Operation Tome Raider. After that, went to Expo to wait for Eliza. lunch was a 7-11 mashed potato and Super Big Gulp. Hung about for quite a while, got 8 books for $40. I got Jane Austen's Pride & Prejudice and Sense & Sensibility 2-in-1 hardcover for $15.
After that had dinner at Hg mall with my parents. The desert stage in Patapon is killing me. =[ Anyway, now my main priority is uni apps! Argh. =[ Tomorrow then. I'm waiting for NS so that when I get my pay for March, I won't squander it because there is nothing to spend it on. Lol! When I come out I'll be hot and rich. (righttt...) And I'm comtemplating a new blogskin. Hehs.
After that had dinner at Hg mall with my parents. The desert stage in Patapon is killing me. =[ Anyway, now my main priority is uni apps! Argh. =[ Tomorrow then. I'm waiting for NS so that when I get my pay for March, I won't squander it because there is nothing to spend it on. Lol! When I come out I'll be hot and rich. (righttt...) And I'm comtemplating a new blogskin. Hehs.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Today at work was as usual. Handled a few calls. Played Patapon a little. Thanksfully the few calls that came didn't come when I was fighting. Lol. Came home, had lunch, now filling out some scholarship application before going down to YM's house. Oh, Operation Tome Raider is go!
[Quite some time later]
Hey. Now at YM's house. Haha. Brought my laptop. Just now connected it and Shawn's lappy to the wifi network and created a makeshift LAN shop. Had awesome fun playing Gunbound. Very cool. However, my com is pretty crappy cos I can't play it now due to some unknown error that keeps recurring. Zzz. Now there's no one to talk to on MSN.
Sixu playing Crysis which is another cool game, and maybe if I get ben to help me build a great com I can borrow it. YM and Shawn still GBing. Siwei went to the otilet, was watching Crysis. Staying over till tomorrow. Meeting tak at 1200 hrs tomorrow for commencement of phase one of Operation Tome Raider. Reconnaissance of the LZ(Landing Zone) first before insertion of specialised shock troops to neutralise any enemy resistance, before calling in rail support for reinforcements.
After that, a convert journey through hostile territory to the mountain cave of the final boss, and our primary objective. I expect it to be interesting. Oh wait! I can GB now! Yay! Lol.
[Quite some time later]
Hey. Now at YM's house. Haha. Brought my laptop. Just now connected it and Shawn's lappy to the wifi network and created a makeshift LAN shop. Had awesome fun playing Gunbound. Very cool. However, my com is pretty crappy cos I can't play it now due to some unknown error that keeps recurring. Zzz. Now there's no one to talk to on MSN.
Sixu playing Crysis which is another cool game, and maybe if I get ben to help me build a great com I can borrow it. YM and Shawn still GBing. Siwei went to the otilet, was watching Crysis. Staying over till tomorrow. Meeting tak at 1200 hrs tomorrow for commencement of phase one of Operation Tome Raider. Reconnaissance of the LZ(Landing Zone) first before insertion of specialised shock troops to neutralise any enemy resistance, before calling in rail support for reinforcements.
After that, a convert journey through hostile territory to the mountain cave of the final boss, and our primary objective. I expect it to be interesting. Oh wait! I can GB now! Yay! Lol.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Uhh...back at home now. Spent the morning watching TV after sleeping in. Ah...so good. Much needed rest. After TV, logged on the com for a while before left for Compass Point to get my NS specs. My sis was looking for white converse shoes for school. Like wth? School only...I daresay she won't even wear them out. =.=
Afterward went to Ikea to meet my dad, who was treating us to dinner. Was quite ok. Later went to Courts to look at tech stuff, and then to Giant. Read the basic driving book while they bought stuff. Hmm...should be easy to mug. Hehs. It's pretty interesting. I just need to practise on Burnout, oops, I mean Project Gotham. Can't use a game that rewards violence on the roads...but damn it's fun! =P
After that just went home. Tomorrow got work, afterwards gotta do some essay writing if I have time and then probably staying over at YM's house. Oh! I met the twins on 27 today. Like wth, what a coincidence! I just met them ytd, and today, on the same bus too! It's pretty amazing.
Mmm...the bass on the hts(home theatre system) is good. I can feel it in my room. =] Anyway, after YM's house I think may be meeting the rest for Operation Tome Raider, then later to meet Eliza for the book expo. (omgyay!!!) I think I might do a Val and overbook myself. =X
Afterward went to Ikea to meet my dad, who was treating us to dinner. Was quite ok. Later went to Courts to look at tech stuff, and then to Giant. Read the basic driving book while they bought stuff. Hmm...should be easy to mug. Hehs. It's pretty interesting. I just need to practise on Burnout, oops, I mean Project Gotham. Can't use a game that rewards violence on the roads...but damn it's fun! =P
After that just went home. Tomorrow got work, afterwards gotta do some essay writing if I have time and then probably staying over at YM's house. Oh! I met the twins on 27 today. Like wth, what a coincidence! I just met them ytd, and today, on the same bus too! It's pretty amazing.
Mmm...the bass on the hts(home theatre system) is good. I can feel it in my room. =] Anyway, after YM's house I think may be meeting the rest for Operation Tome Raider, then later to meet Eliza for the book expo. (omgyay!!!) I think I might do a Val and overbook myself. =X
Thursday, March 20, 2008
[UPDATE]
A little sleepy and bored. Still, I cannot wait to mess with the 5.1 home theatre system that's arriving today. Cool! =P Uh...I played games from the great site val gave me but I got bored...the games aren't awesome enough. =.= Msged one of my colleagues, msn, emailed...
Oh did I mention this girl at NUS asked for my name the other day because she knows my colleague, and I always buy drinks from her stall. ^^ Then I realised that my other colleague has her MSN. T_T What a disappointment. And i'm only working here one more week. How sad. =[ Lol.
AUGH I GOING TO VOMIT BLOOD FROM THIS BLOODY (pun not intended) USER. Can't really speak properly, has to tell me some cock-and-bull cockamamie grandfather grand mother long time ago in a southern province of China story about his permit declaration with some shitty problem that most likely lies with his vendor's software.
[/UPDATE]
Today is the start of a 3 day weekend! Aren't you glad we live in such a multiracial country? Heheh. =P Yest went to meet my mum to Carrefour to look at a 5.1 home theatre system selling at only $99. We got it. Just nice I had to meet my mum and it turns out tak was going out with her friends to, so we can even agree not to meet. =D
After that, had dinner and went home. Did some stuff to my essays. Shawn asked me about STB application, and took a look. Gone. Boy, was he upset. But he found one STB with NTU. I was afraid I'd miss the deadline so I quickly submitted mine. Only IDA and SPH left.
And my uni application. Patapon is immense fun. The only problem is that now I can't play my other games. Sth wrong with my PSP firmware. =[ I will try to upgrade to 3.90 m33-2 some other time and hope all runs well. Meeting the guys later for some concert. I can get back the money they owe me. =]
A little sleepy and bored. Still, I cannot wait to mess with the 5.1 home theatre system that's arriving today. Cool! =P Uh...I played games from the great site val gave me but I got bored...the games aren't awesome enough. =.= Msged one of my colleagues, msn, emailed...
Oh did I mention this girl at NUS asked for my name the other day because she knows my colleague, and I always buy drinks from her stall. ^^ Then I realised that my other colleague has her MSN. T_T What a disappointment. And i'm only working here one more week. How sad. =[ Lol.
AUGH I GOING TO VOMIT BLOOD FROM THIS BLOODY (pun not intended) USER. Can't really speak properly, has to tell me some cock-and-bull cockamamie grandfather grand mother long time ago in a southern province of China story about his permit declaration with some shitty problem that most likely lies with his vendor's software.
[/UPDATE]
Today is the start of a 3 day weekend! Aren't you glad we live in such a multiracial country? Heheh. =P Yest went to meet my mum to Carrefour to look at a 5.1 home theatre system selling at only $99. We got it. Just nice I had to meet my mum and it turns out tak was going out with her friends to, so we can even agree not to meet. =D
After that, had dinner and went home. Did some stuff to my essays. Shawn asked me about STB application, and took a look. Gone. Boy, was he upset. But he found one STB with NTU. I was afraid I'd miss the deadline so I quickly submitted mine. Only IDA and SPH left.
And my uni application. Patapon is immense fun. The only problem is that now I can't play my other games. Sth wrong with my PSP firmware. =[ I will try to upgrade to 3.90 m33-2 some other time and hope all runs well. Meeting the guys later for some concert. I can get back the money they owe me. =]
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Ah work today is ok for now. =] Hehs. Yest, went to meet tak after work and went to meet ben and XW at dhoby. Found them at Starbucks.While waiting for val we engaged in a group activity known as communal gaming. Ben was killing bad people in Call of duty 4, I was killing Kacheeks in Patapon, Xiwen was watching and tried later on, and tak was concerned with not letting her kirby get killed through death by squishing.
We tried to find a cinema and time that could accomodate us, and walked to cine. Watched the 7:45 show. 10,000BC is...ok. Like Patapon:The Movie. Lol. But then most of you wouldn't know Patapon is, but if you did, you'd se why i say so. Lol. But the graphics were excellent, though that is almost a null statement, considering movies today.
Nevertheless I did enjoy myslf, and I thus theorised that historically, the primary way of killing big nasty monsters is to squeeze yourself in a small space and jab your spear dramatically intro the monster's mouth as it lunges for you as evidenced in 300 and 10,00B0C.
Went to the arcade for a while, which was quite deserted at it was 10PM on Tues night. Watched ben play DDR for a while, then left with tak. Saw Y on the train. Long-termuser readers (Readers not users! =.=) may recall an old post about a certain X and Y. This Y is the same as that Y.
Went home tired, fell asleep. Tak was in a bad mood from stuff at work. =[
We tried to find a cinema and time that could accomodate us, and walked to cine. Watched the 7:45 show. 10,000BC is...ok. Like Patapon:The Movie. Lol. But then most of you wouldn't know Patapon is, but if you did, you'd se why i say so. Lol. But the graphics were excellent, though that is almost a null statement, considering movies today.
Nevertheless I did enjoy myslf, and I thus theorised that historically, the primary way of killing big nasty monsters is to squeeze yourself in a small space and jab your spear dramatically intro the monster's mouth as it lunges for you as evidenced in 300 and 10,00B0C.
Went to the arcade for a while, which was quite deserted at it was 10PM on Tues night. Watched ben play DDR for a while, then left with tak. Saw Y on the train. Long-term
Went home tired, fell asleep. Tak was in a bad mood from stuff at work. =[
Monday, March 17, 2008
I am in some deep shit. I have to finish one of my essays before 23:59 tonight because today is the deadline and I haven't done it over the weekend and I gotta work today. Crap. Didn't really feel like going to work today. Anyway I don't even know why I bother. It's not like I am that great.
Anyway, yest went to NUS with tak. It was quite nice. Went around the campus on tour, saw the halls. I definitely wouldn't mind staying there. Very informative. Only 3 courses I'm interested in though. Lol. I hope I can get some success. We were very tired by the end of it all.
Went to Vivo where tak had her kimchi ramen, and she went home while I went to join my friends. YM, Shawn, and the twins. Went around to the stores. Shawn said he felt rich and bought a $249 jacket from Zara. He still owes me $120. Or maybe more. I can't really remember.
After that he said he felt poor when he came out of the store. =.= Next, we went around to look for some place to have dinner. Settled on Go India! for our meal. The food, was , surprisingly quite good.
But then again, since my experience with Indian food consists of nothing more complicated than prata or murtabak, it's not that hard to surprise me here. I ordered the Black Pepper Coconut Mutton, and was orgiinally apprehensive about it because I'm not a fan of coconut, but it turned out to be pretty good.
Later, went to watch Rule #1 which was some scary stuff. Very nice. I wasn't that scared (maybe I expected a LOT more), but it was pretty darn good and pretty scary at that. They even managed to place 2 twists in the plot, which were quite decent.
After that, went home to take a bath and then just went to sleep after one whole day traipsing around. And I can even go to NUS for lunch AGAIN today. lol. Anyway I woke up today feeling quite crappy and tired, so I dunno what I'm gonna do with my essay. Pah. Why do I even bother huh?
PS. I am feeling really very tired and crappy and in a bad mood today, so...yeah. Sigh.
[Some time later]
SHIT I definitely need my sleep. While typing away away just now I saw the disembodied first joint of an index finger floating in the air in front of my face. I recoiled back in shock to have to vision disappear and I notced that it was just the reflection of my fingers in the mirror on my desk.
How my brain pulled the reflection of my fingers into the air in front of my face is beyond me. Was that a hallucination? Lol.
Anyway, yest went to NUS with tak. It was quite nice. Went around the campus on tour, saw the halls. I definitely wouldn't mind staying there. Very informative. Only 3 courses I'm interested in though. Lol. I hope I can get some success. We were very tired by the end of it all.
Went to Vivo where tak had her kimchi ramen, and she went home while I went to join my friends. YM, Shawn, and the twins. Went around to the stores. Shawn said he felt rich and bought a $249 jacket from Zara. He still owes me $120. Or maybe more. I can't really remember.
After that he said he felt poor when he came out of the store. =.= Next, we went around to look for some place to have dinner. Settled on Go India! for our meal. The food, was , surprisingly quite good.
But then again, since my experience with Indian food consists of nothing more complicated than prata or murtabak, it's not that hard to surprise me here. I ordered the Black Pepper Coconut Mutton, and was orgiinally apprehensive about it because I'm not a fan of coconut, but it turned out to be pretty good.
Later, went to watch Rule #1 which was some scary stuff. Very nice. I wasn't that scared (maybe I expected a LOT more), but it was pretty darn good and pretty scary at that. They even managed to place 2 twists in the plot, which were quite decent.
After that, went home to take a bath and then just went to sleep after one whole day traipsing around. And I can even go to NUS for lunch AGAIN today. lol. Anyway I woke up today feeling quite crappy and tired, so I dunno what I'm gonna do with my essay. Pah. Why do I even bother huh?
PS. I am feeling really very tired and crappy and in a bad mood today, so...yeah. Sigh.
[Some time later]
SHIT I definitely need my sleep. While typing away away just now I saw the disembodied first joint of an index finger floating in the air in front of my face. I recoiled back in shock to have to vision disappear and I notced that it was just the reflection of my fingers in the mirror on my desk.
How my brain pulled the reflection of my fingers into the air in front of my face is beyond me. Was that a hallucination? Lol.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Today I just woke up to hear my mum at my door. She started speaking and I stared groggily at her. A few seconds later ears.exe turned on and started running. I hear something about my aunt saying something about today's Straits Times. Something about this year having a lot of poly grads and stuff about uni places.
Thanks but I DO NOT need to hear such stuff when I have JUST woken up and particularly not when I am not Mr. Sunshine right at that moment. Annoyed, I muttered some stuff about buying the newspaper if she wanted and turned back to sleep with a groan.
Some times later I woke up, and got out of bed. She told me she left the paper on the coffee table. Had my breakfast and went to get the paper. Opened it and starting reading. Well, frankly it was pretty depressing. I had a vision of me going to my room sitting there, taking out the penknife I keep in my drawer for emergencies,(Ha-ha! Emergencies!) and giving myself another mouth.
In effect, slitting my throat from ear to ear in a long arc that follows the curve underneath my chin. Like a shave but with the wrong blade. A curtain of blood would gracefully roll from the incision in one sheet turning my neck red and the life would bleed out of me. The reality would be much less glamorous, but then I did watch Sweeney Todd. Haha.
It would all be very quiet and calculated. Calmly and serenely I'd walk to my room in a composed manner and take my life without fuss. Or I could perform seppuku but I do not think I would have the composure to complete the ceremony with the proper dignity it deserves. I do in fact have a 14cm long replica of a Katana, which might replace the tanto, but I lack a kaishakunin which could be problematic. As you see, I have read up on the subject.
Back to my paper, I finished the main section and came to the Home section with a rather amusing graphic on the uni squeeze. Amusing to the extent that when I saw it, I let out a sound of disgust and tossed the paper on the table with a rush of intese dislike and hatred, in anticipation of the contents. Nevertheless, I went through the whole thing and it effectively ruined my whole day. So much for planning to do my essays eh?
By the time I was done with the whole paper it was time to bathe and go out. Went out to meet Shawn and YM first to watch Horton. It was a pretty nice show and it helped me forget my thought for a while. Met the rest at YCK MRT, and took bus 70 to Miss Neo's house. Sat around, chatted, met old friends, ate. All in all, not too bad. It went better than we expected. Everyone left later and reached home at past 11.
Do you know that when Ihave suicidal tendencies no, it's not so bad, more of like, imagine a suicide, I do it dead seriously. (ha-ha! a pun!) In the earlier one, I would turn the aircon down to the max, close and lock the door, sit in my chair, and take my life. At around 2.50pm, shawn might try calling me to ask where I was, but I won't pick up.
He will call a few times, then he might call YM. YM will ask him to come down first but to keep calling me. At some time, they might try to call my home. Then my mum will pick up and knock on my door. But I won't answer.
She call out to me loudly, but I won't answer. She will knock on the door, but I won't answer. She gets increasingly worried. She tries the door to find it is locked. Anxiously, she hurries to the cupboard next to the main comp to get the bag with all the house keys. She finds mine and opens it. And screams. She rushes to my side and calls out to me. But I won't answer.
My sister will come to see what the commotion is about. And she will freak. Some time later, my mum will call the ambulance. But it's too late. The proper administrative matters will be done. Maybe I'll appear in the New Paper. Maybe even the Straits Times. This will spark off a debate about the education system for a while, but it will die down in time. And NOTHING WILL BE CHANGED. People will call me stupid. People will pity me and call for reforms. But it won't matter. It doesn't matter at all to them. To them, you're useless without paper qualifications.
There will be a funeral at the multi-purpose hall where all the funerals are always held. I don't know how my friends will be informed. My mum knows OF my friends, but not how to contact them. My friends may suspect something when I don't contact them. Maybe tak will call my phone to ask about tomorrow's visit to NUS, but someone else will pick up. You are? Oh. I'm sorry to tell you this...but he killed himself a few hours ago.
They will come I guess, somehow the news will get out. They will think, why was I so stupid? So foolish? Tears will flow, but it will all be too late.
My imagination is, like, awesome.
Thanks but I DO NOT need to hear such stuff when I have JUST woken up and particularly not when I am not Mr. Sunshine right at that moment. Annoyed, I muttered some stuff about buying the newspaper if she wanted and turned back to sleep with a groan.
Some times later I woke up, and got out of bed. She told me she left the paper on the coffee table. Had my breakfast and went to get the paper. Opened it and starting reading. Well, frankly it was pretty depressing. I had a vision of me going to my room sitting there, taking out the penknife I keep in my drawer for emergencies,(Ha-ha! Emergencies!) and giving myself another mouth.
In effect, slitting my throat from ear to ear in a long arc that follows the curve underneath my chin. Like a shave but with the wrong blade. A curtain of blood would gracefully roll from the incision in one sheet turning my neck red and the life would bleed out of me. The reality would be much less glamorous, but then I did watch Sweeney Todd. Haha.
It would all be very quiet and calculated. Calmly and serenely I'd walk to my room in a composed manner and take my life without fuss. Or I could perform seppuku but I do not think I would have the composure to complete the ceremony with the proper dignity it deserves. I do in fact have a 14cm long replica of a Katana, which might replace the tanto, but I lack a kaishakunin which could be problematic. As you see, I have read up on the subject.
Back to my paper, I finished the main section and came to the Home section with a rather amusing graphic on the uni squeeze. Amusing to the extent that when I saw it, I let out a sound of disgust and tossed the paper on the table with a rush of intese dislike and hatred, in anticipation of the contents. Nevertheless, I went through the whole thing and it effectively ruined my whole day. So much for planning to do my essays eh?
By the time I was done with the whole paper it was time to bathe and go out. Went out to meet Shawn and YM first to watch Horton. It was a pretty nice show and it helped me forget my thought for a while. Met the rest at YCK MRT, and took bus 70 to Miss Neo's house. Sat around, chatted, met old friends, ate. All in all, not too bad. It went better than we expected. Everyone left later and reached home at past 11.
Do you know that when I
He will call a few times, then he might call YM. YM will ask him to come down first but to keep calling me. At some time, they might try to call my home. Then my mum will pick up and knock on my door. But I won't answer.
She call out to me loudly, but I won't answer. She will knock on the door, but I won't answer. She gets increasingly worried. She tries the door to find it is locked. Anxiously, she hurries to the cupboard next to the main comp to get the bag with all the house keys. She finds mine and opens it. And screams. She rushes to my side and calls out to me. But I won't answer.
My sister will come to see what the commotion is about. And she will freak. Some time later, my mum will call the ambulance. But it's too late. The proper administrative matters will be done. Maybe I'll appear in the New Paper. Maybe even the Straits Times. This will spark off a debate about the education system for a while, but it will die down in time. And NOTHING WILL BE CHANGED. People will call me stupid. People will pity me and call for reforms. But it won't matter. It doesn't matter at all to them. To them, you're useless without paper qualifications.
There will be a funeral at the multi-purpose hall where all the funerals are always held. I don't know how my friends will be informed. My mum knows OF my friends, but not how to contact them. My friends may suspect something when I don't contact them. Maybe tak will call my phone to ask about tomorrow's visit to NUS, but someone else will pick up. You are? Oh. I'm sorry to tell you this...but he killed himself a few hours ago.
They will come I guess, somehow the news will get out. They will think, why was I so stupid? So foolish? Tears will flow, but it will all be too late.
My imagination is, like, awesome.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Today at work is ok. Meeting the rest for dinner later. YAY! =D I just went zi high at work. Lol. It's damn funny. At my new seat, if you talk loud enough in the correct direction, you hear a clear echo of your voice coming back and the cool thing is, only YOU can hear it. IT'S SO FUN! Don't worry I'm not crazy yet. =P
[Quite some time later]
After work, went to cine to meet the girls. Gee that sounds kinda weird. Lol! anyways, went to Pastamania for dinner, then the girls went and dragged me to go shopping...@_@ Lol. I just patiently followed them everywhere and watched them blow their cash. but hey, who am I to speak when I just spent $150 the other day? Heh heh.
Came home pretty tired. Tak was cranky on the way back...get more sleep ya? Haha. I still want to watch The Leap Years. =[ Anyway, I'm off to sleep le...I have stuff to think about.
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Namely, what tak said. Guys above mid-teens usually have the maturity of girls 7 years younger. Which makes me what? 12? She says I'm average, I'm not that bad, but still...why must I be average? Why can't I be better? Why can't I improve myself? Of all the things people can say about me, maturity often hits a sore spot. I know that I am not THAT bad, but still, I get pretty affected by it for some reason. Don't let this stop you, of course. When you see me behaving inappropriately, do not hesitate to let me know. Because I don't like it. And yet at times I forget. I think maybe it is the humorous part of me that causes it. It rears its head in unexpected ways. I must stop behaving stupidly. Don't make people laugh so much. Be more serious here. I hate myself. Why can't I be more mature? I must change myself. I have been trying to do so but so far it seems I have not succeeded. I am highly disappointed in myself. I know I have been through a lot of hurt but I cannot just use humor all the time. There comes a times when it all has to stop. Goodbye old me(?)
That's all, folks.
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"-shawn ` says (11:29 PM):
hah
tml u going to gathering also right
i sense a "hows ur result" day coming
lol
-=[K]=- "Live briefly but gloriously, one's evanescent life is but a preparation for death." says (11:34 PM):
OH FUCK
you're right"
[Quite some time later]
After work, went to cine to meet the girls. Gee that sounds kinda weird. Lol! anyways, went to Pastamania for dinner, then the girls went and dragged me to go shopping...@_@ Lol. I just patiently followed them everywhere and watched them blow their cash. but hey, who am I to speak when I just spent $150 the other day? Heh heh.
Came home pretty tired. Tak was cranky on the way back...get more sleep ya? Haha. I still want to watch The Leap Years. =[ Anyway, I'm off to sleep le...I have stuff to think about.
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Namely, what tak said. Guys above mid-teens usually have the maturity of girls 7 years younger. Which makes me what? 12? She says I'm average, I'm not that bad, but still...why must I be average? Why can't I be better? Why can't I improve myself? Of all the things people can say about me, maturity often hits a sore spot. I know that I am not THAT bad, but still, I get pretty affected by it for some reason. Don't let this stop you, of course. When you see me behaving inappropriately, do not hesitate to let me know. Because I don't like it. And yet at times I forget. I think maybe it is the humorous part of me that causes it. It rears its head in unexpected ways. I must stop behaving stupidly. Don't make people laugh so much. Be more serious here. I hate myself. Why can't I be more mature? I must change myself. I have been trying to do so but so far it seems I have not succeeded. I am highly disappointed in myself. I know I have been through a lot of hurt but I cannot just use humor all the time. There comes a times when it all has to stop. Goodbye old me(?)
That's all, folks.
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"-shawn ` says (11:29 PM):
hah
tml u going to gathering also right
i sense a "hows ur result" day coming
lol
-=[K]=- "Live briefly but gloriously, one's evanescent life is but a preparation for death." says (11:34 PM):
OH FUCK
you're right"
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Hmm today at work was uneventful. Submitted one scholarship today. Almost completed 3 others, left only the essays. Tomorrow I will get started on the most urgent one. Finally I feel like I'm getting somewhere. Hopefully I can complete the 17 Mar one tomorrow, and then the 3 20+ Mar ones the day after. After that the printed out one. Then submit my uni applications.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Afternoon, CrimsonLogic Call Centre! The first words I wanted to type here when I first saw the page. =.= Work today was ok...not too high traffic. Good. Uh...I spent $2 dollars on lunch only. Yay!
Just finished messing with my scholarships. Made quite some progress today, which is good because I can't be bothered to type everything out which means I did quite a bit. I like stuff neat and arranged. Still, doing all that makes me kinda sian and wanting to talk to someone in general. But...nevermind.
I surprised tak on the MRT today. =P Went home, and got straight to scanning all my relevant documents for my scholarship into the comp. Then messed around till I can easily view all the scholarships I am interested in and their deadlines in one click.
Andddd...now I've had enough for today. Yeah. Can't really think anymore. Just been doing a lot of work non-stop. Maybe I'll go sleep now. There's no more reason for me to stay awake. Ugh.
Anyway here's some pics of my night out. They're full size, so tak u can rip em off my blog. Lol.
NTU talk at Suntec!
Just finished messing with my scholarships. Made quite some progress today, which is good because I can't be bothered to type everything out which means I did quite a bit. I like stuff neat and arranged. Still, doing all that makes me kinda sian and wanting to talk to someone in general. But...nevermind.
I surprised tak on the MRT today. =P Went home, and got straight to scanning all my relevant documents for my scholarship into the comp. Then messed around till I can easily view all the scholarships I am interested in and their deadlines in one click.
Andddd...now I've had enough for today. Yeah. Can't really think anymore. Just been doing a lot of work non-stop. Maybe I'll go sleep now. There's no more reason for me to stay awake. Ugh.
Anyway here's some pics of my night out. They're full size, so tak u can rip em off my blog. Lol.
NTU talk at Suntec!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
[Latest update]
Today was ok. After lunch, calls slackened off a little. But Singpass was short handed. Rained again today. Came home, had dinner. NTU still weighing on my mind, but I was so distracted at work I didn't have time to think about it.
Portfolio also another thing I'm still thinking about. Finding a scholarship for myself, and an essay for SMU. Oh yeah, I just read an article in Feb's RD: How to be a millionaire. I want that. I want to be rich. Make that filthy rich. It may sound arrogant or like I'm aiming too high, but its not. It may sound silly, but it helps to have a goal.
"What motivates them isn't material possession, but the choices that money can bring:..." That's what gonna motivate me. Besides, item no. 1 on the list is: Set your sights on where you're going. =] I'm going to start saving up money. And saving as much as I can.
Ok, enough talk. I'm going to start thinking about uni and scholarships again.
[/Latest update]
Well that was quite a way to go for my 700th post. =.= 701st post here. Still quite early at work. uh...bored at home ytd. Came back late, so didn't do much. Still haven't applied for anything yet. The portfolio I have to submit to ADM is proving to be a tricky issue.
Ooh work is getting harder...more calls and the Singpass team has started swearing on MSN already.
[Some time later]
Called use Shit, wrong window. Oops. =.= Anyway, they're opening cases as fast as I can close them. I'm looking at a constant of 22 unclosed cases. =.=
[A short while later]
Damn, I like multitasking. LOL.
[Some time later]
This is irritating. For our current system, we are supposed to assist users about something with which we have no knowledge of. Get the issue and details and log a case for someone to call them back. We won't lose calls, but this makes the person attending to them look very inept, when the truth is, we don't even know the workings of the application and are only supposed to get the details. =.=
Today was ok. After lunch, calls slackened off a little. But Singpass was short handed. Rained again today. Came home, had dinner. NTU still weighing on my mind, but I was so distracted at work I didn't have time to think about it.
Portfolio also another thing I'm still thinking about. Finding a scholarship for myself, and an essay for SMU. Oh yeah, I just read an article in Feb's RD: How to be a millionaire. I want that. I want to be rich. Make that filthy rich. It may sound arrogant or like I'm aiming too high, but its not. It may sound silly, but it helps to have a goal.
"What motivates them isn't material possession, but the choices that money can bring:..." That's what gonna motivate me. Besides, item no. 1 on the list is: Set your sights on where you're going. =] I'm going to start saving up money. And saving as much as I can.
Ok, enough talk. I'm going to start thinking about uni and scholarships again.
[/Latest update]
Well that was quite a way to go for my 700th post. =.= 701st post here. Still quite early at work. uh...bored at home ytd. Came back late, so didn't do much. Still haven't applied for anything yet. The portfolio I have to submit to ADM is proving to be a tricky issue.
Ooh work is getting harder...more calls and the Singpass team has started swearing on MSN already.
[Some time later]
[A short while later]
Damn, I like multitasking. LOL.
[Some time later]
This is irritating. For our current system, we are supposed to assist users about something with which we have no knowledge of. Get the issue and details and log a case for someone to call them back. We won't lose calls, but this makes the person attending to them look very inept, when the truth is, we don't even know the workings of the application and are only supposed to get the details. =.=
Sunday, March 09, 2008
[Latest update]
TOday at work was ok. Tak asked me out for dinner but I was having dinner with my parents. =[ She went to have dinner with val and her parents instead. What makes val's parents better than mine huh? Hmph. =[
Went to Hg for dinner, went shopping at TUc, then headed home. That's it. Rest of the week to go before me. =[
[/Latest update]
[UPDATE]
Oh, it's Sunday. I forgot. I got work tomorrow. This is harder than I thought. Sigh. I've been grinding my brain nonstop for half an hour and only made a little progress in my application for NTU. I'm taking this very seriously. And I've been worrying about my portfolio. Its fucking stressful. Also, I've been hunting for scholarships, which is hard because my field is not all that common.
The combined pressure of the two is really difficult. I think I'll sleep on it. Maybe I'll finalise my application tomorrow. I know I've reached the point where I don't get anything out of me if I push anymore. The scarcity of any feasible scholarships is weighing on me, and compounding my dilemma over my courses.
I want to do graphic design and work in the advertising industry, but I'm afraid I don't have enough work to substantiate my application for Visual Communication. Photography, I have the work but I am worried over my career prospects. Mildly interested in Product Design, using it to fill in one of my courses but no work again.
There's an Advertising major in comm studies, but I don't think it offers exactly what I wanna do, so I'm not sure how high I wanna put it. It also offers a Journalism major, so I'm kinda interested in that too. VC is definitely first, I think. Interested in Psych too, so it's on. Current lineup is:
Visual Communication
Photography and Digital Imaging
Communication Studies
Psychology
Product Design
BUT, Psych is popular so I think I shouldn't put it so low, BUT Comm Studies is a little more relevant to what I want, so I think its just in between the middle 3 courses. Sigh. Well, on the bright side, I think I simplified things a little by writing everything out. I hope I can get into Visual Comm.
And if it's just between the middle 3 courses, that's just 6 possible arrangements! All that math actually has use after all. Ha-ha. Maybe I'll just do that. Write out all 6 possibilities, and see which I want.
These are my primary objectives (to be completed in that order):
1. Apply to SMU (What I want there is just about certain)
2. Apply to NTU (Finalise everything in a manner I'm pleased in)
3. Finda scholarship SCHOLARSHIPS and hit them all for all the courses I applied.
4. Attend NUS Open House
5. Apply to NUS
[/UPDATE]
Anyway, I blogged about today (Sunday), it's below! This post is for me to blog on Mon...
I think the shit I'm listening to on 987 The Edge is edgy enough to make me lose my concentration. What an awful screw-up of "You Spin Me Right Round." Haha. Just ignore this inane little footnote...
MONDAY
I'm not myself today. Very volatile. I don't like it when I'm like this. I'll blow at any moment or snap at anything or anyone. Like a tank of highly volatile and combustible fuel. KABOOM. Ha-ha. Real funny.
I don't really feel like speaking to anyone except for selected persons today, so if you're not on my "Safe" list, you better bug off. Or you can try and test and see how thin the ice is or how long I can tolerate you. Go ahead. Make my day.
The fact that its Monday again does not help. Throw in the fact i'm still resolving issues over my NTU application, the difficulty I have in finding an appropriate scholarship, and the fact I had a shitty sleep last night does not contribute in any way to the general sunniness of my mood.
Even several KM away at a school camp, my sister manages to annoy me. She left her phone at home and did not turn off her alarm. I slept at past 12 last night, and was rudely awakened by the horrible noise her phone was making.
It was the same annoying ringtone that was playing during my GP block test. The same mind exploding piece of shit, along with its associated memories of the IC I left outside. The same frigging thing. My mum held the phone and walked into my room, how do you turn this off?
Switched it off, and flopped back into bed. It felt like I'd just lain down when the damned thing rang again. Same bloody ringtone. I woke up, went to her room, shut the thing off and went back to bed. THen I just lay down for a while when the demon phone RANG. AGAIN.
I was bloody certain I had shut the alarm off, so why was it ringing? I had no idea. I just switched it off again. This time even my mum came. She asked my why was it ringing again. I told he I know how to make it stop, and tried to open the battery cover.
She reached for the phone with both hands and tired to stop me. No! Your sister will scold me! Why can't you just turn it off? I started swearing. You can't turn it off! It will turn on and start ringing again. Ok then switch off the alarm! I flipped open the stupid thing and stared at it. How do I turn off the alarm? I didn't recall in he state I was in.
My brain was totally fucked over. I drew a blank. I looked around the menu and after a while I found it. Totally forgot how to find the alarm. YOU try being tired and waking up and sleeping 3 times in 15 minutes and see how scrambled your brain is when you come out of it.
She set 3 friggin alarms and due to her stupid carelessness/irresponsibility, she woke up the entire house 3 times early in the morning. The end result, while she wasn't woken up at all, I WAS. And when MY alarm clock rang, I shut it off and WENT BACK TO BED so I woke up just in time to realise that even if I left the house RIGHT THATI NSTANT, I would still miss the shuttle bus. Decided to take the company bus and came to work half an hour late. Thanks a lot. =.=
My mum scolded me for my swearing. You don't know what I'm going through. (Ha-ha. Cliche.) You try getting so-so results and agonizing over your uni courses and possibly your future, and being tired and being jerked out of sleep 3 times in 15 minutes and see if you aren't cranky or not. Sigh.
[Some time later]
OMG I'm screwing up. I keep forgetting to request for UserID and dropping a lot of cases...sigh...
TOday at work was ok. Tak asked me out for dinner but I was having dinner with my parents. =[ She went to have dinner with val and her parents instead. What makes val's parents better than mine huh? Hmph. =[
Went to Hg for dinner, went shopping at TUc, then headed home. That's it. Rest of the week to go before me. =[
[/Latest update]
[UPDATE]
Oh, it's Sunday. I forgot. I got work tomorrow. This is harder than I thought. Sigh. I've been grinding my brain nonstop for half an hour and only made a little progress in my application for NTU. I'm taking this very seriously. And I've been worrying about my portfolio. Its fucking stressful. Also, I've been hunting for scholarships, which is hard because my field is not all that common.
The combined pressure of the two is really difficult. I think I'll sleep on it. Maybe I'll finalise my application tomorrow. I know I've reached the point where I don't get anything out of me if I push anymore. The scarcity of any feasible scholarships is weighing on me, and compounding my dilemma over my courses.
I want to do graphic design and work in the advertising industry, but I'm afraid I don't have enough work to substantiate my application for Visual Communication. Photography, I have the work but I am worried over my career prospects. Mildly interested in Product Design, using it to fill in one of my courses but no work again.
There's an Advertising major in comm studies, but I don't think it offers exactly what I wanna do, so I'm not sure how high I wanna put it. It also offers a Journalism major, so I'm kinda interested in that too. VC is definitely first, I think. Interested in Psych too, so it's on. Current lineup is:
Visual Communication
Photography and Digital Imaging
Communication Studies
Psychology
Product Design
BUT, Psych is popular so I think I shouldn't put it so low, BUT Comm Studies is a little more relevant to what I want, so I think its just in between the middle 3 courses. Sigh. Well, on the bright side, I think I simplified things a little by writing everything out. I hope I can get into Visual Comm.
And if it's just between the middle 3 courses, that's just 6 possible arrangements! All that math actually has use after all. Ha-ha. Maybe I'll just do that. Write out all 6 possibilities, and see which I want.
These are my primary objectives (to be completed in that order):
1. Apply to SMU (What I want there is just about certain)
2. Apply to NTU (Finalise everything in a manner I'm pleased in)
3. Find
4. Attend NUS Open House
5. Apply to NUS
[/UPDATE]
Anyway, I blogged about today (Sunday), it's below! This post is for me to blog on Mon...
I think the shit I'm listening to on 987 The Edge is edgy enough to make me lose my concentration. What an awful screw-up of "You Spin Me Right Round." Haha. Just ignore this inane little footnote...
MONDAY
I'm not myself today. Very volatile. I don't like it when I'm like this. I'll blow at any moment or snap at anything or anyone. Like a tank of highly volatile and combustible fuel. KABOOM. Ha-ha. Real funny.
I don't really feel like speaking to anyone except for selected persons today, so if you're not on my "Safe" list, you better bug off. Or you can try and test and see how thin the ice is or how long I can tolerate you. Go ahead. Make my day.
The fact that its Monday again does not help. Throw in the fact i'm still resolving issues over my NTU application, the difficulty I have in finding an appropriate scholarship, and the fact I had a shitty sleep last night does not contribute in any way to the general sunniness of my mood.
Even several KM away at a school camp, my sister manages to annoy me. She left her phone at home and did not turn off her alarm. I slept at past 12 last night, and was rudely awakened by the horrible noise her phone was making.
It was the same annoying ringtone that was playing during my GP block test. The same mind exploding piece of shit, along with its associated memories of the IC I left outside. The same frigging thing. My mum held the phone and walked into my room, how do you turn this off?
Switched it off, and flopped back into bed. It felt like I'd just lain down when the damned thing rang again. Same bloody ringtone. I woke up, went to her room, shut the thing off and went back to bed. THen I just lay down for a while when the demon phone RANG. AGAIN.
I was bloody certain I had shut the alarm off, so why was it ringing? I had no idea. I just switched it off again. This time even my mum came. She asked my why was it ringing again. I told he I know how to make it stop, and tried to open the battery cover.
She reached for the phone with both hands and tired to stop me. No! Your sister will scold me! Why can't you just turn it off? I started swearing. You can't turn it off! It will turn on and start ringing again. Ok then switch off the alarm! I flipped open the stupid thing and stared at it. How do I turn off the alarm? I didn't recall in he state I was in.
My brain was totally fucked over. I drew a blank. I looked around the menu and after a while I found it. Totally forgot how to find the alarm. YOU try being tired and waking up and sleeping 3 times in 15 minutes and see how scrambled your brain is when you come out of it.
She set 3 friggin alarms and due to her stupid carelessness/irresponsibility, she woke up the entire house 3 times early in the morning. The end result, while she wasn't woken up at all, I WAS. And when MY alarm clock rang, I shut it off and WENT BACK TO BED so I woke up just in time to realise that even if I left the house RIGHT THATI NSTANT, I would still miss the shuttle bus. Decided to take the company bus and came to work half an hour late. Thanks a lot. =.=
My mum scolded me for my swearing. You don't know what I'm going through. (Ha-ha. Cliche.) You try getting so-so results and agonizing over your uni courses and possibly your future, and being tired and being jerked out of sleep 3 times in 15 minutes and see if you aren't cranky or not. Sigh.
[Some time later]
OMG I'm screwing up. I keep forgetting to request for UserID and dropping a lot of cases...sigh...
Passed green spinner ball to Don in the morning. Was watching Cars on Disney when tak called. I couldn't finish my movie. =[ I like cars in general okay, so no smart comments. =.= Heh. Anyway took a bathe and rushed out. I took too quick a glance at the map so I walked in the wrong direction, 90 degrees anticlockwise wrong to be precise. Litte error. =.= Looked again, spotted my error, and went in the correct direction. SMU had their exhibits only in the admin building. Went around, not that much that I'm interested in.
Looking at Psychology in the School of Social Sciences or Bachelors in Business Management, Marketing major. I know SMU is hard to get in with my grades, but if they do consider me for an interview, I can get a chance there. I still have yet to consider NUS' offering, but I'll take a look next week.
I'm still considering the order of my preferences for NTU, but I prefer to take it slow right now and think it over properly, but at the same time, push myself so I don't fall into indecision as I am so often prone to. Also going to look as scholarships.
Anyway, after NTu, went to WS with tak, then slacked at macs. Surfed the net a little using my PSP, then had dinner. Ben came, we sent him off, then left for home. I'm going to update my Brightsparks profile now and think about my NTU submission. Bye.
I dunno if thinking about the courses will do what it did to me last night, but I sure as hell am going to do it again.
Looking at Psychology in the School of Social Sciences or Bachelors in Business Management, Marketing major. I know SMU is hard to get in with my grades, but if they do consider me for an interview, I can get a chance there. I still have yet to consider NUS' offering, but I'll take a look next week.
I'm still considering the order of my preferences for NTU, but I prefer to take it slow right now and think it over properly, but at the same time, push myself so I don't fall into indecision as I am so often prone to. Also going to look as scholarships.
Anyway, after NTu, went to WS with tak, then slacked at macs. Surfed the net a little using my PSP, then had dinner. Ben came, we sent him off, then left for home. I'm going to update my Brightsparks profile now and think about my NTU submission. Bye.
I dunno if thinking about the courses will do what it did to me last night, but I sure as hell am going to do it again.
Went to NTU today to take a look about. A lot of the stuff is similar. Got a lot of pamphlets, brochures, leaflets, postcards, and assorted processed trees. Went straight after work. Arrived early, but waited 15 mins for XW who didn't show up, then I gave up and went to queue for the shuttle bus. Then she came along with her friends.
I was still in a little bad mood after work plus the waiting, so I didn't feel very sociable so I just pretended. It's not their fault, it just that I wasn't in a good mood. Then Ben and Val came in the bus after us, so I felt better. Went to ADM, took some stuff, den went to look for tak. found LT 4 after quite some time, when went to School of Biological Sciences. Tak joined us soon after.
Got some free drinks and cotton candy, went into the exhibition area. I saw some familiar faces. Spoke to Shawn. I looking at the artsy courses because not only do I have a better chance, its something I like and am better at, and lots of people say I should go for it. I just hope I can get in.
I'm eyeing: Comm Studies, BFA(Honours) in Interactive Media/Photography and Digital Imaging/Product Media (Can choose 3 majors out of the 6 offered by ADM), Psychology. Roughly in order of preference. I wanted to be a journalist or study psychology before or do graphic design, so these are ok. I'm hoping to get in the advertising industry.
Also, I'll be looking at similar courses in NUS and I'm interested in taking Visual Design in Marketing in SMU. After NTU, we went to Jurong point, debated over a movie, then went for dinner and arcade. Went home, sorted out everything, set aside all that I'm not interested in and sifted through all the courses I like. It helped with the arrangement I guess. Going to SMU tomorrow.
I'm still thinking about my results.
I dunno why I dare to post this here.
But I feel like crying.
I feel like such an idiot.
I want to call someone but I dunno who.
I'm really tired from everything and I'm going to sleep now.
I was still in a little bad mood after work plus the waiting, so I didn't feel very sociable so I just pretended. It's not their fault, it just that I wasn't in a good mood. Then Ben and Val came in the bus after us, so I felt better. Went to ADM, took some stuff, den went to look for tak. found LT 4 after quite some time, when went to School of Biological Sciences. Tak joined us soon after.
Got some free drinks and cotton candy, went into the exhibition area. I saw some familiar faces. Spoke to Shawn. I looking at the artsy courses because not only do I have a better chance, its something I like and am better at, and lots of people say I should go for it. I just hope I can get in.
I'm eyeing: Comm Studies, BFA(Honours) in Interactive Media/Photography and Digital Imaging/Product Media (Can choose 3 majors out of the 6 offered by ADM), Psychology. Roughly in order of preference. I wanted to be a journalist or study psychology before or do graphic design, so these are ok. I'm hoping to get in the advertising industry.
Also, I'll be looking at similar courses in NUS and I'm interested in taking Visual Design in Marketing in SMU. After NTU, we went to Jurong point, debated over a movie, then went for dinner and arcade. Went home, sorted out everything, set aside all that I'm not interested in and sifted through all the courses I like. It helped with the arrangement I guess. Going to SMU tomorrow.
I'm still thinking about my results.
I dunno why I dare to post this here.
But I feel like crying.
I feel like such an idiot.
I want to call someone but I dunno who.
I'm really tired from everything and I'm going to sleep now.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
Well. Time to get down to it I guess. Blog about yesterday. So its finally over. That's it? It sure didn't seem like much for 2 years worth of ink, sweat and tears. Heck, I was more scared for my 'O' levels than for my 'A's. Supppose it is becuase of what I've been through, i can bury negative emotions inside me.
Met Tak and her friend at Outram. Went to Pasir Ris. Saw Raye also. Then came across Mel inside school. Sat at the study benches for a while. Met Val at the Porch, went to hall. First up were the As. Shawn got 3 As. Asshole. Haha. He owes us a treat. Later collected our results from Conrad.
Didn't feel much I guess. He flipped through the stack of result slips and his face changed when he saw mine. "Not too bad lah," and handed it to me. Well, not a single A. Not even for GP. The filthy bastards.
It's not ideal, even slightly lower than average, and I scored the lowest out of the 5 of us. But, well, it could have been worse. Much worse. Right now it's kinda uncertain, but some people are certain. Certainly not going to make it. So I guess I should at least be grateful for it.
Still...I was affected by it I guess. I didn't do anything funny with the Ikea knives because I didn't want to make a mess for the cleaning staff. =[ Had lunch/dinner at Ikea with Mugalo.
Later, Val and XW went off in her dad's car, ben, tak and I went off. Then ben went off ,saying he was going to CP, so I left with tak. Neither of us wanted to return home, and Pasir Ris park was a little far and we couldn't think of anywhere nice near our homes.
So we went back to school. Yes, school. When we finally have nothing to do with it anymore, we still return back to it. The sad thing was that there were no muggers. I miss seeing people mug. I will return someday, perhaps.
Walked around school, went to the study room and reminisced about the past.
The mugging sessions in the study room.
Mugging till 930, till the guard chased us out.
Mugging til 10, when the guard chased us away from the benches.
Making the guard wait for us until we left school.
Tak sitting on the benches with her cast.
Me and Ben running about playing with her crutches.
That time I spent the whole day all alone in the study room, mugging econs.
Playing with our humanoid bags.
Sitting in one long row.
Our bags besides us.
The notes in front of us.
Pens scattered across the table.
Mugging away.
I don't miss the lectures.
I don't miss the lessons.
I don't miss the tutorials.
I don't miss the assignments.
I don't miss the deadlines.
I don't miss the tests.
I miss the moments.
I remember tak sitting on the bench with her cast, bubble tea on the bench, our notes all over the table. The bright lights of the atrium. She sat there laughing as ben and I played with her crutches, and XW joined in.
I remember when tak ordered green apple+red apple fruit juice and the result was some horrific brown liquid that looked like it'd been dredged from some sewage pipe.
I remember val and I packing up and leaving some 'orphan' pens on the table, only to find out they were tak's the next day. I took a pencil from Ikea and wrote sorry on it to give to her. Do you sitll have it?
I remember going to Cavana to mug, we stayed there until closing time and everyone except us and the staff had left because tak insisted on highlighting the last page of her History notes.
Do you remember?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
In the study room, I suddenly remembered my tuition teacher and messaged him my results.
Hi Kenneth, good to hear from you.
I read this line and felt sad, for all these times are long past. 2 hours tuition on Sunday, rushing homework before that, how I dreaded Tuition Sundays. All no more.
Later on impulse, we went to Eugene's house. Neither of us had been there before. By the time we got there, we were very hot and tired. Played with his dog and chatted for a while before we left for home. Went home, bathed, had supper, and slept.
My aunt reminded me I had to work. Woke up early this morning to come to work where...
FUCK LA YESTERDAY I JUST GOT MY RESULTS NOW I COME BACK TO WORK ON SAT FUCKING MORNING AND THEN NOW GOT ALL THESE FUCKING CALLS THAT ARE FUCKING IRRITATING AND DIFFICULT BECAUSE I HAVE TO TAKE DOWN THE DETAILS AND THE ISSUE AND THEN LOG A FUCKING OPEN CASE AND THEN CALL PROCESSING TO GET THE GUYS NAME TO EMAIL HIM THE ISSUE AND WAIT SOME TIME FOR HIM TO REPLY AFTER WHICH THERE MAY OR MAY NOT BE A LONG EMAIL DIALOGUE BEFORE I CALL THE USER TO INFORM HER OF THE FIX AND IT IS SO FUCKING TEDIOUS AND SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS I USUALLY GET ON AVERAGE ONE CALL A WEEKDAY AND ITS FUCKING SATURDAY AND I'VE GOT 3 ALREADY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED I AM UNUSUALLY IRRITABLE AND PISSED OFF TODAY.
and later I'm meeting the rest to go to NTU's open house.
Met Tak and her friend at Outram. Went to Pasir Ris. Saw Raye also. Then came across Mel inside school. Sat at the study benches for a while. Met Val at the Porch, went to hall. First up were the As. Shawn got 3 As. Asshole. Haha. He owes us a treat. Later collected our results from Conrad.
Didn't feel much I guess. He flipped through the stack of result slips and his face changed when he saw mine. "Not too bad lah," and handed it to me. Well, not a single A. Not even for GP. The filthy bastards.
It's not ideal, even slightly lower than average, and I scored the lowest out of the 5 of us. But, well, it could have been worse. Much worse. Right now it's kinda uncertain, but some people are certain. Certainly not going to make it. So I guess I should at least be grateful for it.
Still...I was affected by it I guess. I didn't do anything funny with the Ikea knives because I didn't want to make a mess for the cleaning staff. =[ Had lunch/dinner at Ikea with Mugalo.
Later, Val and XW went off in her dad's car, ben, tak and I went off. Then ben went off ,saying he was going to CP, so I left with tak. Neither of us wanted to return home, and Pasir Ris park was a little far and we couldn't think of anywhere nice near our homes.
So we went back to school. Yes, school. When we finally have nothing to do with it anymore, we still return back to it. The sad thing was that there were no muggers. I miss seeing people mug. I will return someday, perhaps.
Walked around school, went to the study room and reminisced about the past.
The mugging sessions in the study room.
Mugging till 930, till the guard chased us out.
Mugging til 10, when the guard chased us away from the benches.
Making the guard wait for us until we left school.
Tak sitting on the benches with her cast.
Me and Ben running about playing with her crutches.
That time I spent the whole day all alone in the study room, mugging econs.
Playing with our humanoid bags.
Sitting in one long row.
Our bags besides us.
The notes in front of us.
Pens scattered across the table.
Mugging away.
I don't miss the lectures.
I don't miss the lessons.
I don't miss the tutorials.
I don't miss the assignments.
I don't miss the deadlines.
I don't miss the tests.
I miss the moments.
I remember tak sitting on the bench with her cast, bubble tea on the bench, our notes all over the table. The bright lights of the atrium. She sat there laughing as ben and I played with her crutches, and XW joined in.
I remember when tak ordered green apple+red apple fruit juice and the result was some horrific brown liquid that looked like it'd been dredged from some sewage pipe.
I remember val and I packing up and leaving some 'orphan' pens on the table, only to find out they were tak's the next day. I took a pencil from Ikea and wrote sorry on it to give to her. Do you sitll have it?
I remember going to Cavana to mug, we stayed there until closing time and everyone except us and the staff had left because tak insisted on highlighting the last page of her History notes.
Do you remember?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
In the study room, I suddenly remembered my tuition teacher and messaged him my results.
Hi Kenneth, good to hear from you.
I read this line and felt sad, for all these times are long past. 2 hours tuition on Sunday, rushing homework before that, how I dreaded Tuition Sundays. All no more.
Later on impulse, we went to Eugene's house. Neither of us had been there before. By the time we got there, we were very hot and tired. Played with his dog and chatted for a while before we left for home. Went home, bathed, had supper, and slept.
My aunt reminded me I had to work. Woke up early this morning to come to work where...
FUCK LA YESTERDAY I JUST GOT MY RESULTS NOW I COME BACK TO WORK ON SAT FUCKING MORNING AND THEN NOW GOT ALL THESE FUCKING CALLS THAT ARE FUCKING IRRITATING AND DIFFICULT BECAUSE I HAVE TO TAKE DOWN THE DETAILS AND THE ISSUE AND THEN LOG A FUCKING OPEN CASE AND THEN CALL PROCESSING TO GET THE GUYS NAME TO EMAIL HIM THE ISSUE AND WAIT SOME TIME FOR HIM TO REPLY AFTER WHICH THERE MAY OR MAY NOT BE A LONG EMAIL DIALOGUE BEFORE I CALL THE USER TO INFORM HER OF THE FIX AND IT IS SO FUCKING TEDIOUS AND SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS I USUALLY GET ON AVERAGE ONE CALL A WEEKDAY AND ITS FUCKING SATURDAY AND I'VE GOT 3 ALREADY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED I AM UNUSUALLY IRRITABLE AND PISSED OFF TODAY.
and later I'm meeting the rest to go to NTU's open house.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
[UPDATE]
I'm feeling much better now then my annoyed self at work. Had a very short journey home with tak. (Tak and) I realise that since they've announced the results, time passes really fast. As in really fast. I just realised that once I go to bed, I wake up tomorrow on The Day Itself in the blink of an eye already, and the first tendrils of fear curl themsleves around my heart.
[/UPDATE]
Dammit. This is one royal screwup. Bullshit. =.= Thie AVA guy calls me and says he can't email one of our staff and I can't get through her line, so I email get and get an autoreply to find out that she's out of the office til the 7th. Then I call him to ask is it urgent and he asks me for her email and I say I can't really give cos I haven't asked her and he start scolding me and I resist the urge to stick someing long and sharp in his eye and then I give him the damn email and there's some stupid typo error by the network team between shirly and shrily, and we don't know which friggin' email works. Brilliant. And best of all the person whom this concerns the most is NOT EVEN IN THE OFFICE. Wow. Fuckin' A.
[Some time later]
GODDAM this is bullshit. User on the line checking her billing details and my password to check billing details don't fucking work. Now I got myself locked out of the stupid system because my password magically changed itself and none of my colleagues can unfreeze my account because they're either all out for lunch or on the line. And I can't see shit. =.=
I'm feeling much better now then my annoyed self at work. Had a very short journey home with tak. (Tak and) I realise that since they've announced the results, time passes really fast. As in really fast. I just realised that once I go to bed, I wake up tomorrow on The Day Itself in the blink of an eye already, and the first tendrils of fear curl themsleves around my heart.
[/UPDATE]
Dammit. This is one royal screwup. Bullshit. =.= Thie AVA guy calls me and says he can't email one of our staff and I can't get through her line, so I email get and get an autoreply to find out that she's out of the office til the 7th. Then I call him to ask is it urgent and he asks me for her email and I say I can't really give cos I haven't asked her and he start scolding me and I resist the urge to stick someing long and sharp in his eye and then I give him the damn email and there's some stupid typo error by the network team between shirly and shrily, and we don't know which friggin' email works. Brilliant. And best of all the person whom this concerns the most is NOT EVEN IN THE OFFICE. Wow. Fuckin' A.
[Some time later]
GODDAM this is bullshit. User on the line checking her billing details and my password to check billing details don't fucking work. Now I got myself locked out of the stupid system because my password magically changed itself and none of my colleagues can unfreeze my account because they're either all out for lunch or on the line. And I can't see shit. =.=
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
[UPDATE]
Hmm nothing special today. Met tak after work again. Rained, so I couldn't go running.
[/UPDATE]
Today is quite an ok day. So far. Sigh...that's good. Very good. I'm relieved. I've been planning everything for Friday. It's a big day. I have thought of many melodramatic lines and descriptions and assorted phrases, but I'd rather not use them. Call me superstitious but I'd rather approach it with quiet hope and expectancy, as evidenced in my MSN nick.
I would be lying if I said I did not feel something, but that something is not really evident. It runs through me like a strong undercurrent beneath the raging waves of everyday commonplace emotions, and it is possible even, to ignore it. It doesn't reveal itself in my thoughts, actions or words.
Maybe what I've been through has equipped me with the skill to bury emotions and thoughts I don't like deep within me where they hardly surface. Is it running away? More a defense mechanism I believe. I don't let it affect my everyday work. But on the actual day itself, I believe that undercurrent will emerge once more as it reared its head slightly more than two years ago, a gigantic monstrous hulk breaking the wakes over its back as it surfaces, eclipsing all. As Frederick Delaney Roosevelt said:
"...the only thing we have to fear is fear itself."
Much as I don't acknowledge it, that fear exists. It exists inside me.
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PS. Even as I type this, the superstitious part of me clamours that by giving voice to what I feel, that f-word, is not good. That by acknowledging it, I am giving it a voice. With which to speak.
Hmm nothing special today. Met tak after work again. Rained, so I couldn't go running.
[/UPDATE]
Today is quite an ok day. So far. Sigh...that's good. Very good. I'm relieved. I've been planning everything for Friday. It's a big day. I have thought of many melodramatic lines and descriptions and assorted phrases, but I'd rather not use them. Call me superstitious but I'd rather approach it with quiet hope and expectancy, as evidenced in my MSN nick.
I would be lying if I said I did not feel something, but that something is not really evident. It runs through me like a strong undercurrent beneath the raging waves of everyday commonplace emotions, and it is possible even, to ignore it. It doesn't reveal itself in my thoughts, actions or words.
Maybe what I've been through has equipped me with the skill to bury emotions and thoughts I don't like deep within me where they hardly surface. Is it running away? More a defense mechanism I believe. I don't let it affect my everyday work. But on the actual day itself, I believe that undercurrent will emerge once more as it reared its head slightly more than two years ago, a gigantic monstrous hulk breaking the wakes over its back as it surfaces, eclipsing all. As Frederick Delaney Roosevelt said:
Much as I don't acknowledge it, that fear exists. It exists inside me.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
PS. Even as I type this, the superstitious part of me clamours that by giving voice to what I feel, that f-word, is not good. That by acknowledging it, I am giving it a voice. With which to speak.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Work this morning was screwy. A lot of calls. Damn irritating. Got quite pissed off. Lunch was ok, took Matheiu's dad's car to the Cheese Prata Shop. DAMN I wanna drive. Lol. Work is much better now. Yay. Lol. Uh...there doesn't seem to be anything else to say.
[UPDATE]
Yeah I didn't blog abt yesterday night. Went to Outram then to Queenstown and waited 20 mins for 195 to take me to the shopping centre, a highly ulu place. There was some colossal mix up and i walked a really long distance and XW could see I wasn't really happy. Truth be told I was quite mad, but I attributed it to the walking and the tiredness and the fact that I had a long day and it wouldn't be nice to take it out on her so I kept my general irritability in check. Why was why I ended up being rather unresponsive...=[
Anyway met tak after work today, and went home...that's it.
[/UPDATE]
Rather nice bubble tea wrapper I got.
Concert night.
YM in bed.
[UPDATE]
Yeah I didn't blog abt yesterday night. Went to Outram then to Queenstown and waited 20 mins for 195 to take me to the shopping centre, a highly ulu place. There was some colossal mix up and i walked a really long distance and XW could see I wasn't really happy. Truth be told I was quite mad, but I attributed it to the walking and the tiredness and the fact that I had a long day and it wouldn't be nice to take it out on her so I kept my general irritability in check. Why was why I ended up being rather unresponsive...=[
Anyway met tak after work today, and went home...that's it.
[/UPDATE]
Rather nice bubble tea wrapper I got.
Concert night.
YM in bed.
Monday, March 03, 2008
[UPDATE]
'A' levels results come out on Friday, blah blah blah, I'm sure everyone and their mother must know now. Mine does. Haha.
Mas Selamat bin Kastari escaped on Wednesday, blah blah blah, I'm sure everyone and their mother must know now. Mine does. Haha.
At work when Jocelyn MSNed me about it, followed by some other SMSes, but I figured I was one of the first few to find out. Lol. So here it is again. Yet another momentous chapter of my life is about to begin, and another lovely one is about to end. How will it end? Stay tuned this Friday.
Suprisingly I don't feel any strong emotions. Perhaps I am numb to it all already. I have already adopted a semi-whatever-may-come-will-come attitude. Maybe I need to wait till Friday for it to set in. KABOOM! Uni freshman.
-Hearts in Altantis, Stephen King
[/UPDATE]
A major shitload of work today. =[ Oh well, Mondays. Haha. Yesterday spent the rainy day playing mahjong at Ym's house. That and my PSP. I wanna play Patapon! It looks horribly fun and addictive. =D Pata pata pata pon! Lol. ^^ Messed about a lot with Loco Roco also..heheh.
Then left to go to Outram Park for dinner with Shawn, YM and Siwei. Went to Vincent's restaurant. Food was good. Still love the scallops. Mmm...shall go there with Mugalo one day. ^^ Left to go to Vivo to watch No Country for Old Men. Lol. It was...very Oscarish. Lol. Very uh...non-mainstream. I got the story but the ending was like eh? Okayyy...
Reach home at 1230, and went to bed. Went to work playing my PSP OMG FINALLY. It was fun. 2 stages of Loco Roco later and I was at Outram park already. Fast. Very fast.
[Some time later]
Back from lunch. Everyone is complaining there are a lot of calls today. =[ And I'm sleepy now. Can't wait to knock off. Now I'm getting odfd calls about ASN and DO and PO about which I know nothing off. has my boss put me on another line nad not told me?
'A' levels results come out on Friday, blah blah blah, I'm sure everyone and their mother must know now. Mine does. Haha.
Mas Selamat bin Kastari escaped on Wednesday, blah blah blah, I'm sure everyone and their mother must know now. Mine does. Haha.
At work when Jocelyn MSNed me about it, followed by some other SMSes, but I figured I was one of the first few to find out. Lol. So here it is again. Yet another momentous chapter of my life is about to begin, and another lovely one is about to end. How will it end? Stay tuned this Friday.
Suprisingly I don't feel any strong emotions. Perhaps I am numb to it all already. I have already adopted a semi-whatever-may-come-will-come attitude. Maybe I need to wait till Friday for it to set in. KABOOM! Uni freshman.
"What if there were no grownups? Suppose the whole idea of grownups was an illusion? What if their money was really just playground marbles, their business deals no more than baseball card trades, their wars only games of guns in the park?..."
-Hearts in Altantis, Stephen King
[/UPDATE]
A major shitload of work today. =[ Oh well, Mondays. Haha. Yesterday spent the rainy day playing mahjong at Ym's house. That and my PSP. I wanna play Patapon! It looks horribly fun and addictive. =D Pata pata pata pon! Lol. ^^ Messed about a lot with Loco Roco also..heheh.
Then left to go to Outram Park for dinner with Shawn, YM and Siwei. Went to Vincent's restaurant. Food was good. Still love the scallops. Mmm...shall go there with Mugalo one day. ^^ Left to go to Vivo to watch No Country for Old Men. Lol. It was...very Oscarish. Lol. Very uh...non-mainstream. I got the story but the ending was like eh? Okayyy...
Reach home at 1230, and went to bed. Went to work playing my PSP OMG FINALLY. It was fun. 2 stages of Loco Roco later and I was at Outram park already. Fast. Very fast.
[Some time later]
Back from lunch. Everyone is complaining there are a lot of calls today. =[ And I'm sleepy now. Can't wait to knock off. Now I'm getting odfd calls about ASN and DO and PO about which I know nothing off. has my boss put me on another line nad not told me?
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Haven't blogged yet. On Thursday went to the MJ concert at VCH after work with Raye and Mel. Went to meet them at Dhoby, bought Chippy's Fish 'n' Chips (quite nice!), and then took MRT to Raffles Place. Walked to VCH, queued to enter, and took seats quite high up. Still, managed to enjoy the show, which was quite nice. Haha.
The show was quite nice, ended at about 10 I think, took MRT back. Was quite tired le, so went to sleep. Frieday, went to work and then met XW at commonwealth then to PR to meet ben. Later tak came, and we went to Ikea to have dinner.
Today, went out in the morning to get my PSP back I GOT MY PSP BACK YAY! AAH! YAY! =D And then I went shopping. Lol. I went to buy Loco Roco cos supposedly loading is faster with a umd disc. $32. Walked around sim lim. Was highly tempted to buy a new set of speakers. =X Went to meet Shawn at Bugis, bought a white belt to go with my black jeans. $16.
We went to harbourfront to walk about, and I got a yellow t-shirt from River Island for $53. Later I got a grey belt from Pull and Bear for $39. MY mother will never see these values. Haha! =P Anyway I don't do this very often, so yeah. Lol. Besides, I was feeling kinda rich today. Lol.
Later went home to dump my stuff, then changed and went down to Ym's house. I'm there now. His com has this really cool game called Audio surf. I'm going to go play it now, bye!
The show was quite nice, ended at about 10 I think, took MRT back. Was quite tired le, so went to sleep. Frieday, went to work and then met XW at commonwealth then to PR to meet ben. Later tak came, and we went to Ikea to have dinner.
Today, went out in the morning to get my PSP back I GOT MY PSP BACK YAY! AAH! YAY! =D And then I went shopping. Lol. I went to buy Loco Roco cos supposedly loading is faster with a umd disc. $32. Walked around sim lim. Was highly tempted to buy a new set of speakers. =X Went to meet Shawn at Bugis, bought a white belt to go with my black jeans. $16.
We went to harbourfront to walk about, and I got a yellow t-shirt from River Island for $53. Later I got a grey belt from Pull and Bear for $39. MY mother will never see these values. Haha! =P Anyway I don't do this very often, so yeah. Lol. Besides, I was feeling kinda rich today. Lol.
Later went home to dump my stuff, then changed and went down to Ym's house. I'm there now. His com has this really cool game called Audio surf. I'm going to go play it now, bye!
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