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The Protagonist
Him: Kenneth
His story has been told for: 20 years
His story began on: Sept 11, 1989 (Yes, really)
Current Location: Singapore
Likes: His friends, photography, cycling, bowling, reading, MTV, Facebook, music, movies
Dislikes:
Smoking, Hypocrites
Astro Sign: Virgo
Desires Basic Economic Problem: Humans have unlimited wants but limited resources.
Webcam New Wallet Headphones+Mic Better camera Bowling Equipment Gap hooded-jacket Stephen King books Sony Ericsson w610i Abode photoshop or equivalent
*iPhone 3G S* (Can we like combine last year's gift plus this yr and maybe X'mas too? =D)
Burnout Revenge (Xbox)
Midtown Madness (Xbox)
To be a better photographer
Chapter 20
Monday, April 30, 2007,
4/30/2007 10:56:00 PM
Yay for labour day. Today was eventful to say none the least. Rugby in the mud. Rawr. 100% au naturel Meirdian mud. 100% free, 100% rainwater and 100% field mud. Who needs that dead sea crap? Lol. Ben kept trying to hug everyone he saw. Ended up feeling extremely uncomfortable as the mud was drying and the toilets were packed. With to the 3rd floor one with Ben and XW. [WARNING:Following pictures may be extremely graphic and contain scenes of mud-caked feet. Not for the faint hearted.] We usspect osme guy was doing something -ahem- inside. He was inside for almost twenty minutes, and it was dead silent. We only saw his bag and the door to one stall closed. No running water, nothing. No rustling of clothes. Then when he came out, he was still dressed in PE. When I entered the cubicle... A steak of liquid over the floor. Anyway, later Melissa helped me to get 1984 (YAY THANKS!) so I finally got a copy of it! Lol. I borrowed Babel from Galvyn. Lol. Gonna watch it soon.
Sunday, April 29, 2007,
4/29/2007 06:46:00 PM
One Last Stand.
The problems never really stop, do they? I'm still in the midst of studying Chemistry. A certain source has informed me that a certain person (I shall not be mentioning who,) has taken offence at the red shoelaces on my Vans sneakers. Heavens above! Shoelaces! Next they'll be saying my pencil case is too red. Should I change the laces on my Vans or not wear them at all just because someone dislikes them?Well, fuck you and the horse you rode in on.
That's like asking grass to turn white. Ridiculous. And I only wear them on Wednesdays, the shortest school day of the week. Should I change at your every whim and fancy? Sure, if you drop dead and die right now because that's my fancy. =.= The answer is NO FUCKING WAY. OVER MY DEAD BODY, CUNT. Cliched, but I am who I am and if you don't like it, too bad. Lowlife as you are, to change for you would be to signify that I cater to your wishes, and the day that day comes will be a very very cold day in hell indeed.
So here I am, and I resolve to wear those shoes still every Wednesday as per normal. As a statement of rebellion, as a statement against your filthy obnoxiousness, as a statement thats says I don't give a damn. For I reserve the right to wear what I want when I want. And you can take your dislike and kiss yourself in the ass with it.
Seriously, shoelaces? What the hell was it drinking?
Disclaimer: No horses were harmed in the writing on this post.
Todays was...pretty unlucky. I dragged Shawn out to mug at the Nat Lib cos I thought it'd be an interesting experience and cos I suck at binom and poisson because what the lecturer said came out as some ancient dialect on Mars or something. Well, it was an interesting experience alright. We took quite a while to reach there and then went all the way up to realise notes, pens blah blah knnbccb couldn't be brought in. Went to 5th floor, discovered the courtyard (too hot) and study lounge (too crowded) then when i just stepped in, of all the times...my phone rang. I was like whispering shittttt and dashing back out of the door (=.=) as the techno beat kept blasting out of my phone.
Damn. What's the probability of youforgetting to silence your phone and having it ring a few seconds after you step into a study lounge packed full of more than a hundred muggers? I expected to hav a TYS hurled at my head anytime or at least to have my eye put out by an airborne black/blue Pilot G2 pen. Mugged outside this exhibition on the 5th floor but got chased away by security guard (too public) Eventually went to the B1 library. Mugger peace.
Later went to Pastamania for dinner and home. Didn't meet Diana and Candice, who were, coincidentally, at Bugis too. Lol. I couldn't find Orwell's 1984. DAMN. =[ Mugging Materials. Typical Cliched Done A Million Times Smiley Face On A Plate.
Clouds of iron hang low over the landscape, their forbidding presence adding to the manic, depressive tableaux. Warships of the sky unleashing their cargo of rain, thick, heavy, fat drops of rain that beat the ground below as if to pound it into submission. Jagged scars of lightning seem to tear the sky asunder as they smite the surface of the earth, throwing a white blinding light upon all. Thunder rolls across the sky, the grim companion to these bolts. Their low rumbles seem to promise impending calamity. A thick grey veil of rain descends over the horizon, obscuring it from sight as the clouds cast the folds of their dirty shawls over the buildings, replacing them with a blank greyness that promises nothing...but emptiness.
The weather is perfect for sleeping, but here I am in front of the computer, alone at home. No sound but for the irregular tapping of the keys, and the low rumbling thunder that seems to loom outside my window, making its presence felt. Maybe the ding! of a lone soul logging on to MSN in this quiet afternoon. School today was over quick. TGIF, as they say. Have to collect $10.75 from each student so we can make bacteria produce glow-in-the-dark protein. How's THAT for fun, eh? =] I guess there wasn't much in school today. Have 3 tests next week.
Mon: Chemistry Test-Thermochemistry and Thermodynamics Tue: Math Test-Probability and Binom and Poisson and Normal Distribution Fri: Biology Test-Stem cells
I am damn grateful for the labour day holiday. Watching Spiderman 3 at Vivo. Lol. Maybe osme pics from the past few days here.
Ant spraying. =.= Mugging on the bus. What I have to bring to school every Monday and Thursday.
Random stuff. Doodles during chem. Remember the ownage scene in 300?
Slacktime is over...I'm off to go do some homework or study for my tests. Sigh.
Wow. Tired. Right leg(sliding foot in bowling) feels weak. Still I wish could've played more. Was bowling wrongly today. Found my mistake in the last 10 mins. Darn. Long friggin' day today. Nesrly couldn't stand it. Was zoning in and out while copying math homework. WTH. Then felt damn sleepy in math tuto and had to resort to smsing to keep myself awake. I need to get some candy. Big rock hard ones that you can suck on for a long time. Damn, that sounds wrong. But Ben brought these "Fruit Rocks" candy that are damn big and taste damn good. Why am I using so many damns? Lol. But they taste great. Lol. I was feeling hungry, but one of them suger packe candy bombs lasted me all the way till lunch. Watched 300 in the library w/ Ben and XW so missed 1st break. Lol.
Double math period at the end of the day. Danson got us started doing stupid things on the GC. I proved P(Danson=gay)=1 on my GC which owned him back frm bastarding me this morning at chem. I realised I didn't write the SO2 reaction at the anode and was looking for the half equation when Hartini suddenly asked me what was the reaction at the anode. Of all times. I was like huhwtfwhat??? stoned cos I was tihnking about the half equation. Then that bugger Danson went reduction! reduction! reduction! When it was oxidation. Hell. =.= Math lesson dragged on till 430 and I was like stop! enough! end! my bus leaves at 430!!! And I had to msg people o hold on for a while.Ok homework time. I have make a new goal to post more meaningfull stuff here from time to time, but I need that time for that...
Trianing tomorrow at Yishun. Which is wonderful. Becauce it means I have to lug, uh, one shoe bag, one file, one sling bag, and one bowling trolley bag to school. Yup. And when I wake up the next morning I'll have 4 more arms sticking out of my back a la Doctor Octopus from the wildly successful Spiderman franchise. Right. At least Shawn's taxi-driving uncle's gonna give me a ride. Lol.
Tomorrow is a pretty slacky kinda tutorial day so not too bad...just do my work for a while more. Because of the double math period after sch(=.=) and the chem remedial I think I'll have to miss the remedial. Transport's at 4.30, and I can't join the "released-at-505pm" people because that's make 5 of them, which makes cabbing a problem. =.=
anyway today was Azzy's b'day, so Terence, Alvin, and I went to buy her cake while Derick distracted her at Swensens. We called it Operation Black Eagle. o_O Lol. Then later we left for dinner after training. I definiitely need to widen my thumb hole. After training my thumb expanded till I couldn't remove it at all, which obviously spoils my release and means I couldn't use my ball. Maybe next week. Off to do work now.
i'm having a lot of problems viewing others' tagboard, so sorry, no tags...
Won't be reading much blogs or tagging today. Chem SPA tomorrow. Wish me luck. Lol. Gp was mildly interesting. We played a new game. Seperated into 4 groups in 4 corners, then sent out a runner to get the duster in the middle of the classroom. Prize was a Ikea meal? Then RUSH! First trial ended in a four-way supermassive extra spectacular collison. Picture 4 people running towards each other head-on at high speed like in a 4-way intersection. With a table and duster in the middle. Crash, bang, smash! 3 bumped heads and an uncontrallable bout of riotour laughter later, Ariffin got it. It was such a pity we didn't video this mignificent scene. Nobody was hurt, of course. Our group was pWn/pooning(invented by Danson) early on FTW! Then the girls group caught up and we lost in the tie breaker. Gah. So sad. Nearly made it. gg kthx i wan rematch. bleah. Lol.
In CLB I think our teacher was crying. We had self-study period and he stoned or emoed at the desk. I think his previous class did something bad to him. The rest of us did our stuff as usual...seeing him like this makes feel bad for the slackiness of our CLB class...he is human after all, although CLB is supposed to be slacky. =\ Ah well, back to study. Dammit Derick wrote my name wrong for something in bowling. I think its in the lanes when we train at Yishun this Thurs. And he's lazy to go change. =.= And I think this means Thurs I'll be going home pretty late again. And I'll have to bring shoebag, bowling bag, file and bag on Thurs. o_O
[UPDATE] Chem SPA MSN revision bloopers: -=[K]=- |When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am(mugmugmug) says:
heat to ensure COMPLETE side-chain oxidatiopn of alkylbenzene
shawn says: heating is required to eensure sidechain oxidation of the alkylbenze
Today was very tiring. Came home totally wasted, and I still have homework to do. School was the usual long day, Touch rugby in PE. We get to do games both sessions, which mean I'll have to train on my own now. Musn't forget to do that. Today the LRT broke down. As in ka-flooey! On a side note, I think "We are sorry for the inconvenience." has pretty much lost its meaning. We see it everywhere, when our programs crash, when our transport system breaks down, when construction is going on. It has lost its meaning.
I'd wax lyrical on it further, but I gotta do work. Weather was on the fritz today. Early morning, I started sweating as soon as I woke up. Hot and humid 15 storeys in the air, but comparatively light and cool air at ground floor. The horizon seemed foggy and there was a sickly orange hue in the sky, as well as gigantic towering stacks of low clouds. Higher up, there were wisps of streaky clouds that looked as though Heaven had just hired a drunken painter to paint the blue sky white. o_O
Training was ok...I met 2 of my goals and got back my average. Yeah! 158, 173 games. 3rd game was screwed up cos my thumb was a little slow in the release, but got my average of 150. =] Maybe I need to widen the thumb hole a little bit. Ok, off to work...
Tuition was as usual. Pissed off my teacher I think again. Sigh. Escaped into the world of The Tommyknockers and got lost in the book for hours. Left with great reluctantce for reality and decided to do my work. Sigh.
I sense a disturbance in the force. Or rather, in my life.
[UPDATE] My internet is freaking irritating the hell outta me. Must be that time of the month again. Everyday I have to do the same shit over and over again. I connect to the inernet, connectiong lasts a while, and then I dc. And the icon sitll says them com-router connection is still connected at 54mbps. Boolsheet. =.= Den I have to try and dis-and reconnect to no avail. Then I have to turn on the main com which I ALWAYS restarts by itself for no good reason, waits till it restart more than 4 or 5 times before I can get it on properly, and reset my router. Stick a pencil into the reset hole, hold for 15 seconds to reset everything, then rename my router, and reset the security code. wth. Imagine doing that every night? I pounded the stupid thing 4 times as stress relief already. Oh great now the main com lost its internet. Freak.
And my room jus had an ant invasion this afternoon. =.= Had to go shift all my stuff away and spray the whole place down. Hmmm look! Now my Zone Alarm just crashed. It "encountered a problem and needed to close" What this hell is going on...
Quick blog then maybe do some work, or slack a bit before sleeping a bit earlier. Overall this weekend has been rather productive, which is good. Finished plenty of work. Estimate I will be able to finish 90+% of it by Sunday. Got tuition tomorrow, so maybe I'll slack a bit, then turn in early, and spend tomorrow finishing up everything.
CIP was ok. As always end it feeling like wanting to wash my hands. Danson got what he thought was shit, but actually was chocolate(partially eaten?) on his Burberry polo tee. Then I came into contact with smushed eaten biscuits. This guy came over to play ball and I noticed his hands were covered all over in chunks of sticky eaten smushy ex-biscuit. And obviously he used those hands to throw the balls into the bucket. =X Then there was this guy who would probably be very very good at WoW. He farmed food from us. (Farming is gamer slang for doing something over and over again to get massive amounts of a certain object, e.g. gold or stat point) He kept playing and playing our games and kept asking for more and more candy until we ran out before he left. This other guy swiped 2 chocolate bars from me. Lol.
Later went to meet Diana(from Chingay) at PS. Too bad the Candice and the rest couldn't make it. Went for dinner, then watched people play at the arcade lol...walked about a bit then went home...yay I only spent 20 min blogging? =X Some old pics.
[Please allow a few mins to load. Meanwhile, you can read what I posted today.=]] Just discovered this song hiding in my files, and I found I liked it...its something nice and happy that makes you wanna bounce around and go whee! o_O Lol. Starting to like more of Nickelback's songs too...
Today was retarded. After yeasterday's NAPFA, training, 415pm long day and IE screwup, I was so tired I didn't have the energy or motivation to do any homework at all. Then late at night I got the econs sms to do Unit 5 essay, Unit 1 case study, and the green pseudo-TYS. =[ I haven't done the first two. Haven't done Math assign because I have no idea how to do. I think the lecturer must be foreign talent from Jupiter because I couldn't understand what he was spouting...
Then on Thurs I forgot to bring my chem remedial worksheet. So I brought today. Then I realised the first question is on another piece of foolscap at home. And that there's another question behind which I didn't see. And didn't do. And I wrote on the reverse of the foolscap. like the holes are on the right. I have nothing to say -faint- How suay can you get while oding your homework? Now I lost the 1st piece of paper and I have to redo it.
So my Chem and Math will be handed in late. Sigh. And I have to study for Bio SPA and Chem SPA also...gah. I realise I often only blog about school. I'm still surprised I have readers. Sorry guys...haha. I guess its expected, since my life basically revolves around school now. Like some malicious supermassive black hole, fat and redolent in the center of galaxies, sucking in stars, like a fat man at an all-you-can-eat buffet, sneering in the face of Time. Yup. That's our fate. To be sucked into a supermassive black hole theorised to be at the center of our galaxy. That is, if the sun doesn't blow up into a red giant first, and engulf the earth in its flaming hulk. =S Alright time to work...let's leave the Armageddon and doom-mongering to real scientists... [UPDATE] Watching Initial D and doing work while the episodes load. Pretty decent trade off...plus my work actually looks neat! Haha...weirdly hardly anyone is online tonight. Is there some crazy nocturnal national event I wasn't informed of? Haha...anyway, got the pics from last Sat...will now put them up.
In the hotel. =X... lol... Curved escalator...amusing. I think this pic is damn funny. xD Please do not sit on the steps!
Gah. Passed all 5 items cept 2.4. I said hi to my breakfast for the second time today on the right curve of the track during my 5th round. And it was good weather too. Ran in the rain. Sigh. My stamina sucks. Another long day. Me Ben and Diana felt so loserified when we had to stay back after school for chem remedial lesson...lol. Totally forgot about the remedial test today. Hais. Failed it of course. =.= Potassium Nitrogen Nitrogen. So many people didn't go for training thanks to Colosseum.
We didn't even know if training was cancelled. Azy's phone was off, Alvin never picked up cos he was playing volleyball while waiting for Yvonne to finish her SBJ...in the end only me and Derrick left with J1 Alvin for the alley. Yay a short day tomorrow...haha. Then CIP saturday at IMH again...after that probably going out...YAY! I need to relax or something...haven't been performing well at CCA. Sigh. Stress or something? Bleah. My wrist still hurting...I'm off to do some work now... [UPDATE] Sigh. Feeling damn tired now. I was loading Initial D Episode 8 and Bleach 122 when suddenly for no reason, "Internet Explorer has encountered a problem and will now piss you off royally by closing and effing you up." At times like these, the prohibitive cost of buying a Mac is the only thing that stops me. Sigh. Now I have to reload both and what made it worse is that I have TRIED to watch that Indital D episode like 5 times already. And each time some stupid problem appears and I can't finish it. It's like the video is cursed or something. =.= Now it ends up I got so frustrated I'm so tired I don't even feel I have the energy to do my homework. I want to just go to bed. Maybe its just cause of the NAPFA and training today...sigh.
A short day today. Surprisingly, made it to school early despite taking what I thought was a pretty late bus. Went to library and borrowed Animal Farm by George Orwell, The Tommyknockers, and THe Dark Half by King. Finished Farm. Was pretty good. The not-so-hidden political pessage was damn nice lol. Would make a uber Lit book. Couldn't find 1984. Bah. Our Library has funny obscure(to me) George Orwell books like Burmese Days but no 1984. Huh. Maybe I'll go to another library again. A pity, since I found It in the library which was total OMGness since I was hunting for it for months...
BenQ was emo today. If he snaps there might be the Meiridan shootings...when such incidents I think its not all about gun control. I believe that (if they are involved), the usual issues of bullying, social pariahs, people with attitude problems, pricks, and airheads are a cause of it to some extent. I do not condoen the actions (of shootings), and the true cause of the Viriginia shootings is as of yet unknown, but if the aforementioned reasons are involved, maybe they did bring it on themselves if they didn't treat people with proper dignity. Its not gonna be pretty when someone snaps. I might even hazard a guess that if you added lax gun laws to our harsh education systems, going to school might also mean packing 2 Desert Eagles in each hand and an MP5 in your bag.
Training was ok...BenQ was uberemo so he didn't perform well. Then later he went to towel-whip me. =.= So I retaliated. Yes it was freakin lame but I think he needed to let off some steam before he went nuts lol. Anyway, NAPFA tomorrow...wish me luck. Won't be reading many blogs today. Off to do work... (Pris, this time I looked at the mirror...=P)
Skewl as usual. Chem SPa was...ok? Maybe can get a higher level. I couldn't fig. out how to test for ammonium pentanoate tho. Was dozing in Math lec...Ann Koh saw me. =X Math has a way of doing that to me. Sigh. She told me abt it in tutorial. =X Lol...den Ben and I told her about the daily crap us Sengkangers have to take from Bus 89 early everyday...Read during GP. Hmm...I passed GP. Wow? Still ok. Got 9 marks more then my blockies. When he analysed the qns earlier I found out my question was supposedly very hard to argue, and thus, to be avoided. Instantly I was like oh sheeit...me going to fail bad. I even scribbled "Please don't fail me. :(" in pencil behind my essay, after my self-esteem took a quick dive down the toilet after the blockies. Lol. So somehow I managed to find something to argue. AND I beat his passing grade of 30. =.= By 2 marks. Safe? =S
CLB was kinda ok...problem was some of my classmates were going to get free BnJ ice cream! So I went alone after school. =[ Took the wrong bus too. I thought 109 passed by, but apparently I was wrong. =.= Took 5 back and ran across in the heavy rain...it was so emoish to stand there, sodden and alone in line waiting for ice cream when everyone and their friends came along. =X Lol. I got my Choco Fudge Browie and was abou to leave when I saw Ken Koh and his friend. So I jumped in. Yay! We talked, he showed me card tricks, and in total we queued 3 times! So I got to taste Choco Fudge, Choco Chip Cookie Dough, and Chunky Monkey. Saw so many people I knew there. Like almost 7 or 8 of them. Lol. Yummy. Chunky Monkey was not bad (My 1st time)...a bit not used to the nuts, but still pretty nice. Went home after that. =D Funness! Some old pics.
Pepsi's new design. Found this translated manuscript of Einstien in sch library. Look! Originally the Equation was uspposed to be L=MC^2! Serious! Then Ein canceled the L and changed it to E...coool. THe above equations prove why Einstein is Einstein. Pro. Even Einstein makes mistakes... Mugging on the way to school... ICE CREAM!!! ON the way home I saw like 5 buses in a row at th bus-stop. Genius.
Ok work is piling up faster than you can say "A levels are coming" so I'll only be visting a few blogs, and tagging even fewer. =X So don't worry...maybe I DID visit your blog but didn't tag. =P Anyway I'm eating and blogging now so as to maximise time spent mugging for the Chem SPA trial tomorrow.
Anyway I tried to skip lunch today to save money but failed. Recess in school is my breakfast. I usually eat something before school, but I don't think 10 piddling Hello Panda (yum!) biscuits and half a cup of water constitutes breakfast. So...I lasted about 7 hours, from 9am to 415 pm before I had to eat something. Plan aborted, I simply skipped dinner outside and came home to eat instant noodles. Saved money dining on either Chicken Rice ($2) or Fried Rice ($3) and Ice Milo ($1) =D Yay!
Didn't do so well during training...=[ Despite a 3 day interval, my wrist started hurting a while into training again. Because it was bearable, and the real effect only comes after training, and I don't feel pain when I bowl I just continued. ok I tihnk that's enough. I trok some pics today but that's for another post. Time to mug!
[QuikBlog] I just finished tuition at 12am, and after that I'm supposed help my sis...strike that, DO my sister's art project. How's a guy supposed to get anything done around here? T_T
[UPDATE] Spent the rest of the day doing work, watching the initial D anime, and thinking of designs for the CCA tee. Probably gonna sleep soon. School tml. =[
[UPDATE] My sister is like so...=.= I asked her to let me use the main com to do my registration for NS but she said she was doing homework. Den later she said that she was playing music and that I was playing music too and I was like HUH?!?!?! What does music have to do with my NS registration? =.= Den my mum was asking her when she could finish her homework she said said obviously it couldn't be done in 15 mins. =.= Can't you like just pause your stuff, let my complete and print out my questionnaire and complete everything once and for all? =.= No I know why I changed my blog address and refused to tell her. =.=
I'll rush this out along with the pics so I can get around to doing my homework. So almost no tagging of blogs today =] Hmm actually I just recalled yesterday they announced our bowling results. The recation was rather amusing. After announcing it, we could mainly hear cheering for the J1s in the hall, probably amped from residual orientation highness or pumped on school spirit. Well that might very well leave them soon. Anyway, the J1s cheered, and you mainly heard scattered applause and the occassionaly crickets from the J2s. After announcing our final position, the was an eruption of cheers and clapping from the hall. Followed by a time lag in transmission. Before the J2s caught on and started clapping. o_O
Anyway, went out to meet Candice, Diana, and Colin and iforgothisname =[ at Orchard. Our so-called Chingay group, which I was transplanted into at the last minute, but thankfully managed to be a part of. =] One thing at least, I'm grateful for the large MJ presence in that group because if not for that, I don't know how I might have fitted in, being stuffed in incongruously like that. First from cine, we bought bubble tea, and walked to wheelock. Were accosted by this girl about some fishy charity to help ex-convicts. I expect it was bogus. This "charity" has been sending people to Orchard for so long now. Anyway, went to wheelock, wandered about Apple, looked at stuff, then went to Borders. Went to the chidren's section and saw this really cool pop up book. The emerald city of The Wizard of Oz. Then came across this totally cool book called Egg and Bird. It was SO COOL. It started off with [pg1]"Egg is Egg." [pg2]"Bird is Bird." I'll leave the rest to you to think about. It was so interesting! Surreal random humor with no link at all. Lol. A critic praised it as being "surreal humor" So if you ever are random, just say you're being surreal...=] We agreed that we both could write books like this too. Fish&Co. for lunch. Or not. I ordered the swordfish collar which was like WOW. No, it doesn't run on Vista. But it was big enough to incorporate both lunch and dinner. I felt slightly nauseous after finishing. Oh yeah. Today, on 14 April 2007, I actually drank alcohol. No, I have drunk before but ALWAYS my reaction was like BLEARGH -spit- -spit- Gimmesomewater -spit-. Until today. When I actually downed it without feeling weird. Lol. I think today was the 1st time I ever drank so much alcohol in one go. I koped some Blue Lagoon, Sex on the Beach, and Gin and Lime from them cause the stupid waiter gave everyone but me the drinks menu. So I figured might as well not order. Bugger. =.= Rawr. Oh well, at least I got free drinks. Lol. So I guess i'm not that "guai" now anyway. I sure there must be many tarnished impression of me now. =[ Sorry to diappoint you all.(Oh no, I'm thirsty now. Am I becoming an alcoholic? -Gasp-) Later we played guessing games to finish the leftovers and I was shivering so badly cos it was cold...it was raining, and I drank a 2 glasses of ice water too. I lost a lot of times. =[ We dared Colin to drink a mixture of our drinks. Should be called Lime Sex on the Lagoon. =D Its green. And it tasted pretty good. Lol. Haven't been to Orchard in a while. We went to look at the NS fair outside NA City and took some fun pics. Will upload when Candice sends me the pictures. Know how people like to take pictures in mirror? Today we did that in the Meritus Hotel (I think, didn't check where we were) and I tried the classic look-at-me-in-the-toilet-mirror! shot. If you every are on the lookout for hot cars, check outside hotels. One helluva sweet Lambo. ^^ Old guy and the cone spoils the pic. =.= Remember from last year? Around the same place too. Another hot car. [Oops I spent 50 mins blogging. Will go mug now.]
Finally a short day. Xiwen saw my emo shoes today! Lol. Class as usual, but in the morning they announced we'd be getting back our PW results! Uber-yayness! As soon as everyone's lesson was over, they all rushed down to check, and I GOT YAY FOR PW YAY!!! ^.^ Lol. Our class did pretty well....no Cs at all, but all As and a few Bs. We got back to GP class where Conrad claimed all the credit. =] Spent CLB lesson chatting, smsing, and doing the silly paper 1...=[ Then went straight home to relax, played some Silkroad. Lol. Will be doing work tomorrow, and maybe going out with others. Hmm...nothing much...some random pics. itune inside. Cute. I was very hungry in Math. Something burning outside school. I bet its the souls of slackers. I got a pic of xiwen wearing my specs but I won't put it up in case she doesn't want. Ahaha...
Today was tiring indeed. Finally got back my econs paper. After that did NAPFA. 5 items were ok but screwed my 2.4. Ugh. It's my weakest item. Now I have to undergo another shitty day next week in the retest...due to the 2.4, missed recess but wasn't really hungry until later. Then I got really hungry. Luckily compass ended earlier so I could grab some stuff. Went to do my Chem remedial work in the library. (-yawn- I'm feeling very sleepy now.) After we left the library the storm started to rage.
Love this kind of weather. Cool and windy and dark. Great for relaxing or sleeping...or emoing. Then the tempest broke, and MJ was lashed with rain, the sky a solid mass of ironclad clouds. Fickle gusts of wind flung rain into shelters, and I realised I still had training later. Met BenQ and some J1s, waited for the rain to slacken before going for training.
Training was so-so, performed average. Release was nicer today. Maybe because I had a point to prove. Well, team placing was announced. And I'm in team 3. Great. Brilliant. I'm not saying its bad or that the others there have lower capabilities. Just that when 7/9 of the J2 are in team 1 and 2...it's like so fucked up. Just plain shitty. This wasn't something I liked to hear after having gone through a long exhausting day being starved and thristy and with extra lessons. Sigh. I was kinda pissed by it all but I tried not to get affected by it during training becuase it wouldn't be fair to the others. I pretended to be unaffected by it at all, I felt so effed up on the bus ride home. Just stoned all the way there silently while Shawn and Terence talked. I suppose my invitational score screwed me up. Frick. So what if I got 171? He must have been afraid that I'd crack under pressure like in the comp. Truth is, I was fighting it already. Fighting it hard. It's not easy to clap and cheer with the rest which everyone is scoring so well and the pressure is on to keep up. At some point, the gap becomes so great that it becomes almost like a physical weight. But I did fight it. And I won. I felt I did and I didn't let the pressure or stress get the better of me. But it didn't show in my score! Nothing! Accuracy was down to shit, which I only picked up in the last game. Sigh. Academics, screwed up, CCA, same. Doesn't anything ever work right anymore? This totally feels like shit. I really feel damn disappointed now. Nothing much ever goes right for me. Even if the team placings are not finalized, it doesn't make much of a difference, does it? How do I suddenly increase my score by like 30 points in two weeks. I'm just being realistic. The feeling of being screwed over is not a good one. I don't know what to say but it feels like everything is all going wrong. Walked home and took my MP3 player to unheard of levels, literally. I hate this shit. Sigh. It's like I have nothing to aim for. Everything's gone.
And something more weird? We got 5th for the invitational, and Conrad insists that we announce. What the-? C'mon its just 5th place. And Azzy asked Derrick to do the announcement, and he asked me to accompany him on stage. =.= Why ask a member to do something like this? Furthermore, I'm in team 3, you asking me to do this its like asking me to kindly please stick a fork in my eye. It's unusual to say the least. I have nothing against her at all, but the way they're handling this is weird. I would have expected at least the guy or girls cap to go up and do the dirty deed. And I have yet to design the CCA tee. All I can do is to try my best now. And pray for a miracle. Hah. If they ever do happen, they hardly do to me. Feeling like shit now. Team 3. With HIM inside. The yakkety-yak one. How's a guy suppossed to bowl properly with osme idioit making lame jokes and constantly talking? And he doesn't ever get the hint that people don't feel like talking to him, or that enough is enough. Well, at least I get to train my mental game. And my computer is screwing up on me bad. NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT! DC, MSN crash, Windows crash, Internet crash, WTH is going on? This is stupid. Feel damn sian now. Luckily I copied this post over cause everything was unresponsive and I had to use the keyboard only. Now my internet is crazy. And I nearly lost this long post. Zzz. Everything is going down the drain today and I only have 1 question. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?
Boom! Another early post. Will not be visting or tagging many blogs today, so those who get a tag, lucky you! On these days I blog fastr and early so I will not be distracted. =P I have Chem SPA trial tomorrow. Bleahs, as they would say. Haven't studied. =[ I also have NAPFA tomrrow, and extra chem lesson till 415 and also training after school. If I'm not dead tired after that I must be invincible or something.
Have yet to do econs or math hw too. Spent last night rushing out Bio SPA which everyone was copying today. Hardly enough time cause I returned home so late after training. At least it paid off when I slacked while everyone was copying. =] Still...unfinished hw is not good anyway. I also want my econs test paper back. ^^ Did some memorisation of Paper 1 today. =.= He says we can read the next lesson but I don't trust him a single bit. Tomorrow is gonna be a very tiring lesson. Side note: Have oyu ever seen a 5 litre beaker? Wahahaha its like z0mg! o_O
Was still very tired today. I'm doing this before my tuition at 8pm so I'll have time to chiong my homework later. Sigh. With Chem remedials, homework increasing, 3 training sessions at Changi and tuition once a week, the stuff is starting to pile up. I have yet to find a decent time or place to catch up on sleep. I slept in Math tutorial. Math tutorial, for goodness sake. Another first. I have felt sleepy but never really gave myself up to sleep in a tutorial session. Until today. Ugh. I kept dozing off on the bus too. Finally got my hair cut. My fringe was long enough to keep irritating my eyes, but not long enough to avoid them totally.
Hooray, tomorrow's a short day so I got extra time to do homework. But my tuition ends at 10pm...and I have Chem remedial too. Sigh. Oh yeah, I got 76% for my CLB block test wahahaha...^^ Must be cause I'm one of those borderline fail Chinese sucks people. Hmm...I'm considering wearing my emo shoes and socks back to IMH next week. I have no idea how long it's gonna last, but I do know some people aren't happy with going back. Too bad majority voted for it.
Today just slacked at the benches outside our class for 2nd break. Trying to waste time for paper 1 test. =.= I did the question "The mark of an enlighted society is the manner in which it treats its weakest members. Discuss." Or something like that. I put a :( face beside my name, date, title, the question, my last sentence, and wrote "P.S. Please don't fail me! :(" in pencil behind my script. I can only pray hard I pass. I asked to be exempt from the 30-mark pass level, and to be returned to the 28-mark pass one, but he refused. =[
I have no capability to do well. It only makes me have to do more drafts to hit that level. So much for reading in class. But I'm not bringing any new books though. I will not risk Brother Odd's spine being broken between his hands. Poor Catch-22. I have learnt my lesson. I prefer my books in pristine condition and in good hands, thank you very much. Ok, off to prepare for tuition. I can't do a single D.E. question. Am I dead or what?
Gah. Was so sleepy in school today. I totally gave in and went to sleep willingly in bio lecture. Or tried to. 1st time I didn't resist sleeping in lectures. But somehow I still didn't sleep. Must be the cramped position or something. Anyway, no PE today, so had 2 free periods. Watched 300 in the library with Ben, Galvyn, and XW. Was cool. Lol. Ben thought he saw the librarian looking during the sex scene. =X And his sister and brother watched the DVD before too.
Was damn tired the whole day. Bus to school was retarded cos it seemed as though it had virtually no shock absorbers at all. Felt like I was vibrating to school on a giant handphone. =.= Annoying and uncomfortable. Did I mention Conrad is damn clever? First he told us those who passed his memorisation test would be able to read their books last Monday. On that day he gave us our scripts and everyone got distracted and forgot. Pah. =[
Training was ok. I performed quite decent today. Too bad couldn't have been that way yesterday. Wrist hurts even more after training. =[ Went straight home to sleep. I simply couldn't wait for the day to end. Just wanna get away from my class. Not that I dislike my class or anything, there are some nice people there. But some of them...I just can't stand them. They make me want to get away from it all. Often feel like doing something to them. Something painful and drawn-out, and preferably involving a lot of blunt rusty metal equipment and lots of rope. These people are the reason kids in America bring guns to school...damn. I wish I had a gun. =]
I know you don't like me. You know what? You can kiss my sweet candy ass cause I don't give a flying fuck. Bitch. Oops. To call you bitch would be an insult to all female canines out there. To request that you perform a back cross with your F1 parent generation would be a torture to them. All you do is sail along in your neat little bubble of lies and deceit. You treat people you like or need help from all fine and dandy, and you treat people you dislike like shit. I don't even know what I did to you, and I don't care. Because all I'm doing is waiting and ignoring your puerile attempts to insult or take potshots at me. Waiting for karma to bite you on the ass when you're not looking. And then when you're down, I'll be the first one laughing. Standing over you and laughing. Maybe a few well-deserved kicks when you're down. It wouldn't be too low for you. No, it wouldn't at all. I've simply been holding back just becuase you're a girl. And you use that to your advantage to just use your sharp claws. Your ego probably has its own gravitational field, and your attitude problem is the size of a couple of solar systems. You're just lucky they haven't seen you for who you are. Its not just words too. Pushing some used plates to slam into my file? Are you childish or are you just retarded? As they would say, this kinda of thing you also wanna do? The only tools you know how to use in life are your fantastic ass-licking to climb up the ladder, and your repulsive attitude to step on others you can use. Check with your PW group. Right now, only 5 of us see you and despise you for who you truly are. But 5 of is us 20% of the class. Just wait and see. You may have the rest of the class ensnared in your illusions, but when they the full extent of your fucked up attitude problem, then they'll truly know. I think a doorknob has more EQ than you. [UPDATE] I am highly regretful for what I just typed. I think I just wasted 20 mins of my life on typing about "it". =[ Oh well, what's done is done. =] Ok,never mind.
On a LIGHTER note... (pun intended, watch the video!) Here's the latest episode of MJ Mythbusters. Urban Legend: MJ uniform is fire-resistant.
Myth: Confirmed. I can just envision the Summer '07 line of Firemens' fashion, the incredibly hip and trendy fire-resistant MJ uniform.
Today was the TPJC invitational. I wasted my money. The only decent score I got was 171. Oh, and my scores are all independent of each other, so getting 171 doesn't mean the rest of my games were good. Today was just not my day. Very tired so I'll go do my homework now.
[UPDATE] Hmm. I injured my wrist. I was doing my thermochem exercise 2 and I kept doing and doing this question which seems very easy but somehow I couldn't get it. I didn't want to copy tomorrow cause I wanted to try and finish as much of this as possible by myself. (I admit I can be very stubborn sometimes...)I was very tired, I was getting very frustrated as to why I couldn't get it, and it was a long day, so I went to punch my pillow. (I seldom do this actually...) In Fruedian psychology, this process is known as transference. And I punched it with my left hand.
The hand which has actually been slightly injured the past few weeks from bowling, but which I said nothing about because it didn't hurt a lot. It didn't affect my bowling, but the pain came from moving my wrist in a certain way or another afterwards. See, the style I play is sometimes not encouraged due to the huge amounts of strain that it exerts on your wrist. After a prolonged period of time, it can actually screw your joint up. Badly. Well, I suppose the increased training helped me to make it worse. And thanks to what I just did I limited my wrist's mobility even more. I hope it doesn't affect training tomorrow. I'm not sure. But compeititon's 2 months away. And my wrist still hurts. I tried to do push ups but my wrist hurts. Sigh. Probably can't do it during PE tomorrow. I want to sleep. Now.
Some screenshots of my past few visits to Silkroad. [Today's long post below...just keep scrolling...] VS Giant Devil Bug In the distance is this freakin' big mob of bugs. o_O Hello? Where's my drink? I ordered a Coke®. 1st time I've seen these stall decorations. Kinda cute. =] Crystal Wall The way these soldiers die is not a pretty sight. Heheh. Blood spray. =S In the process of total pWnag3, a double zerk tag team on a giant devil bug. Cerb's dog taking on 1 Giant Chakji, 1 Chakji, and 2 Devil Bugs. By itself. Solo giant =] I'm a trader! o_o o_O Freeze! I completed my trade run! ^^
Completed my 2nd trade run today. I am slightly richer. Which is lucky cause I am like freakin broke. And I died again on my 2nd try. It's complicated but there's always this stupid combination of factors that gets me killed. Utter suayness. After that I felt damn sian so I just logged off and went online and played Rammstein. Damn idiotic. Waste my money again.
Anyway today was our CIP at IMH. Was a pretty hot day. Wish I hadn't worn black. =.= Managed to find out how to get there. I understand that the place has gone through a makeover to make it more appealing. And it looks pretty ok from the outside. In fact it looks kinda like a resort or club. Trimmed lawns, flowers, an air of peace. But inside its different. I understand some people feel they have gone through a life-changing experience after visiting IMH. I also am not trying to scare people, nor am I telling them to suscribe to the usual IMH stereotype. It is not. I don't want to discourage anyone from volunteering there, this is just a personal account of my experiences as I saw them. But...the place could use a little government money. The main exterior is ok, looks like some hospital. After a talk, we went to our ward where we were supposed to visit the patients and interact with them, and play games.
The walk there was quite a distance. The place is actually pretty big. Some areas were dim and deserted with doors leading off into strange and unknown places. We passed a heritage garden when was kinda interesting with bit and chunks of what I think was the old IMH building. One problem. These consisted of a concrete chunk with what looked like a cell door, some small windows with grilles, and what looked like thick pipes embedded in concrete. And some other chunks of stuff.
When I entered the ward, I was a bit unsettled. Not all of the people there are so-called crazy. Some are basically ok, and at most eccentric. But the atmosphere was so gloomy and depressing...maybe they just don't have the kind of money hospitals do, and I understand that, but the place has a cloud over it. A nurses station, timed auto locking doors(I suspect), puke green vinyl cushions on wooden chairs. A small television, VCD player, tables and lot and lots of chairs. Grilles over all the windows, and some murals of a lake, swans, and greenery. Somehow they further contributed to the institutionalised feel of the place. I wish someone would come along and brighten the place up. A while after we came in, someone tried to hit Diana.
This guy who was sleeping in a corner woke up, went behind her and raised his hand like he wanted to hit her. A few of us saw, but we were in a group of which Diana was outside and I think it was too fast for us to do anything. We were kinda suffering from culture shock. Then he made as if he wanted to hit her with his elbow and shuffled back into his corner. Diana didn't realise what had just happened.Then we kept hearing yelling and screaming from the inside of the room, which was pretty disturbing. Especially after we just entered.
Later after signing in and surrendering our handphones, we went to the tables to help out with the games. Some of them put on a karaoke VCD which consisted of old chinese songs and footage of western women. =S I noticed some of the patients have to be tied down to the chairs. Later they carted the yelling guy out when he started again...Half the time you couldn't get what they were saying so we just smiled and nodded our heads. I played a lot of table tennis with this quiet guy who was darn good at it. Haha. Ben did also. That guy kept playing for very long. o_O Then there was another guy who kept koping candy from us. Lol. Sweets are the prizes for the games.
Then there was this Indian guy in a blue t-shirt who like to stand behid girls. Like He would quietly move behind them and go right up behind them. He did this to a few of them, so they were quite wary of him. I have to say Diana was really a totally great person today. She interacted with a lot of the patients, even the blue guy. Some of the girls thought she was really brave. Lol. Some people are built of pure good and Diana is one of them. Not like the rest of us. Sometimes she's too good for her own sake though. =S
And there was this guy who came to a group of us who said something incomprehensible. We "huh?"ed and then later he said something like do you all like cancer? no right? Then I just said ya, no, and he walked off "ya you all won't like cancer.." or something like that. Oh, but he's nothing compared to the guy in a yellow shirt. Geri said he started a conversation with her about her shirt which had the devil's name on it and the number 666 on the back.
Afterwards, he kept staring at her face. Apparently according to her, he wasn't like normal guys in that he kept staring at her face only, nowhere else. o_O And he was doing it throughout the entire thing so she tried to avoid him. I think she was seriously creeped out by the whole thing. His behavior was already kind of eccentric. And you know what? I thought he was a patient. Later he took the same lift down as us, and waited at the same bus stop as us.
Then he asked us if we were the poeple from MJ and gave a long monologue about the benefits and joys of volunteering. The strange thing is, a usual person would probably feel akward trying to start a conversation with something like close to 20 strangers, some of which are ignoring him, much less give a monologue. Some of us closer to me (Diana, Ben ,me) just smiled and nodded. The others ignored him and carried on talking. Geri was surrounded by Edison, Chris, Dan, and Gladys in a small circle around her. The yellow guy went behind them and stood VERY close between Edison and Chris, listening to their conversation, and staring at Geri.
Later Geri was going to the nearest MRT station to go to town, and I sugggested Sengkang, cos Buangkok was kinda remote. So, I just said that 156 terminated at Sengkang MRT, and she asked to go with us. Then came 109, and I said that goes to Compass Point too. And she said something like then can we take 109 too please please please? ANd I figured that guy really did freak her out badly. The thing is actually 159,159,109 all terminate at/reach Compass Point, and since a few of us are headed there too, so its ok. However, she was even more freaked out when she realised that 43 (which the guy's taking) stopped at the same stop as us. Oh yeah and he's about the same age as us, maybe older by a few years.
Later Geri, Ben, Syahida, and me dropped off at CP, and we waited for her to top up her card, before she entered the MRT, and the 3 of us went for dinner at BK. (I was dman hungry and thirsty by then)Syahida went to walk about, Ben and I went to buy some long pants (black) for my com tomorrow. My sec sch pants are still wearable but a bit too small. Zzz. What a waste of money. Basically I only foresee using it for 'A' divs and maybe prom night. Oh did I mention? We;re going back to IMH in a fortnight. Cheers.
Only last night did was I reminded that by missing school I actually didn't get the chance to take my econs results. And guess wad? Jocelyn reminded me, and she knew my results but had to keep me in suspense. Bleah. Lol. So...in the end I got 4/20 for essay. =[ Oh wait, it gets better. I got 21/30 for Case study, so over I scraped a pass. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FINALLY YES I pass a major economics test for the first time in 1 year and 4 months! I passed econs! WHEEEEEEE!!!
Supposedly Sabby was saying I did so badly in essay but scored so well in case study to make up for it. I got lucky. I seem to get killed a lot in eessay...sigh. If I could work of them to be the same standard as the other sections, I might have gotten a...C? Not sure...about 60% or so. And Aaron Tan also said they those who got E and above were on the right track so I hope I can maintain this, and preferably improve on it. The verdict for chem is that it can be seen that I did put in effort to study, just that I didn't memorise hard enough. =[ SO now my weakestt subject is math. I can't do a single DE question in my tuition homework. I am so dead tomorrow.
Oh, and I can't go for the IMH cip tomorrow, so I have to go on the 21st because I already have osmething on. The problem is that my stuff has to be cut short due to tuition being at 8pm sigh...spent my day playing Silkroad lol. 23 now....but Shawn is some kind of Silkroad freak...mad chiongster...25 and counting...lol
Thursday, April 05, 2007,
4/05/2007 11:15:00 PM
Got on the bus and realised I didn't bring my PE stuff. =.= Den as I walked back I noticed the last bus leaving so I knew I'd be late. Oh, and as I was getting off, this flood of people came up the steps, barring my way, and the bus driver shot off without stopping when I pressed the bell and I had to walk two stops back...then suddenly I didn't feel well so I deided I might as well stay home today. Slept for a few more hours, went out for breakfast with the folks, stayed at home. Later left for training, was so-so. Wasn't up to standard. Have to do better on Sunday. Went for dinner with Shawn and Jasmine, then home. Hardly any of my friends were going. LAst I got a msg saying our IMH CIP was on saturday...=.= And I can't make it... And there's the TPJC invitational on Sunday too. Oh yeah, finally some pics on my blog osme are from Wed. The blurry LT pics are cause of this slide that says "Policies designed to shit the long run..." literally. Lol. My emo shoes make their first appearance. My, what big bananas you have.o_O While walking home at like close to 10pm, I enter the lift lobby to be confronted with the demonic visage one one of Hades' foulest, glowering at me. No, it wasn't the soul of a lawyer. It hung there, scaring the shit of out me. Well, ok I was just just startled. But I DO NOT appreciate coming home at night and being warmly welcomed by the leering face of a digitally de-enhanced ( is there such a word? I can't think of anything else.) woman looking as though she'd just downed a mug of Hell's warmest brew. Yecch. I thus concur the government's latest anti-smoking campaign is a covert campaign to terrorise the old folks of our beautiful land into induced heart attack, reducing the numbers of those 50 and above. Aging population? Kill the aged, problem solved, no? Lol. Kidding.
Phone's back and better than new. Namely cause I requested the sfotware upgrade. =D School was ok...I found out I screwed my Bio essay which yanked me down from C to D. Bah. =[ Luckily they calculated wrongly...I thought was C to E...=X I'm like that, always have been in secondary school. I do fantastically for Section B structured, get something decent for Section A MCQ, and get killed off by my essay. 3/20. I really must try to work harder on that. When B is doing so well, it really is a darn wasted to get killed by my essay. I'm not a born mugger, so I can't really puke as well as those people. Never get involved in a puking contests with muggers. They'd win you hands down. OR rather, pens down. =] Sigh...I got 40/64 for Section B too...A needs improvment cos I only got 18/35. When Bio is probably my best subject now, I need to make sure I can maintain or increase these grades.
Still haven't gotten back econs yet. I dunno wad the econs dept is doing! C'mon la...how many weeks has it been since we took the paper? GP's already back...Maybe we'll get it tomorrow. =.= Training was ok I guess. I'm going to be pretty busy for the next few days. GOing home tml to change and to dump my school stuff since I'll be going for the Movie Marathon for fun straight after training...lol. Then our seniors are going to Sentosa on Fri morning, but I probably won't be able to make it...lol
Spend friday chionging any HW or gaming, then Sat outing with my transplanted Chingay Group, haha...and then TPJC bowling invitational on Sun, so I have to cancel tuition. Anyway, gotta go finish up my Chem now and do Econs...zzz
Well. I got paper 2 back. Amazingly, the class did quite decent. For the whole level. Which means while the average was 18, most of us got 20+. Some even got 35. Like Galvyn, Prince of GP, Light unto the Nations. Cheers, man. Haha. Well as for me, I got 24.5. Which means an overall pass. A scraped pass. Better than a fail, but still...I don't understand how I could have screwed up so terrifically.
I suppose I'm just lucky to have passed. Oh well. What's done is done. =\ Today seemed like a freakin long day to me...so tiring...on the bright side, CLB teacher didn't come! ^^ SO I hung about the classroom with Ben and Xiwen who was taking hber Lit exam. I made his blue dolphin and her little turtle keychains, er, mate. Breaking several pre-zygotic barries into little bits along the way. (J2 bio joke. =P) I find the little very cute and squuezeable. It took a lot of self control to keep from squeezing all the stuffing out of it. =D
Went to Tamp to collect my phone at 4. conicidentally saw Galvyn, Danson, Chris, Edison, Val, Doris, Syahida outside the MRt. o_o Lol. They were going to look at designs for the class tee. I took quite a while to get my phone back (forgot to bring battery =.=) joing Dan, Chris, Edison for a meal before going home. Was so stoned on the bus I kept dozing off and leaning onto the person beside me. =.= Hooray, short day tomorrow with CCA. Work is piling up faster than you can say "Ready, set, MUG!"
-Chem Tuto -Chem Ex -Math Tuto -Bio Tuto -Math Tuition Homework On the bright side, I only spent 15 mins blogging. Yay! More time to mug!
I failed GP. (Oh and by the way, April Fools' is over.) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Seek not the meaning of life, for there is none. -=[K]=-
I have nothing to say. I don't know what to say. Ha-ha. Brilliant. How about a tasteful selection of quotes? Conrad: "...and the big surprise, Kenneth Ang, fail." --- Danson: "How much did you get? Me: "Do you not see how I bleed? Words cannot express the full extent of the sorrow I feel deep within me." --- Conrad: "Maybe you can read out what went wrong with your paper, Kenneth." Danson: "Sir, do you not see how he bleeds?" Me: "Yeah you're poking around inide my open wound...[reads]" Conrad: "I have no idea what you have just said." Me: "..."
Fantastic. So this is the way it turns out? To think I was happy at getting a posible C for Bio. We don't know our Paper 2 yet, but the average is 18 marks. So I know I am going to fail. Don't try to tell me otherwise. I KNOW I WILL FAIL GP regardless if I haven't got my paper 2. I know it. I WILL FAIL. Ha. I once read a quote from Jeffrey Archer that ran along these lines: "I always think of the worst, so that whenever anything good happens, I'll be pleasantly surprised." That's just the way it is now. If by some miracle I pass, it will not be any effort of mine. Not at all. It will probably be the pity of the teachers, or maybe the divine providence of The Powers Above that see fit to cut some slack for my blighted half-dead cadaver. Thoroughout the entire day I kept feeling random cold waves that made me shiver...stuff I only experience during a severe emo bout. =S
23/50. Yeah, the passing mark is 22.5, but to me its a fail. I know some people did worse too. I can sympathise. The reason I'm feeling like shit over all of this is the fact that GP was the only subject EVER I knew I could count on 100% (well, not 100% now) to give me a decent grade. And now? When I fail GP, Math and Chem, (haven't received econs), what will they do to me? WHAT WILL THEY DO TO ME? It G-effing-P for goodness' sake. Sigh. I don't know what to think now. Disgusted? The closest would be disappointed. The only person to blame for this is me. My friend told me my marker was his teacher who was very lenient. Great. There you have it. I brought this upon myself. I totally feel like crap. When the only subject I ever had confidence in has been besmirched by this, where can I turn to? My grades are nonsense. U chem U math. Now I fail GP, everything is just gone. Shattered. All that ever was, swept away in an instant, a phantasmagorical wind, illusory, there and never there. I don't know what I'm typing now.
I know maybe some people think I'm blowing this matter up and that I'm being so selfish when there are other who did worse. If I feel like shit over that, then they must feel worse. I'm not trying to belittle their feelings or anything. I know they probably feel worse or are even coping better than I am. It's just that this comes as a great blow to me. And I'm disappointed. So disappointed. At myself. Finito.
Today I really went and cut myself. I really did. I dunno why I did it. Sigh. Maybe its cos of personal problems, or maybe its cos of my results or whatever. I can't think...I've been so distracted the whole day. I already got U for math and U for chem. I'm not sure what else I might get next. I live in fear of Monday. Sigh. It sounds weird, and you may think people who cut themselves are stupid, but perhaps you've never experienced it yourself. It's just...intolerable. And it was deceptively simple. I took that piece of plastic, that plaque that stood there every hour of every day, mocking me, mocking me. I felt I really didn't deserve it with such absymal GP grades. Tarnished. Just grabbed it when noone was looking, and locked the door to me room, then I used it. Just stuck in it hard and drew a long line down my arm. Immediately a thin red line began to appear. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Whywhywhywhywhywhywhy??? ARGHHHHH!!! I simply couldn't take it much longer. It seems like the world was totally nuts. And in the fog of pain, I realised why I was doing this...it just came to me...
it was April fool's day.
Sorry!!! Is this too harsh? Don't hurt me! =[ If you really got offended by this I'm really sorry. =X Let be friends again. I don't mean anything by it. Seriously.
-=[K]=- Complexity. says: back [M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says: haha [M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says: welcome welcome -=[K]=- Complexity. says: I was crying cos... [M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says: dont cry anymore 'kae? it swollens your eyes -=[K]=- Complexity. says: it was April's fool's day! [M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says: ... [M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says: o.O [M.A.G.E.] Chupa Chups! "I climbed the Mount Everest!" says: *beat
Ok, I have to admit it was kinda mean. =X But I couldn't resist, sorry...lol. I came up with that on the spot as I was logging off to install evo for WLM. Haha...Nothing much today...about to finish my poor battered Catch-22 =.=, sent my phone to Nokia General Hospital. Couldn't find a convenient Starbucks so sipped an Iced Milo at the food court and stoned a while before my turn. I think they shuold make a drama series called NGH. It'll be very popular. The drama, the excitement, the quarrels, the fights, yelling, shouting, the dead and dying phones they fight to save. I think Nokia should hire a bouncer at every Hospital to protect the staff there.
First there was this guy shouting about the closing time cos he came too late and they stopped taking in customers after 4 or so. Then later this guy was shouting at the service staff, (I think he thought his SIM card was with them, when in fact they return the SIM card to you every time its admitted into NGH. You get its soul and its heart, leaving the body and brain to them.)telling her NOT TO ASSUME YOU SAID I WAS ASSUMING I DIDNT ASSUME YOU ARE THE ONE ASUMING NOT ME I WANT YOU TO APOLOGISE TO ME NOW APOLOGISE Z0MFG J00 BIATCH FUKEN APOLOGISE OR I AM GOING T3H BLOW YUOR N00BY SHIET HEAD OFF LOLOL N00B PWN3D BIATCH!!!!!!!!111 Obviously this guy is not an economist. For one thing, he can't assume...poor thing. For one thing, I hate these people. They think they can take it out on the service staff just cause they've had a bad day or cause they're the customers.
C'mon. They're human too, like you and me. Yet these people treat them like they're lower than us, or machines, demanding they apologise like some 7 year old kid. They're not the malfunctioning Coke machine you can kick, or the broken phone you can whack. They have to have incredible patience and tolerance. You may be upset, but these people are trying to do their job. The only way I'll be rude to an employee is when they show me bad attitude first. Oh yeah. Check this out.
April 1, 2007 Three faces of the China student: EXAM TOPPER Help! There's a China student in my class. The presence of these kids in schools has raised the bar for local students. Should Singaporeans be worried? Ho Ai Li and Vincent Leow report
LU YUN, an only child, came to Singapore from Beijing when her engineer mother was posted here six years ago. Her father is a researcher based in China. Then 12, she joined Yuhua Primary as a Primary 5 pupil but transferred to Grade 8, equivalent to Secondary 2 here, at the Canadian International School six months later. A year later, she transferred to Secondary 3 at the Singapore Chinese Girls' School because the fees were lower.
The former Raffles Junior College triple science student plays the flute and electone, and was among this year's top A-level students. She was recently awarded a Government of Singapore Investment Corporation (GIC) scholarship and plans to further her studies in the United States.
O levels: 9A1s, A2 for English
A levels: Four As - for Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Maths; Distinctions for 3 'S' papers; A1 for General Paper
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'When I first came, my English was quite poor. I could only say, "How are you?" and could not speak fluently. I memorised a student dictionary for six months and recited passages from my English textbooks. After you overcome the English barrier, everything becomes easier.'
[Z0MFG PWNZ0R!!!!!!!!!!!111]
April 1, 2007 Three faces of the China student: NON-SCHOLAR
LIN XIANG, 22, from Fujian, now a business student at the National University of Singapore (NUS), arrived here in 1999 and entered Secondary 1 at First Toa Payoh. His mother, a manager, spent more than a year's income, or 100,000 yuan ($20,000), to send her only child here for studies as she was impressed with Singapore after a visit. And that was only for his first year of studies.
He stayed in a hostel while his mother and father, a senior administrative officer in a school, remained in China.
Lin got zero for his first English test but that did not stop him from topping his school in the O levels.
He moved on to Nanyang Junior College and then NUS. He gives tuition five days a week and has taken out a tuition loan to help pay his way.
O levels: 4A1s, 2A2s and C5 for English
A levels: 2As for Biology and Maths and 2Bs for Physics and Chemistry; B3 for GP
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'The Singapore education system is quite similar to China's in terms of of level of stress. But classes in Singapore are much smaller and that makes my results stand out more.'
[OMGWTFBBQPWNSAUCE]
April 1, 2007 Three faces of the China student: SCHOLAR
LI XIAYU, 16, was on the fast track back home. The student at Jiangxi Number 1 Middle School was in a special class which allowed students to complete three years of secondary school in two. But when Temasek Junior College came to her school and offered her a scholarship three years ago, she jumped at the chance to see the world.
Here, she's onto another accelerated path, joining the college's Integrated Programme (IP), which allows her to bypass the O levels. Now a third-year IP student, equivalent to JC1, she has gone on trips to Malaysia with the Outward Bound School and is a member of the science council. She is an only child and her parents are teachers.
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'When I came here, I was only 13. I didn't think of much else besides studying. But I have become more matured and disciplined now. I've also become more tolerant.'
[LOLOLOL UB3R 1337 PWN-hey wait! Er, no offense (seriously!) but if you "didn't think of much else besides studying.", how do you "become more matured and disciplined now"? Is there another z0mfgwtfbbq omg uber 1337 pwnz0r unattainable uber high level that transends the plane of muggerism? If So I want to be the first Singaporean to-oh wait. I can't. Hang on...it this is published on April 1, does that mean...? Hmm...
VS Giant Devil Bug
In the distance is this freakin' big mob of bugs. o_O
Hello? Where's my drink? I ordered a Coke®.
1st time I've seen these stall decorations. Kinda cute. =]
Crystal Wall
The way these soldiers die is not a pretty sight.
Heheh.
Blood spray. =S
In the process of total pWnag3, a double zerk tag team on a giant devil bug.
Cerb's dog taking on 1 Giant Chakji, 1 Chakji, and 2 Devil Bugs. By itself.
Solo giant =]
I'm a trader!
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Freeze!
I completed my trade run! ^^
