Yet another gruelling day. Stayed back after school to paste the posters for the interhouse bowling games. Please go people...I don't wanna see it fall through after all the effort (and ink) I put into publicity...Its $10 but its cheaper than the usual rates already...


Everyone doesn't wanna spend money, its a miracle there are still bowlers out there. I ask people to go but I know the chances are bleak. Hardly anyone will want to "pay so much for a few games", which is the most common excuse reason. Never mind. If anyone really wants to go then please do. If not, I can't force people to do what they don't want. I just hope it doesn't turn out to be a flop.


Made a royal screwup in today's SPA trial. I messed up the second experiment and everything went to pot. I "selectively corrected" the results, which turned out to be pretty obvious but...I didn't have enough time...


I am not where I should be...
50 registration forms and 20 odd posters later...?

Was playing MU and doing Bio concept maps earlier...finally got my reset...something wrong ith Mu, lets hope it'll be fixed soon.


These were the pictures I've been meaning to post a few days ago when the weather suited my mood




So, there they are. Oh well, back to bio then...

If love were like sexual reproduction in bacteria; life would be...interesting.
(Bio students. Think F pilus.)

Damn JC life. Because of the workload, I have been unable to finish reading the books I have bought. Not only that, Me playing MU, afk or otherwise also saps loads of time away, so my work's half done (will try to complete all tomorrow)


And I haven't gotten a cape in MU yet. Along with the strange fact I can't use some of my skills Anyway, I've been stuck at the first third of Gorky Park for so long and I've still got the 3rd book my Martin Cruz Smith waiting for me. Throw in Part 1 of Jeffrey Archer's Prison Diary...


It really is very irritating, but if I play MU I gotta make up for it with work so...its like 4 stories. I don't know when (if ever) I'll complete them, with promos coming and all. I can't wait to start on Jeffrey Archer. The beginning's riveting.


That lack of time and the troublesome method I am forced to use to move pics from my phone also make me less willing to do so...I shall try tomorrow if time permits. I can't keep procrastinating...


I shall leave you with this.

Spent the whole day playing MUonline. Gonna work for almost the entire day tomorrow(of course!) to make it up. Already sorted out the due work. Only planned the timetable halfway.


Gotta remember the WR too. Maybe will bring the laptop out so we can all work on it. Managed to hit level 218 for the Dark Lord with equipped Dark Raven and Dark Horse..muahahaha. And level 220 for the Soul Master.


Finally being able to play this game its a great relief, after trying out so many different private servers. I finally get to experience the satisfaction of the marvellous effects in this game...if...I can just upload this...

Goody.
Pretty tired now, so will upload the pictures taken on Thursday tomorrow. =\ The latest mrbrown podcast is hilarious..hahaha

Sometimes, I feel that life has gotten to a stage where it sucks so much, it isn't even fun to say life sucks anymore. Was going to create a emo/depressing/angsty/i-hate-life blogskin, but remembered I have bio test tomorrow, so I'm gonna go study bio then.


Why do things happen the way they are? The hardest part is when you have no answer. You sit and agonise over it day after day, and all it does it tear you apart inside over and over again. Life isn't perfect; but why does it have to be so painful?


If the world were to end right here and now; I probably wouldn't give a damn since it would offer a relief from the pain within.


*Took some photos. Will upload them tomorrow.

Another day. What can I say? Did more memorising in GP. And I managed to get the level 3 memorising correct on the first try. Conrad said to beware of such people, their minds are sharp because they often revise. (Ninja mugger hint)


*Gasp* Me? A silent/ninja mugger? Pfft. You must be kidding. If I were a silent mugger would I have gotten 17.5 points and 3 Us for my exams? Puh-leaze. Haha. Not a snowball's chance in hell am I one. Look, I blog everyday and go on MSN.


Plus, I always chat for so long, and do lots of stuff online, AND I've just figured out the problem with my MUonline game, so I can play it now. Anyway, with all this stuff, I better be working hard too.


OR I'm gonna be sooo dead during promos. Everyday after I go home, I sort out my stuff and start doing as much work as possible, stopping when I'm tired. SO hopefully that will help do. I mean, if doing homework doesn't help you to learn, why do they ask you do it still? =\


I'd better start scoring better...or else...=\


The way people "fear" muggers, including those of the silent variety is pretty amusing. I am highly tempted to write a series of FICTIONAL short stories about this relationship, not unlike an Anne Rice adaptation.(Fine, parody if you will, but I have the utmost respect for her flair in writing.)


This relationship could be likened to that between vampires and humans as described in her books...and I'll be thinking about it...just writing one for fun...hahaha. Anyone who would like to see somthing like that? Leave a tag so I can guage the demand. =P It'll all be purely harmless satire, after all.

A torturously exhausting day is all I have to say. I realised the book review deadline was by end of Sunday at 11pm, and rushed it till 11.53 according to the website clock. Then I stayed on in MSN to chat, ended up sleeping at 1AM.


Managed to grab a total of around 5 hours of sleep...was so tired, it took an extra hard whack from my mother to wake me up instead of the ever reliable gentle tap on my shoulder. Ow.


Was so sleepy on the bus, and not only did I lack sleep, today was ONE OF THE longest days of the week and not to mention the first day of the week. To make things worse I have PE, which isn't exactly gonna boost my energy level.


And let's not forget Chemistry practical later, plus extra Math remedial. Basically my only respite was a quick lunch at recess, and watching 40 minutes of Constantine with the rest in the library.


But that's not all, lets not forget it was upsized with a headache by the end of the day plus extra dull pain in my left knee. SO wiped out, I screwed up both chemistry experiments, and had to do both 2 times.


GP was amusing cause we had to memorise a short passage and reproduce it exactly on the first try. Since I had expected something like this, I had already started reading it at the beginning. Thankfully I managed to get it on the first try. The passage is:


"The mass media should not be held solely responsible for the behaviour of the modern youth. Although it does have a large influence on today's youth, there are several other factors, such as upbringing and genetic pre-disposal, which affect the behaviour of the modern youth."


=P I still remember. Was thankful when I finally got home, intended to sleep early, but didn't =[ Well, the only memorable part was at the study benches after school, doing the Chem SPA manual.


The girls went to squeeze my pig (keychain!) and started playing with it...lol. (Its squeezable, and an aqueous brown sticky solid like glue will pop out of its butt)


Then I told them Diana had squeezed some extra shit out =X during maths lecture, and they attempted to stuff it back with my highlighter. Hahaha. Oh yeah, the chem teacher told me she has on like it at home. Lol. Her sis gave it to her. Looks like my pig is getting to be real popular. It amuses and disgusts(slightly) at the same time. Hehs.

Zzz...yet another dead day...some changes to the posters, so I gotta edit them. Hmm...Did more homework, etc. Tried to download the MU but can't get it to work. Everytime I run the launcher it say I'm disconnected. WTF. I alwyas can't play MU.


The more I can't play it, the more I wanna play it. It made my pentium 4 crash before, now my Pentium 3(second hand) is too laggy to handle it, and this one keeps disconnecting, Aand I can't even uninstall the program properly...

Went to play bowling in the morning. Decent average of 140+, broke my personal best record with 168. I think I'm gonna start playing A LITTLE BIT of MUonline. Shawn's server seems really good. Probably 2 hours a week. Gonna resume all my tutorials tomorrow.


Later he came to me house to discuss the planning for the Interhouse Games. We already came up with a hilarious skit to make the announcement advertising our competition, plus I'm the head of publicity for this, so this should be really interesting.


We tried a grunge one and it turned out pretty good, but they later changed the time and venue, and I didn't save in photoshop format, so had to trash the 1st poster.

So I later made a 2nd grunge poster.

And we shifted some furniture around for a solid background, and voila! After photoshopping. I decided to try silhouetting, and it worked like a charm. Imagine ipod ads with a bowling ball that glows like a lightsabre, and you got this:

Then I decided to design another one, so with another solid background,

And we'll probably be using these 3 for the publicity. Also we're gonna have plenty of application forms printed. Hope lots of people come, after all the effort(and expensive ink!) I put into these posters. Haha.


I've got some videos of us bowling that I took today, but its kinda late now. (1AM) and there's nothing to do online and its gonna take a long time to load everything, so I'll probably leave it till tomorrow after my hw, or next week.


Already was feeling kinda sleepy when I went for dinner with my family. We explored the (new) Hougang Mall and had Gelare for supper. I had a yummy chocolate fudge sundae.


Originally I wanted the waffles, but later found the WAFFLE and topping is $7.20. It does not come with ice cream which you must add $2.50 for. When my sister's waffle came, I half expected it to be encrusted with gold leaf and dust, but sadly this was not so.

Anyway, I got a backlog of stuff to add to my com eg. Interview photos, bowling videos. Plus I haven't even found item to head to the Nokia store to upgrade my phone software. Gonna go post the posters(ha-ha) on the CCA blog and go sleep.

I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the Homecoming Queen
Who almost went on to be Miss Texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breasts
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day


And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished you woulda loved me too


I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did five years and then seven more
Cause I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cause he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cause you ran away
And I wish I would have had the nerve to ask you to stay


And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
almost had you
And I didn't even know it


And you kept me guessing
And now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
I almost wish you woulda loved me too


Here I go thinkin' about all the things I could have done
I'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we had our problems, I can't remember one.


I almost forgot to say something else
And if I can't fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away


And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
almost had you
And I didn't even know it


You kept me guessin'
And now I'm destined
To spend my time missin' you
And I almost had you
Almost had you
Almost had you


I almost wished you woulda loved me too
wished you woulda loved me too


Almost - Bowling For Soup


Another mundane day. Nothing interesting except for this book review (sorta competition) thing where you get a $20 Kino voucher. If your review gets published. Damn I want that baby, along with tens of other Jc1s.


I borrowed Interview with a Vampire, a delightfully good read which I was looking for in the library before. I was rewarded by today's class visit to the library. It's not gonna be easy since the entire J1 level is eligible.


My thirst for a $20 discount of books at Kino could be likened to the intense fervor Lestat has for mindless killings for human blood. Owch. I want to read all of Anne Rice's books, yet I have to cope with mugging too.


I'm so scared I won't get it. T_T I love books too much, haha. Cannot wait to "drain" the story out of Interview. Lovely. I shall be terrible disappointed if I don't get it. =X

Wish me luck then. May the best reviewer win. =D Well, returned home after school since I had no more business there, and came home to do what Mug-landers do best and did hw.


One day they will probably see me lying amongst my Meridian notes, lost forever in a Meridian dream about Meridian homework, and they will lay my Meridian head to rest in a Meridian coffin made from the finest lecture notes. Ha-ha-ha. What entertaining thoughts I have.


Halfway through my concept map of Meiosis, I received a call from Alvin and told him I was at home. Turns out there was another communication failure and I did not receive a relay to stay back because they were designing and signing the appreciation board for the J2s.


Like wth man? How can this happen? I felt really bad about not signing in, but it meant having to make a 40 min round trip. So I asked shawn to help me write something. Later he called me to say they didn't sign fro the people who didn't come, so...=\


How come the relay failed? And no one has messaged me yet. =.= Methinks we need some mass comms people for help. Such important stuff and not passing the message on caused me to be unable to be there when I could. I distinctly recall being the last on the relay, without anyone to send to.


Oh well, what's done is done. Did homework, gonna finish the rest over the weekend and read more of Interview. Gonna go bowling tomorrow and Shawn's gonna come over to discuss planning for the inter-house games. Probably gonna be designing posters. Goody. All hail Photoshop!


After dinner at Macdonalds, I realised I forgot to take the keys when I left the house! My mother got really pissed off and started scolding me, and just told me and my sister to go off on our own.


I was supposed to go for a haircut, but I wanted to show her I could get the keys even as she insisted we were locked out. I got home, pushed open the unlocked door, used a broom to hook my bag over and got its keys out, unlocked the door and got the house keys.


I went back for my haircut and met up with my mum. Loads better now. I told the guy to leave the fringe and back longer. =P She was surprised to see I had the keys and insisted I must have had the keys all along, because I could not have gotten the keys so quickly.


I just smiled and spouted the famous line from Initial D:
其实神也是人，但神得到人做不到的事，所以他成了神。
(Actually a legend is also a person, but he did what no person could do, so he became a legend) Hahaha.


Of course,after that my sister confirmed that I had told her I was going to take the keys, so she had to believe me. and we got home so I'm here blogging...

Yet another day. Arms are aching for no reason. Today, some students from China came to visit Mug-land. They wore matching outfits of full purple for the girls and green and white striped polo tees plus white bermudas for the guys.


Well, one of them went onstage to give a short address, and it was then did I see what should not have been seen. Well, actually it was visible to all in the general vicinity facing the podium. After noticing it and getting slightly shocked, I started studying the floor intently. =X


To her credit, she didn't freak when she realised (if she did!) the slight wardrobe malfunction. Later a couple of the students joined us for a few lessons, and their teachers too.


For compass, we ran through all our general failings in the mid years, got the result slip of damnation, and got berated by the principal, stressing that even if she gave us the generous time of 4 hrs a day STUDYING (not including doing hw!) and 10 per day in the weekends, we would only have 53 hrs non stop to study each subject.


She even said that we were unfortunate as we were (in a nutshell) the Ministry Of Eediocy's guinea pigs for the new system, as the grade for subpass has been raised to 40% from minimum 35%.(the bastards)


And that we also have 6 subjects. All this wouldn't have happened if we were born just one year earlier, when SO many people were having babies. Oh well, what's done is done.


These shocking revelations could cause a sizeable population of the born in '89 generation to consider "wireless" bungee jumping from HDB flats, and the rest will probably be mugging their brains out.


She advised us to start studying now, so I'm off to do economics which has to be handed in tomorrow. Let the cramming begin! 8 weeks more only.


Perhaps after this, you'll see many Mug-land students getting chronic mugging syndrome, with symptoms such as fatigue, eye bags, unnatural addiction to coffee, and obsessive-compulsive reading.


Oh yeah, thankfully CLB is those mythical ace-it-without-studying subjects, and considering you don't NEED 53 hours to study GP, I'll have around 80 hours to concentrate on each subject, so...*prays*


A surefire way to insanity we have here.

SS,DD. Not the shorthand for supply and demand in econs, but same shit different day. Tuesday to be exact, after the timetables were swapped. Magic econs test pulled outta nowhere (I didn't hear of it).


Spent 5 mins to memorise economic efficiency b4 doing the test. =\ Wonder how it'll turn out. Had Bio SPA, no time to do, or even fake the readings for the second fish. Just finished the part about enzymes, and no time for reporting on anomalies.


Hopefully it wont be too bad. Haha. After SPA attended this Security Seminar: Hacking, botting and scripting for counter-terrorits in Counter-strike. Nah, kidding. Stuff on the defense of our nation.


Yet another weekend approaches. Hoo-ray. Another not-as-long-as-the-others-but-pretty-bad-still days tomorrow. Encountering some problems with MI assignment. The first time I decide to do one of the MI questions wholeheartedly, and this has to happen.


Still got unfinished vectors tutorial. and unfinished chem tuto which I got bored of doing/didn't know how to do. Haha. Oh well, back to work much as I dislike it. Screwy question 1. I totally can't find the error, and redoing it on another piece of paper didn't help.


Damn, IE is serious effing slow here, and I can't even run spell check properly an the button doen't show up. WTH is wrong with this thing. =.=


EvilBewarewalkstheamongNinjausMuggers. ;)
(Me one of them? Please, I got 3 'U's... =.= hahaha)

It's all the small things...


I hit my 150th post yesterday and I didn't notice. LOL. Today felt kinda foul, what with Math remed, Chem Bonding test, and all. Life's been kinda sucky after my dismal showing at the mid-years, but its the small things that keep me going.


I just sat down and admired my blogskin just now. Not the best by any standard, but a pretty good effort. I need inspiration for these things. It's the chances I have to create this stuff, and for me to use them that makes me feel, at the end of the day, a small feeling of accomplishment.


Its something which I created, tuned to my preferences, following what I visualised, that gives me this sense. Something customised and unique for myself. Along with the lightsabre. I can't get enough of it, considering its my 1st time I created something like that. =P


I cant remember when I started this blog. Time seems to pass fleetingly(except of course in lectures). Probably early in my 1st 3 months...I'm thinking of taking a peek at my first post. Hehs. Things change, people change, friends come and go.


The only thing that seems constant here is my family and I. Even my sec sch classmates who came to MJ are in different classes. Like what I saw today on the bus.


Without a seat, and with nothing to do, I just stared at the strips on the road flashing by. Seems like my life now. Bumpy, erratic, and confusing. If only it could be like the one closer to the edge of the road...smooth and unbroken.


Probably need a few years more for that. I was lulled into a trance as the lines darted here and there, changing into doule yellow threads, then a short hypnotic zigzag pattern, sped up by the velocity of the bus. Finally I reached Sengkang, where I caught the train home.


Seems to me life is a neverending journey. And it probably is, you know. JC is just another stop on the line. The next is Uni. We may make friends getting on or off at these stations; maybe pick up a spouse and kids on the way, but we'll all reach The End of the Line one day. And then, it's up to our kids to continue taking the train...

The lightsabre pic looks magnificent as my hp wallpaper. Hehs. Not as grainy as the blog one, and not as small as the MSN dp. Looks perfect. Cant wait to show others. Imagine if we all did a class photo like that? 27 lightsabres of different colours, hues, tints, and shades. Hehehe...


Studied CB (Chem Bonding lah), and read my Bio SPA notes. Back to studying after this. Had dinner at R'vale Mall, where I RAN INTO MR CONRAD a few tables away. O_O Lol.


Earlier in the afternoon, my mum was clearing up stuff, and she brought out some old toy which evoked some great memories. Too bad I can't experience them now. I then came across The Coolest Toy I Ever Owned which she said I had painstakingly put together by myself.


It was extremely mindblowing, with all sorts of interchangable and movable parts and pieces. It was so old I never saw another toy like it before, and I couldn't remember playing with it.


It had a rubber band gatling gun, and could shoot lots of plastic pellets from a double barrel cannon mounted on the front. Lots of fake plastic swivelable guns too. And 6 plasitc characters. Oh, and it shoots spinning propellers too.

I only took 2 pictures before my camera ran out of batteries, but what the hell. =]

The unloaded rubber band gatling gun.

The toy itself. (If you unhitch the front car, it looks more like a tank)

What can I say? I heart photoshop.
[UPDATE]
Was a pretty normal day. Finishing Lasher soon. Can't wait to finish my other books and devour more Anne Rice. Spent an hour sorting out the assorted piles of paper I have accumulated since my stay in MJ. Like textbooks without the covers. Easier to bring to lectures, of course.


Then I left the house at 6.15 to head for PS. Was already pretty crowded when I got there. They had shortlisted me, so there was no need to register. Stood there waiting.


There was this performance by this samba band (hehs I guessed the genre correctly when I heard the music), this amazing guy who is Singapore Idol-Idol material, and looks our age but actually is 14. Like omgwtfbbq.


As the emcee said, There must have been women who went "omg, I just had a bad thought!" when his age was revealed. You totally couldn't see him as a 14 yr old guy instead of someone 18 or 19. And he's releasing an album soon wtf. Lol. He doesn't need Singapore Idol.


There were some bloggers like xiaxue, and this amazing cheerleading team which made the performances at MJ's Colosseum look like jumping jacks. I wondered how the hearts of the middle aged aunties in the audience could stand seeing those lithe girls being tossed high into the air.


They selected 10 people to get prizes, and basically the only prize I didn't like was the Xbox 360. Digicam, Ipod, I want all. Haha. Of course the draw went on, I got jack shit, and watched the lucky person take the car, dammit.


I stood there and calculated that my chances of being selected were, according to the theory of probability, 1/5000 X 1/10 since only 1 of the 10 selected people would get the car, and...my chances of winning were 1 in 50000. Multiply that by 20 to make it 1 in 1 million, and the number becomes a scientific impossibility.


Had my 1st meal ever at Carl Jr's and went home. Oh well, can't say I didn't try. I tihnk my family has no affinity with games involving luck. Sucks eh. My father has bought 4D for decades and he only won once. Third prize.


My mum regulaly fills out those NTUC receipts for entry into lucky draws. No dice. I once got a call saying I had won some stuff, I'm not sure what(sounded like some high class things), and it turned out to be a wrong number.


This, is why I am not ever gonna be a gambler. Hehs. Bring on the IR. Genetic lack of the luck-in-supermarket-lucky-draws-and-lottery gene and common sense tells me I gonna stay away from it.


Aren't I perfect? I cannot take alcohol (tastes like petrol to me), I can't stand cigarette smoke (smell like, well, shitty cigarette smoke to me), and I won't ever gamble.


I've played a few cents a couple of times(lost a few dollars max ONCE), under intense peer pressure and I regret losing. =.= So basically without alchohol and cigarettes, the only way I'm gonna kill myself is by secondhand smoke and ODing on junk food. =P

I guess I was too bored...so...
1. Starting Time: 9:27PM


2. Full Name: [REDACTED] (04/06/14)


3. Best Friend(s): JDA group of executives.(My personal gang =P) , some others.



4.Sexiest Friend: uhh...blank


5. Funniest Friend(s): No brainer. Benedict. CHIENG. Well, he's kinda more lame than funny...but you get the point.


6. Smartest friends: Shawn. Curse you for passing everything! =X
7. Dumbest Person: Uh...
8. Shyest Friend: I guess if they're shy I wouldn't know them all that well...=9. Most boring person: nobody
10. Who Do you get advice from: The person closest to me. Me. =D
11. Height : 169cm, Potassium nitrogen nitrogen boron carbon carbon boron. (Use your periodic table.)


12. D(ate)O(f)B(irth): 11 Sept 1989 (Please do not offend me if you stay in a high rise.)
13. Righty / Lefty : Lefty (Unique ok. =P)
15. Shoe Size :11 I dunno which country.
16. Shoe Brand: Adidas, Converse, New Balance.


17. Do you Crack any Body Parts: Used to. Fingers.
19. Sibling(s): 1 sis
20. Email Address(s): brightside_ken89@hotmail.com
21. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: Zip, zero, zilch, nada, nothing, never had one before.
22. Crush: Nuthin.
23. Liked a Teacher: Kidding me? No.
25. Hope the person you send this to would reply: Up to them. Lol.
26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: No.
27. Ran Into a Glass Door : Kinda ran into a mirror. Once. At singapore science center. Stupid house of mirrors.
29. Gone Skinny Dipping: Lol. No.


30. Nearly hit by a car: Couple of times.


31. Ran into a speeding car: never.



Girls Fill Out About Guys
35. Boxers or Briefs:
36. Tall or Short:
37. Does size matter:
38. Six-pack or Muscular Arms:
39. Body or Personality:
40. Ear Pierced or Not:
41. Sporty or Outdoorsy:
42. Good or Bad guy:


Guys Fill Out on girls
47. G or hipster undies: Anything.
48. Tall or Short: Shorter than me
49. Long Hair or Short: Anything.


50.Dark or Light Eyes: dark.
51. Light/Dark Hair: Anything.
52. Body or Personality: Personality.
53. Ears Pierced or Not: Anything
55. Good Girl/Bad Girl: Anything
56.Hair Up or Down: Anything
57. Sporty or Classy: Class
58. Chicken or Not Afraid: Uh. Anything. Damn I'm very shui bian hor...xD


-------------------------------

Which One is Better
59. Coke or pepsi: Pepsi. Less gassy. (I think)
60. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: Mac.
61. Cats or Dogs: Dawgs.
62. Coffee or Tea: either
63. Eastside or westside: WHat kind of question is this? o_O Either?
64. Vanilla or chocolate: Chocolate. Duh.
65. Cake or Cookies: Me like cookies.
66. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: White.
67. Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset. Lazy to wake up in the morning.
68. Day or Night:hmmm...night I guess. More ppl online.
69. Lights on or off: On.
70. Summer or Winter: Winter. Hooray for snow.
YOUR fAVe.
71. Food: er...plenty
73. Holiday destination: I loved korea
74. Radio Station: 98.7FM 98.0FM
75. Place: umm...anywhere nice


In The Future
76. Will you believe in God: Guess so.
77. What you want to be when you grow up: Researcher? =X
78. Define Love: Love cannot be defined. It must be felt. =P


79. Satan or God or atheist: God. Lol.
80. Do you love someone right now: Well...
81. Do you care about someone: Duh
82. Do you think of someone everyday: I suppose so.
83. Do you think someone is special in any way: Of course. Everyone is speshal! Hahahaha.
84. Finishing time: 9.49PM
85. Date: 14th July 2006


Ha. Done. After finished school today, i went to the phobos ice cream party. Ok I guess, but because there were enough people,(maybe some were at A level oral) there just wasn't the qi fen.


I gorged myself with 3 bowls, some fudge and banana then left. Lol. Went home, read Lasher, watched TV, came online. Anyone who wants to do this thing go ahead. =)

Got my Econs result back today. Taking into consideration that case study takes up 70%, and Essay 30% I got like 25%...another U. The entire class failed, with a top grade of S. so my grades are U U U E C and merit for Chinese B. They sure look like S H I T ! and crap to me.


It's tough here. When your entire class fails econs and half the level fails maths. I have a funny feeling MJ orders more red pens than other schools. I wonder why...


Tried tennis during PE, quite fun. Came home and slacked quite a bit. Tomorrow's a short day plus I already did some work at school. PW was great, we had all the stuff he needed to see.


If my EoM doesn't make it through, I found another article related to our topic in the papers today. Or I can use Kia Ming's website. I'll see his comments on my 1st draft first.


During recess, the funniest thing happened. See, htrye were selling yoghurt blended with fruit, and the sticker on the machine said "I Scream" I was with Ben and he said:"Why must they call it I-Scream and not You-scream? Maybe they're riding in the success of the ipod..."


I went o_O and gave him the WTF look. And the vendor? The vendor gave this classic dots look. It was so perfect you could almost see the sweat on her head. A real life =.=" hahahaha....very beautiful.

I suppose I'll have the weekend to make a proper wholehearted EoM in case he doesn' like my first, catch up on the MI tutorial (damn$%^&*), and probably upgrade my phone software. Singtel smsed to say there was a software upgrade.


Oh, and I probably should go to PS Saturday at 7.15 pm. The say I've been shortlisted to win the STOMP Opel Astra...hahaha..wouldn't that be cool? I wonder did they just sms a few people or everyone who took part. =\


[UPDATE]
Haha! I went to check! 5 thousand people were shortlisted, so its either good or bad 5000is a lot, but considering the number of people who have posted on STOMP, and the fact I only posted for a couple of days, I probably got like 14+ chances. =\ Wish me luck...maybe I'll get a camera or ipod or xbox 360 at least..heheh...
[UPDATE]


I'll go find more info on that later...lol...what if i really won? Lol. Anyway was pretty bad later. The Revelation came today. Not the four horsemen of the apocalypse. The three 'U's of Math, Chem and Econs.


I had thought my mother had forgotten, until she asked me today. What could I say? I'm so screwed. She asked me what if I didn't get past the promos? The thought makes me want to curl up in a fetal position in a dark corner, and start rocking back and forth, whispering to myself.


She asked if I wanted Math tuition. I don't freaking know. Hais. Sucks bigtime. Screw screw screw screw. Downloaded Windows live today. Looks fantastic, very clean and professional. Has a minimalist feel to it, even though all the functions are still there.


Damn for some reason my leg hurts again. I don't know why. Since young till now, occasionally, my legs hurt for no reason, without me injuring them at all. It's like a formless mass of pain inside, usually around the knee.


And it always happens in one leg only, and always disappears over the night, or at least u until I'm distracted my some greater pain. At times the pain is so great I almost wish it could be amputated, and hit my leg several times in other areas so as to take my mind off the stab of pain there.


Only recently did I realise that...
we have no need of masks,
for we are wearing them ourselves.
Some of us...everything we do is a farce.
A show, an act to put on.
Its is truly amazing to see their true character
after you rip off that facade.
Masters of disguise, they think they are,
yet they do not realise that some of us have woken up.
The veil is gone; the illusion shattered.
We see you finally for who you are,
and we laugh derisively.
It is almost hilarious.


Interesting acronyms:PW: Pointless Work, PI: Phony Ideas, GPP: Grossly Pathetic Plans, WR: Worthless Rubbish, EoM: Evisceration of minds. +D Hehehe...

If I could find you now;
things would get better.
We could leave this town;
and run forever...


SS,DD. Same shit different day. Today was not a good day to go to school. I was at the LRT station when I relaised I didn't bring my CCA polo tee. I stopped beside the stairs to call home and get my mum to bring it.


Just then, the train came, and changed my perception. I take back what I said previously about how I had faith in Singapore not being all that impolite. Pah. I wonder what blinded me. Singaporeans, some at least, are the most VILE, filthy, disgusting, and lowly evolved lifeforms ever.


They SOIL the very soil(ha-ha) they walk on, and make me feel absolutely ASHAMED to be a Singaporean. As the train came, A man came running up the stairs, and brusquely knocked into my shoulder with such force it acutally hurt.


I let out an audible "Ow!" but the degenerate did not turn back. He entered the LRT and proceeded to find a seat. I was on the phone at the moment and couldn't not take a photo of him in time to post here. I'm kicking myself for that.


This is the type of thing blogs are useful for. Publicly shaming offensive people as a deterrent to them. Lke the recent news article about some Indian women starting a website where they posted pictures of men who stared at or tried to molest them.


The man was about 50 or 60 years old. So a 50 year old man shocked a teenager with his lack of manners today. Shouldn't it be the other way? I do not profess to be the most polite person ever, but I know where to stand when entering a train.=.=


I waited for the next LRT, and the influx of people coming in from the CENTER caused me to leave from the side, and thus prevent the people who waited in the correct area from entering. =.=


I got out of the staiton to miss bus number 89. So, after effectively missing my train, I missed the bus, and the next bus I took was caught in a traffic jam. I was almost late. Almost.

Lol. Another day of lessons again. I have Bio SPA next week, and Chem Bonding test. During Chi B lesson, the teacher left early so we were released early. Went to library to read, Gladys, Sharraf, Edison, Anmari were there. Soon, the chinese ppl came along. We watched a bit of One Hour Photo. Pretty cool.


Then, Shawn called to say training was earlier. Went outside GO,took bus with him, Yvonne, Terence and BenQ. Training was average I guess. Couldn't pick up at first...my last game was a repectable 150+ at least.


Went home...no time to do my EoM I guess, so I'll hand in the crappy one I did to rush for the perceived deadline yesterday. I'll do a proper one on a different article over the weekend I guess. Received an SMS from Singtel informing me of an updrade to my phone...should go for it over the weekend also.


Gonna go off now...same daily grind tomorrow. I wonder how I survive...haha. I do not regret going to JC, so there's not gonna be any "haha!" or "I told you so!" or "Serves you right!" Its just the packed days are getting tiresome. Thank goodness its only 2 years. Getting back Econs paper tomorrow.


Education causes positive externalities, thus causing market failure. Market failure is an undesirable effect, hence we should all stop studying

As the bridges to the past collapse one by one,
I feel so isolated from it.
What was once cherished,
grows further away and more unsettling.
It was what I never thought could happen;
as the past turned into a shadow and whisked away.


Yet another mind-numbing day. Still slightly sore from the brutal exercises done during PE yesterday. Everytime I sneeze my abdominal muscles still twinge. The excerise were...eye-opening, to say the least.


We were supposed to find another guy and pair up. Then, assuming a...position with several sexual connotations, one wold lie on the floor, the other would go over him, eash grasping the other's ankles.


This then results in a modified form of the uh, sixty-nine you-know-what. As the person lying down pushes your ankles up, you have to go down, like doing a push up on the other person's ankles.


Lack of strength inevitably results in the deeply traumatising crotch to crotch contact. I am not homophobic, but when both parties are straight, it results in a slightly disturbing imprssion.


I cannot remember the second exercise, but the third involved swinging your legs up and down which results in your abs screaming the next day. Lol.


Today was a pretty complicated day. I found out how cruel this place could be, as the results of the lowest scoring students were flashed on the giant screen for the entire cohort to see.


After school, went alone in the rain to Coral Sec for our PW interview with the students. I then discovered my house keys were missing. Later, Ben called and said he had to cancel because something came up.


I took the chance to return to school and search for my keys. Couldn't find it. Dug in my bag. Found it in another compartment.=.= Went home, and was halfway through Lasher when I realised I left my PW notes in the pocket of my pants.


They contained what to bring for the next lesson and all the interview questions we had brainstormed and a map Ben drew for me on how to reach Coral Sec. Now it
looks like its been through Bosnia, Somalia, and Iraq after pulling it out of the wash. Haha.


Now we have 2 days to collate all our PW stuff needed and I also have to get a time to interview Eric and Yomg Ming too. Lol. Rush rush rush rush. Training tomorrow. Fun.

Another bout of self-inflicted SDH(sleep deprivation headache), a by-product of the World Cup finals. I slept 4.5 hours last night. Great match though...including the Zidane scandal.


Then, reached home around 6 after Chem remedial. All hope of extra rest dashed. Packed my bag and starting my EoM now. Have I said I love my project? The develoment isn't recent. It's NOW. Hahas. The day after we learnt of the EoM talk, an article appeared in the papers concerning my project.


How more recent and a more respectable source can you get? Hehs. My brain feels like its too big for my skull, and my entire head is throbbing...the probverbial head-splittin headache.


Spent the break today watching a VCD with some classmates in the library because we had nothing to do. The Little Mermaid to be, uh, exact. When we came, there was a guy illegally in there sleeping with his MP3. We went him to chase him out(We boked the room). Lol.


He must have felt real extra cos he left when the last member of our entered. Later did Recurrence assignment. Its pretty amazing how math suddenly seems simple when you are unpressured, and sitting quietly in the library, able to concentrate on your work.


Read a bit of "Lasher" by Anne Rice. Found out its actually the second book, so there's one before it. Hence, I can't really appreciate it fully. =\ I hope I can find the first few.


My readings stopped for a while recently, until I tried Anne Rice and John Grisham. Hehs. Anyway, better get to doing my EoM. I curse PW and the ridiculous fools who thought up of it.

A collection of random thoughts I had today:


#1 I returned a wallet I found in the canteen on Friday. Later I found I just scraped through bio. Was karma working? Did karma help me to pass? Or was I supposed to get higher but karma didn't help? Go figure.


#2 I realised that the 3 books I bought in Popular, although each contained 2 stories, the first one is a segment of a trilogy. So...I got 3 stories free? Or were they forced on someone who just wants the trilogy?


#3 I MUST watch the finals of the World Cup tomorrow despite what my mum says. How can I just go to sleep and wait for someone to tell me the score on Monday? Lol. Even though I hardly watch soccer,it is the world cup.


#4 A situation like this is what I changed my phone for. The ability to load pictures on to my computer. And the ability to take pictures anywhere.


#5 Let's hope mrbrown's column is able to return. Better not comment too much on this. Ahem. =X


#6 I am so lucky to have hit upon my PW topic. The day after we learned about our EoM (evaluation of material), an article about our topic appeared on page ONE (bottom) of the Today paper. How cool is that? Instant material. No sourcing in books, library, etc. It was almost presented to us on a silver platter. =P


#7 People are certainly taking the chance to use the Reader's Digest survey as ammunition against Singapore. Just because Singporeans don't hold doors open open not mean we are rude as a whole. Maybe we are too accustomed to automatic doors?
lol.


I hold doors open if I observe the person behind me would have difficulty. To criticise our nation because of this survey is like telling a student he will fail biology because he is clueless about non-cylic photophosphorylation in photosynthesis.We may not do well in a certain area, but it does not mean we will fail.


I noticed some acts of courtesy just in my daily goings alone. Today, the bus driver pulled to a stop a few metres outside the bus-stop after he left it so my mother and I could board.


My mother told a woman preoccupied with her handphone that the machine the latter was trying to use was out of order. Singapore is many things, but it is not an uncouth society. The fast-paced life here make reduce our courtesy, but to me, I still do see acts of kindness here.

Here's a sloppy pano shot I put together with a litle fiddling by Adobe and Paint. Lousy, I know, but my first time. Enjoy. Or you can run screaming in the other direction. Whatever suits you.

Update! Turning my depression into ingenuity, I have been turning my'U's into a business. Try my custom nicks!


All I see is UUUU...on my test paper.(1 customer)
I'm lovin' it! U-donalds.(1 customer)
Buy Meridian's Mid-year 'U's! Wakes you up better than coffee. Depression guaranteed or your money back!(currently using this)
Feeling too happy? Need something to sober you up? Try Meirdian's Mid-year 'U's!(1 customer)
Meridian's U Fried Test Paper- Pen lickin' good!
Got 'U'?
U(no)kia- connecting failures
*Do feel free to copy and paste!*
[UPDATE]
Went directly after school to pass this scholarship form to my dad. Deadline was today at 5pm, but I forgot to collect it yesterday. So I had to rush to get it to him. I also discovered Changi Airport seems to be the haunt of some MJCians. =\


Then later, he called and said the school didn't chop the form, and it wouldn't be accepted. =.= So tomorrow I gotta go to school again to have them chop it. Thankfully they extended the deadline to Monday. Speaking of school, it was nothing exciting. Rather like the slaughter of hapless fowl in light of bird flu...


The recent massacre is still not over in U-land at the body count rises. The recent disaster which stikes this nation every middle of the year has, once again, not failed to terrorise the citizens into abject fear.


As survivors stumble around dazed, the death toll continues to rise as new bodies are recovered from the rubble of exam scripts everyday. In the Maths neighbourhood, almost half of the residents were smothered under an unrelenting torrents of S and Us.


The sub-passes and ungradeds started flooding on the 4th of July onwards, and have yet to stop. News has yet to come from the H1 Econs areas, but one can only hope not too many are killed. There is no help internationally for this relatively isolated nation on the Pasir Ris continent.


Another disaster is forecast to strike in October. Scientists have named this occurrence the Promos. It is a miracle that the citizen of this beseiged nation are able to continue living.


I suppose I have either died, or am already half dead. In sec sch, the U grade is scarely heard of. In MJ, we use it until even WE are confused if its U=U or you=U.
I haerd a girl say this to her friend on the bus:"In MJ you come prepared to fail, that's why I'm not so disappointed. I've failed so much, I'm used to it."


It applies to the mid-year massacre this time I guess. I still have not told my mother. It's going to be very...er...painful. After dropping to CLB, I haven't reported a failure to her for a very long time.


Now suddenly in 2 H2, failures? Terrible. I scraped a pass in Bio. By scraped I mean hanging-on-by-the-skin-of-your-teeth-skin-grazing-on-the-floor pass. 45.5% Whaddya think? When subpass is 40-45%. Oh joy. I can only pray for econs, which I haven't gotten back yet.


English. Was an utter disappointment. I disgust myself. I had expected better. Even the TEACHER expected better. =.= Like an unholy transgression on the sacred sanctity , the hallowed halls of my mind. A depressing score.


I know I can do better. But I didn't. I am ashamed of myself. This was not what I wanted. Some may think I did quite well, and I'm arrogant to be saying this. But I'm not. I just know where is my standard, and I have failed to meet it.


It was untolerable. My essay had always been my strongest point. Now, even my Paper 2 has beat it. Even paper 2 doesn't disappoint that much since it was roughly my standard in the past.


I guess maybe I was just a big fish in a small pond back then. The world has changed, my dreams are no more. I know I am not that good; I am not the best. However, not having performed up to expectations has really disappointed me. I don't know. Maybe I am expecting too much of myself. Maybe.

Mundane, short boring day. Attended lessons, slacked a bit in the canteen because the Chinese teacher had to leave earlier for the oral exams.Went home to read


Another long day tomorrow, but not as bad as monday and tues. Got PE tomorrow, which isn't ognna improve my mood. I don't hate PE, I just hate the running part. Mainly because my stamina sucks, and I feel like shit after doing six.


Common symptoms of feeling like shit include, breathlessness, a parched throat, a drenched body, and nausea if I've eaten something that disagrees with me excercising.


Because I didn't feel well previously, I didn't manage to complete the rounds because I ghay kiang(act smart). Ended up wasting my energy on 5 rounds, and feeling the urge to puke and shit at the same time. Not a very good thing.


I lok at tomorrow with suspicious eyes...can't wait for Friday...

Happy Independence Day!!! To the...US...which is...on the other side of the earth. Which means it's probably over by now...pretty normal day. Lazed about reading. Gonna have a pretty short day tomorrow, so cheers! CCA hasn't started for me yet.


Read Kenny Sia...was pretty hilarious, the current video he has. Laughed my head off...lol. And...nothing much else I guess. School starts tomorrow, so goodbye to my 1 week of actual holiday, as compared to the june psuedo-holidays.


Back to the daily grind of scurrying about the grounds, the 8 to 5. The rat race; the relentless intake of infomation as though they were vital elements of life, bestowed upon us by the kindly Mother Nature.


My neck is killing me, and I don't know what's the cause. It's been aching for a couple of weeks. Maybe I should go down to Joo Chiat for a while. Hahaha! At least the authorities are taking up steps to clean up the area. Sengkang's been remaining a pretty clean area, and I hope it stays that way...

Tried to create a blogskin earlier, based on the concept of integrating images(words in a section of text) to link to the different sections of my site. Like this, you could click through using the words.


The problem is, to do it, I would have to create several divisons(I think) for the links, because they are all spaced unevenly throughout the text. What's more, I have 7, to complicate matters.


Most people use small symbols placed all together to provide linking, so I guess its easier to place them all together, but when each of mine requires an exact special place on the page, it became pretty detailed, and i figured I didn't want to spend that much time just making a skin.


So I quit. =]
[UPDATE]
Went to play bowling with Shawn and Terence today. Some good games, some average. Had dinner at Mac's before I went home. This is BEFORE we bought our food.




Along the way I decided to upload a couple of pics I took some days before.
(Once again blogger has decided to have PMS and tell me the blog I was looking for was not found when I tried to post my pics. If its not found ,WHAT is sitting in front of me now???)
(Goody. I accidentally pressed a msyterious key and the entire code for the 1st picture vanished. How time-wasting. Whee.)

Finally fate has spared me and allowed me to post my picture. Thanks.


And...er...this is a mindmap my sister did on Chinese. Owch.


And this is a pic my father took sometime ago...oh yeah, recently I have been reading a couple of webcomics, and a pretty funny one is The Noob. Its at http://thenoobcomic.com and its pretty entertaining for anyone who has ever played an RPG game before. So, go on and take a look. =]

Considering the lack of reaction to my my earlier comments, I feel this blog is on its slow but eventual journey to cyberspace heaven. Whatever. Went to make new specs today.


All the interesting stuff happened today, online.


I was reading www.kennysia.com, and I agreed with him on the recent spate of today's violent (high tech) generation. Intrigued by the Miri video, I scoured Youtube for it, and after a red herring, managed to get hold of it. It still hasn't been taken down, so watch it while you can. If you can stomach it.


The link is here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?search=st+joe+miri+fight+schoolgirl&mode=related&v=lOP4Lu_q-hk


The brazen and appalling actions of these youngsters shocked me when i first saw the video. do note that you have to have a youtube account registered above 18 years old to view it. (You can chg ur age btw if u have an acc)


These girls were kicking and slapping and pushing the girl about, and while there were guys, none of them did anything except till the end of the video. So this is what the generation of today has become.


I do not encourage such behaviour or bullying, and it surprises me that these people allow such a video to be ciruclated freely on the web, caring not if their faces are seen. For example,


I don't want to make fun of the girl, but what is she thinking??? Your schoolmates are actively assaulting a person, and there you are posing in the middle of the clip?

I didn't censor this one because their faces are too grainy to make out. The bullied girl just got a slap in the face.The video comments on Youtube are all condoning the bullies for picking on the girl. It's a good thing that she didn't fight back.


Now that this incident is out in the light, I hope the perps are well and truly punished. You can't just let someone get away with an act like that. So kids, please don't try this at home.


Oh ya, Ben sent me a link to a blog which had a trailer for "15" (Singapore-produced film, director Royston Tan). It contained a minute or so of gangsters doing gang chant, whch is pretty amusing since they're all in Hokkien. other than that, nothing much else...

Sometimes you feel that all the happiness and joy has been sucked out of the world. You feel that no one gives a shit about your existence. And that the planet we live in is just a crucible for suffering.


I just deleted 90% of a post because it was emo and crappy. The gist of it was, my mum was arguing with my sis, and when my sis left for utition, she turned the heat on me.


She felt I was weak, lousy, because I had never worked before. She wanted to see me working at the first opportunity i got. She wanted to see me out there along with my friends, working.


I told her before some of my friends worked at bak kwa shops. She wanted me to get a job there. Or KFC. Basically anywhere. Had I known this was her wish, I wouldn't have submitted my JAE form. Just dropped out to find a job. Like her.


Is it too late to drop from MJ? I have her interests at heart, thats all. She dragged up the past, said I was rude, I talked back, etc. Please. Which teenager has never talked back before? Almost none.


I got angry, told her I didn't want to argue, and stormed into my room to blast music. So that's the rough story. I gotta go soon to fetch my sister from tuition. she told me to do so.


At least we're talking now? Oh, and I'd be happy to consider any job offers, or any vancancies you might know of. Just to prove myself to her.


Oh, and in my anger when I flung my specs onto the bed, then dived on the bed to punch my pillow, I crushed it. So one side is now broken. Oh joy. I am going to get hell from her tomorrow.



[UPDATE]
Now's the calm after the storm, everything's over as though it had never happened. Think I'm gonna read. I don't even have any mood for maple despite the 2X exp now, haha.
[UPDATE]
Life is good. My sis is quarrelling with my mum again and she is blasting music loudly from the speakers and my mum dragged my name into this again. I love my family.
[UPDATE]
My mother and sis exchanged heated words again. What can I say? My sis is he one who always gets pissed easily and the more volatile one. And she's only 12.